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she's so girly pop ✨💕

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deltarune is a wild ride man

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gif I made

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me and @xlunajrosex 's wonderful OC with this template is a brick to the teeth 💕🥰💖🫶

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die

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a quick break from my eltingville obsession to show you some Noelle fanart, i'm in love with all our Deltarune chapters (i'll be spoiler free for at least a little while so don't worry :3 )

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How the Eltingville Club would react to you being gay

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I need to take this off my mind and write it down but whenever I think about the last issue of Eltingville Club I get so damn depressed because. Listen. Listen. I hate Bill Dickey more than anybody on this Earth, apart from Evan Dorkin himself probably. Everytime I think about him being a teen and the biggest most realistic jerk to ever be on printed page I want to bury him in insults, I wished he was real so I could run him over with a car, I torture him with my mind, I hope he dies of the incurable condition of being a little bitch (citation needed).

And then I think back on the last issue and I get so depressed for him. Like for Pete and Josh too, don't get me wrong, but for Bill is exceptionally strike him because I hate him so much. I should be happy to see that mean asshole grew up to be nothing but a looser with nothing to live for, right? Right? I should be happy that at horrible person suffers and never gets anything to be happy about after all the damage he has caused, and yet. I only feel so fucking sad for him.

When I think of the Bill Dickey I hate, I picture a brat with acne and pettiness to spare, and I pretty fucking hate that guy, but that guy is also. Like 15. That's the world's most annoying piece of shit 15-year-old, but that's still a 15-year-old. Even if you burn down a comic shop, you're still 15 years old and that should mean you have your whole life ahead of you. You can change. You can reinveng yourself. You can skip city or country you can die your hair you can start a new hobby you can make new friends (I did) you can do anything- or should be able, and Bill is, to do anything.

But in the final issue we find out that's the same old Bill, who's done shit since he was 15, who hasn't changed at all, and I should be angry with him, but I mostly feel sad.

He's living a shitty life and I should be so hapoy he gets what he deserves but I see a man who first thing first brings up a burned dowm comic shop like "Yeah that's who I am. That's who I'll ever be". And I hate that so much because no, you're actually choosing to be that guy but you don't have to, that's a prison of your own making, that you're building day after day for some fucking reason.

I always think about that quote from Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead: "There must have been a moment, at the beginning, where we could have said -- no. But somehow we missed it." That's how I think about Bill when I think about the last issue. It never had to be this way. There was a point- it could have been every point- when he could have said fuck this, I coukd be doing so much better. It's implied that he moves away after the incident at comic book shop. He could have started again in a new city, with new friends, new life.

But he's stuck at 15, he never matured, if not physically, he never seemed to make new friends, find new passions, move away from his parents' house, he did nothing. Nothing at all. He grasp onto being a hater for the sake of it, because there seemes to be not a single thing to love or appreciate in his life. And this makes me sad. Sad for Bill fucking Dickey, who I think is the biggest asshole alive.

I don't know, maybe it's because I know what it mean to be stuck. If I could travel into the Eltingville Club comic I would meet teenager Bill, hit him with a steel chair and then grab his face and with imploring eyes whisper to hin that there's still time. He doesn't have to be that guy who burned down a comic book shop, he can be so much more. He can go to college and move out and find love and read a book instead of a comic and learn to be autoironic and so much more and that shit's gonna hurt but in the long run it'll barely even matter. It'll barely even matter.

You'll always be 15 in my mind, Bill. You don't have to be a piece of shit for life. There's so much more you can become. There's so much more life yet to live.

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congratulations josh!! you win!! :)

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when do i get upgraded from eltingville autism to super smart doctor autism? asking for a friend

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yeah so here's this loser about to commit an actual crime

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JERRY TIME, MY FAVORITE BOY

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who was gonna tell me animation is hard and takes many hours??? rude

( i already knew i'm just stupid )

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Finished finals week after 40 slides and a mock job interview, here's Jerry Strokes and William Anal Dickey ✅

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since i've had so many new people visiting my account, i thought i'd just put this here (just in case anyone is enticed lol)

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SOMEBODY HELP MY BOY JERRY, HES GETTING ATTACKED BY A STUPID COMIC BOOK NERD