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reblogging here for Michael's dumb little face (and Joe) ~

100 Heads Challenge ⭐ [ 2 / 3 ] → part 1 | part 3

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saw someone make a post of their old livejournal userpics and thought it might be nice to archive mine here, too

bonus old forum signature graphics behind the Read More:

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found this in one of my older sketchbooks ~

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https://web.archive.org/web/20100625065103/http://lptimes.com:80/news2009/aug/news08262009.html

Q: If you could wake up in a different place tomorrow morning, where would it be and what would you do?

Mike: Home, and I’d get a burrito.  I’ve been on tour in Europe and Asia for almost five weeks, and they basically don’t have Mexican food here.

If you lost your creative skill, how would you see yourself making a living?

I hope I never have to think about that.  My wife knows: if I go for a couple days without doing something creative, I start having crazy nightmares and insomnia.

If you could punch one living contemporary artist, who would it be?

If you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all…

Was your first kiss worth writing a song about?

Whether good or bad, isn’t everyone’s?  I never have, though.

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Greatest love of your life?

My wife.

What is your favorite vice?

On tour, Chester, Dave and I play Texas Hold ‘Em literally every other day.  We don’t usually play for a lot of money–$20 dollar buy-ins most of the time—but we play a lot.  In fact, I think we’re going to be putting together a charity poker tournament with Music For Relief soon.

[…]

If you could play a character from a favorite film or TV show for a day, who would it be?

I used to love Knight Rider.  How cool would it be to drive around with KITT?  Actually, a couple of my bandmates and I have joked about turning my car into KITT, painting it black and adding the LED light on the front. The funniest part is that the car is a Prius.

Do you ever lie?

I try not to make it a habit.

[…]

What virtue can you do without?

That’s an awesome question; so hard to answer.  What are the virtues?  Patience, generosity, chastity, courage, morality…I don’t know what they all are.  I guess chastity would go away first!

[…]

What would you like to be remembered for?

Not bad things, I hope.   How would you prefer to die? 

I hate getting my blood taken in a hospital, so hopefully in a way that doesn’t involve that.  Every time I get my blood taken, I get nauseous to the point of throwing up.  In college, we went to USC medical center and drew in a room full of cadavers, and those didn’t make me sick for some reason.  But drawing a little blood out of my arm makes me totally ill.

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so we’re really going to pretend eminem hasn’t made a career out of homophobia, macklemore didnt use the f slur in a song that was supposed to be pro gay, nick cassavetes didnt just compare gay marriage to incest, mel gibson hasn’t said anything…

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Delnoda - for Tamlyn ~ :3

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… and then there was also this canon ship of mine.

I just.

I.

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ssjumi:

Mike Shinoda’s Glorious Excess related shortfilm “Sirens & Silence”

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☆ dressed up Mike☆

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I was just looking for something in my very normal sized LP picture folder and found this again

which reminded me of this

which mentions this

which in return reminded me of this

and i don't have any point here. i just remembered this ship again lol

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sry for pulling this out of the Read More but i don’t want to lose it ^^’

Dave had always wondered about the connection Mike and Chester shared.

It wasn’t the kind of routined, old, deep friendship Mike had with Brad.

It wasn’t confident, solid, interest based as with Joe or the brother-like relationship he had with Rob. It wasn’t even the teasing, easy connection Dave himself shared with Mike.

At least not anymore.

Strumming his acoustic guitar Dave considered the beginning of the Mike-Chester thing. How even back then he had been a bit amazed by how well they had hit it off. How it had seemed to him that the two of them had instantly fallen into eachother’s open arms. Open hearts included. Dave was sure Mike knew things about the singer not even his wife or maybe more importantly his ex-wife was aware of.

Going through some random accords Dave tried to compair their relationship to a marriage. Unsurprisingly he had no troubles imagining them as a couple.

He thought about the parallels, their beginning as intense as the love Chester and Samantha had shared. No walls. Complete dependancy. A dedication that bordered on fanatism.

And then the end of that phase.

Dave had always been rather empathetic. He had noticed the downward spiral Chester had been on. How it had all added up, continuously getting worse. How fed up with himself the singer had been. How much worse everybody else and finally even Mike getting fed up with him had made him feel.

He remembered the time the only thing connecting them had been the music.

Just as it had been when Chester had first joined them, minus the underlying positive outlook.

He wondered if Chaz maybe had seen Mike as a partner, too. Whether or not he had projected too much onto their friendship.

To be honest, Dave initially had thought Mike had only thrown himself into building up their connection for the sake of the band. Giving all of himself as compensation for the luke warm camaraderie that had developed between Chester and the rest of them.

Playing bits and pieces of the Breaking the Habit melody he thought about how years later he had changed his mind.

About Mike creating their friendship. The calculation he had suspected behind it all.

Somewhen he had accepted that the thing between the two men had just come to be. Without planing. Actually, Dave thought they were mainly driven by instinct.

He thought about brain chemestry and how maybe their personalities had been made to match.

A big cosmic accident? Luck? Fate?

He opened his water bottle and took a sip. Maybe it was meant to be for Mike and Chester to get through and eventually over all of that. He thought it tragically funny how their relationship survived all that but how Chester seemed to constantly run around with a more or less broken heart.

He hated himself for thinking it but despite all the contant assurances by the singer and his wife (and ex-wife; and mother of his other kids; and God knows whom else) that they were happy he couldn’t help but believe that- eventually- that relationship too would break. That in the end next to his love for his kids Linkin Park was the only absolute constant in the singer’s life. Mike the only anchor he had.

Distressed he set the bottle back down. Why couldn’t Chester’s life be a bit less complicated? It felt like even his kids couldn’t give him the save ground Dave thought Chester needed. There was no regularity. No unchanging part he could concentrate on.

Sure, the weird schedule, they all knew that. Obviously. But when they came home they always came home to the same people. They usually knew whom to expect once a tour was done. They didn’t need an organizer to know when who of their families were supposed to be where.

Falling into the melody of Burning in the Skies he wondered when Chester last had had the chance to be alone. Just by himself.

The thought that there might be a connection crossed his mind. Was this a reason for his big family? Was he scared of being alone? Was the maxi-family he had going a way to avoid being on his own?

He chanced a glance at Chester sitting next to Mike on the sofa, both of them working on what seemed to be lyrics.

How many demons were still lurking underneath the surface? How happy was he really?

Dave watched Chester watching Mike as he explained some thoughts, trying to get his idea across. Chester was looking at Mike as if he was the only person in the world, Dave thought.

The marriage comparism came back to him.

The singer’s chest tattoo was partially visible and Dave had to smirk looking at the rose between the banners holding part of Chester’s family’s initials.

10 years.

Wasn’t that anniversary celebrated with roses somewhere?

Connection

Dave had always wondered about the connection Mike and Chester shared.

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I sometimes see people in the Linkin Park tag wondering about/being disgusted by others engaging in things like fanfiction or fanart, especially when it features pairings (most popular example: Bennoda), cause, after all, we’re talking about actual people here and not fictional characters like in the majority of other fandoms. The idea of shipping and brutal angst!fic and stuff like that with actual people as characters can be weird for some people, who aren’t used to it. So… I decided to illustrate how there’s a difference between the Mike I (as an example of someone who engages in RPF/RPS) use/see in such fanwork and pairings and the actual Mike Shinoda, who’s living somewhere in or near L.A. and most likely doesn’t do the stuff we imagine him to do.

… I actually kinda like forgot where exactly I wanted to go with this while I was drawing it, though *lol* but I think I at least got some point across. I guess. And even if not, who cares, Mikey on a leash that is in my hand, yay XD

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holy shit is the new musicvideo cringe

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don't mind me just testing out tumblr's new content filtering stuff~

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“It was Brad, the guitar player in the band, that had complained to their security people,” Cheez told Vegan. “And then, since the incident, though, that’s where really the fun part’s begun because I got a call from their production manager on Sunday, asking me to squash the story, that they didn’t want anymore press on it and that they were willing to buy us some more weed. This was coming from Mike Shinoda, which was cool. And trust me, I love Mike and Chester is one of my very good friends. But Brad is probably the most un-rock-and-roll dude I know. I mean, those headphones he wears on stage? He’s not wearing those because they’re monitors. They’re like gun headphones so he can’t hear anything. Who does that?”

Cheez added, “They’re a corporate machine that prints money and I understand they want to protect their image and stuff like that. But we’re a rock band. We bought into the whole sex, drugs and rock and roll thing and we’re trying not to let it go. I’m pretty sure the reason Chester joined Stone Temple Pilots is just so he could still tell people that he’s in a rock band. I’m just guessing. Cause Chester is rock and roll. That dude is legit. And he’s as good as it gets. So in no way do I want to slam Chester in any of this because he is the man… It’s just such a bummer that he has to be in a band with dudes like that.”

After joking about the prospect of a marijuana allergy, Cheez joked, “The sad thing is, now Linkin Park’s gonna have to start smoking crack just to get their credibility back.”

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