saguette

[saguette]

Thats a good question. Favourite issues of JTHM? Maybe youve said this somewhere , if you did i DIDNT SEE IT!

I HAVENT!!!

Short answer: I think my favorites would have to be #4 and #5 the 4th issue is where he dies, very iconic, and the 5th one is a follow up so it leaves so much to chew on that sounds basic but i mean i really like everything that implies and what comes from it, i dont even know where to start honestly when it comes to complimenting it legitimately because alot of my favoritism toward it is personal but those 2 parts are on their own so hefty with potential it makes me crazy. I think most of my ideas stem from those two issues aswell, either because I misinterpreted something or I obsessed over a detail to the point I made something about it. Like this panel i thought was a mirror for some reason then later thought of it as a self portrait:

long-er answer: There's alot of little things I can hyperfocus on, I really like the conversation with nailbunny at the start of issue 4. Ive always really adored Johnnys self aware monologues, that characteristic about himself was always very comforting. That conversation is very obviously a display of his bipolar personality but in general moments of self reflection makes being crazy harder because whether it be self awareness or self hatred you know you cant justify what you do yet you can't help but do, along with not being able to change because you feel like it's pointless or too far gone. You won't be yourself if you change, just hate who you are and live with that. 

Additionally i cannot get over the fact that the Doughboys and Nailbunny are a coping mechanism created by his brain to hear his own thoughts told to him from a different body, Nailbunny being so he won't automatically dismiss it because he just can't trust any thought that originates from himself and the Doughboys being a separate entity he can blame the horrible parts on them and not realize they come from his own psyche. I really love it because even after all that is stated it feels easy to overlook the panel where he brushes off the wall as a creature mimicking his own voice, again pretending like it is not himself just because he hates it.

I feel like its easy to take this literally because this is literally what is happening but after everything that's said this reads to me as another instance of him reassigning aspects of himself to creatures to help cope with it better and the same thing happens when he "realizes" the Doughboys are too alive. I dont think they become alive like that, i feel like in the moment Johnny has a moment of clarity and feels so disconnected from them and their horrible intrusive blabbering its only logical to assume it isnt HIS doing anymore even though it always was. In general i think of the wall as non-confirmed if it exists or not. if you delude yourself into thinking something is there it is there you will feel the same obligations and paranoia as if it was there, practically making it real. That seems self explanatory but its given more weight because i think i remember reading a tidbit of Jhonen talking about monsters and he convinced himself they were real and a bunch of other stuff. I cant recall the reasoning but if im remembering right it really gives good insight. Ive taken alot of stuff in the comics personally and its hard to write down my thoughts because naturally something I love stresses me out to describe so I think i might end up formatting this even messier than before One of the personal things that really drew me in was the whole concept of the world disappearing when Johnny dies. At the time I was at a very bad point of believing nothing was "real" and one of the things I remember thinking about alot was that nothing existed outside of my room and that if I left my room everything outside that room didnt exist either. I remember imagining my windows as solid black because I was always up at night which reinforced the feeling of “nothing is out there”.  This panel still makes me kind of sick to look back on (in the best way possible) because of the house sitting in nothing. i love it alot even with Kriks ugly face on the side.

I know that it now in the comic could be interpreted as his brain losing consciousness so everything "fades to black" as an extreme version of that but at the time it felt very reminiscent of my feelings of nothing existing outside of my perspective or everything being a fabrication just for my sake until i die. Alot of my obsession with JTHM started because i felt like i could actually project my problems onto a character and have them make sense and it wouldn't just be pointless to live through these events. Alot of things in my life connected with the comic which is why i think so many people get drawn to it and it roots itself in them aswell which is very wholesome to me. Like i said alot of my favoritism on moments and issues in the comic are heavily personal, its hard to talk about JTHM without also indirectly inserting some of my POV or issues because theyre heavily incorporated into every idea and thought i have with it but i dont want to babble on too long. (shut up i know i have) Issue 5 really is so amazing because of how extreme it is, everything disappears so what happens after that? What does that mean? Why did that happen?  I remember reading something about jhonen just writing whatever he wanted even if it didn't make sense, so that really made me love that part of the story so much more because It doesn't feel like I need to get the interpretation or specifics correct because it “was” intentionally exaggerated or random. I say was in quotations though because another thing that makes me love it is that I don't believe that very much. Things can be random but they will still always have some reason and I feel like Johnen always downplays how much his emotions and state of mind contributed to JTHM everytime I've read his little notes about the comic, but anyway

This is a very long answer and could be longer but I cant articulate my words very well, I love all the issues but those 2 issues the most and they are a big climax part of the series so it makes sense to pick them even without a million reasons as to why

[saguette]

Do you still use the same brushes as you did last time you got asked (i swear someone asked you ages ago)

my brushes are always changing but i usually go back to the same ones its just the ones i draw with random brushes usually end up being what i post. most of them are heavily edited but the main ones recently have been just pixel brushes i fuck around with/the default pens The default pens are just CSP dot pen + CSP dot pen but opacity pressure turned on

My old art used Dry brushy from the Dawner alot and sometimes i use milipen + a milipen at 43% opacity i will use any brush so its hard to make a list and im too lazy for a drive but i dont mind answering everytime someone asks

[saguette]

idk if it's been answered somewhere else before but do you have any preferred pronouns?

Thank you for asking cuz I havent, I dont mind whatever pronouns people use by default but I do prefer he/him

[saguette]

[saguette]

Todd? Hell naw, SQUEE!

It's an old one, but I still like it... A little.

[saguette]

It's funny to put pusher and franco in the same post cuz I like when tags show which one they're reblogging it for

[saguette]

i was so excited for artfight just to focus on outlast trials. dont look pusher theres an ugly bitch to your right

[saguette]

ARTFIGHT ATTACK #2: @saguette

[saguette]

smells bad on the lower levels cuz thats where all the demon monster internals are concentrated dont you know.

[saguette]

full of love for Johnny and his brain goop..... 🖤 love for you for doing art to him..... hurray.........

I cant stop even if I wanted to.. thank you ❤️

[saguette]

Gorgeous shade of red ver🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸(I tried to make it more like the Sanguine color aargh)

I don’t know I just like Eric and Fear Cult

I came up with this silly idea while being in kinda boring English class or something

[saguette]

i was gonna finish this more but i ended up having to remake most of it from scratch because my file got corrupted and i lost all of my progress. lol

u can see which scenes i locked in for and which ones were just to fill space....

song is p.u.n.k girl by heavenly

[saguette]

[saguette]

fanart for @igallbladder's creations

[saguette]

randoms..

[saguette]

Just wanna add I was listening to sweetmeat by pigface when drawing him and I think it's a fitting song

You still want JTHM asks? Because I kinda wanna see your take on older Squee or just squee and Pepito.

You don’t have too but I’m just interested.

asks/requests will always be welcome its just that i will use them more as prompts if i dont have ideas or ill draw them if i really like it. Ill draw pepito and maybe an older pepito at some point but i really liked thinking about older Squee lol.

I can see him being riddled with so many issues but he doesnt take them seriously because he some sort of outlier separated from everyone else. i think hed be the opposite of Johnny where instead of trying to jump through hoops to rationalize everything he disassociates and tries not to think as much as possible because he knows that what might be true will hurt him. Hes accepted there is something wrong with him but he can think of a world that is better.

his daydreaming and disassociations would probably lead him to see schmee as a form of guidance more than protection when he gets older. After all he doesnt want to think what to do next and has been sort of conditioned to not focus on reality so much to the point he is stuck not being able to function properly, plus when has his free will ever been a good thing anyway? if he has something to do schmee will tell him.

^^i still think Todd can think for himself and second guesses a LOT of things but he has no choice but to be this way so its kind of like he knows better but he cant DO better.

bonus stuff: as a kid hed pull his mattress off the bed to avoid monsters being capable of hiding under it and it follows him into adulthood where he still sleeps on the floor. its also comforting to be low down because he feels hidden.

Schmee also gets beat up and dirty overtime but Todd doesnt feel obligated to fix him because he is afraid to taint or ruin anything associated with Schmee.

i also think hed experience that cartoon trope where he meets whos obviously supposed to be his love interest which is just a female version of himself in appearance (like him with pigtails) but he is so mental he feels nothing for her at all and never sees her again.

[saguette]

You still want JTHM asks? Because I kinda wanna see your take on older Squee or just squee and Pepito.

You don’t have too but I’m just interested.

asks/requests will always be welcome its just that i will use them more as prompts if i dont have ideas or ill draw them if i really like it. Ill draw pepito and maybe an older pepito at some point but i really liked thinking about older Squee lol.

I can see him being riddled with so many issues but he doesnt take them seriously because he some sort of outlier separated from everyone else. i think hed be the opposite of Johnny where instead of trying to jump through hoops to rationalize everything he disassociates and tries not to think as much as possible because he knows that what might be true will hurt him. Hes accepted there is something wrong with him but he can think of a world that is better.

his daydreaming and disassociations would probably lead him to see schmee as a form of guidance more than protection when he gets older. After all he doesnt want to think what to do next and has been sort of conditioned to not focus on reality so much to the point he is stuck not being able to function properly, plus when has his free will ever been a good thing anyway? if he has something to do schmee will tell him.

^^i still think Todd can think for himself and second guesses a LOT of things but he has no choice but to be this way so its kind of like he knows better but he cant DO better.

bonus stuff: as a kid hed pull his mattress off the bed to avoid monsters being capable of hiding under it and it follows him into adulthood where he still sleeps on the floor. its also comforting to be low down because he feels hidden.

Schmee also gets beat up and dirty overtime but Todd doesnt feel obligated to fix him because he is afraid to taint or ruin anything associated with Schmee.

i also think hed experience that cartoon trope where he meets whos obviously supposed to be his love interest which is just a female version of himself in appearance (like him with pigtails) but he is so mental he feels nothing for her at all and never sees her again.