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cameron nunca me podrán hacer odiarte

Something I noticed rewatching DPS that I feel like I’ve never really seen talked about before: when the Poets wake up Todd to let him know that Neil is dead, Cameron isn’t with them. He isn’t in that scene at all. Sure, maybe Charlie told him and he grieved privately in their room, but I honestly think he was an oversight and wasn’t alerted until later on.

I think this is one of the strongest explanations as to why he rats on Keating and goes so easily with authority: this is the final straw to make him feel like an outsider. As much as people like to say that Cameron is a rule follower through and through, I don’t think that’s the case. After all, he was the second person to officially join the Dead Poets Society behind Charlie.

I think Cameron has always looked for acceptance and structure, hence why he tends to be a teacher’s pet. If he can’t make friends, then he can at least find his value in being a good student. But then Neil and Keating spark something in him, a want to be accepted not for just the rules he follows but for who he is. So he hesitantly breaks the rules he found comfort in, finds community with his friends, relaxes enough to joke with them and chant and rough house.

Of course there are the small comments Charlie in particular makes to alienate him, but he’s finally doing it, he’s finally becoming a part of the friend group and valued for who he is, even if it required Charlie becoming his roommate and breaking some rules to get it.

He bristles slightly when this guy, Todd, who so clearly doesn’t want to be involved gets accepted into the group with open arms. Cameron had to fight his way in tooth and nail, provide help for homework and force jokes where he saw the others would naturally, yet here comes this silent kid who begrudges everyone yet still has the same standing as him. But he brushes it off since they’re all friends.

What serves as his breaking point is waking up the day after the play to sullen friends and tear stained faces to realize that Neil is dead, and not only that, but everyone has been told before him and have already processed it somewhat while he’s still reeling. And the worst of it all is that they even told Todd before they thought to ever wake him up, the kid who, in his eyes, had just met the guy.

Neil was arguably the Poet Cameron was closest too, and with the betrayal of his delayed announcement on behalf of the others, he trusts no one now. Not only that, but he is scorned. Why do they get a say in who gets to know first? Why does the new kid get grounds to mourn more than him?

So he turns back to the constant which has never failed him other than making him albeit a bit hollow: authority. And in his young and betrayed mind, it becomes believable that this really was all Keating’s fault, that this weird and different authority figure who made them rip up textbooks had some kind of part in disrupting the normal he had gotten used to. And this way, he really believes he’s getting justice for Neil while also saving all of the Poets from being expelled because despite the betrayal of being left behind, he still cares about them.

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In dead poets society Neil plays Puck, the character who tells the audience that the play may have been nothing more than a dream.

Neil then dies thinking his potential in acting and the power of poetry has all been reduced to nothing more than a dream.

This is of course a reference to the fact that the people who wrote dead poets society are EVIL AND SHOULD HAVE TO PAY FOR MY THERAPY.

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Quincy: Marry me, Lucy

Lucy: I can't, I love another

Quincy: What? Who?

Lucy: Arthur

Quincy: Damn, he was my backup plan

Lucy: What?

Quincy: What?

Lucy:....

Quincy:....

Lucy:....

Quincy: So is Dr. Seward...?

Lucy: Yeah, he's totally available, go for it cowboy

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i can't get over that meeks wrote stephen instead of steven on the paper to fire keating so it wouldn't be him actually signing it. omg my baby

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The day that I die, as soon as that is, spread my ashes in the sea.

But make sure that the day is calm, so that the waves don’t annoy me while I float towards the infinity

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There should be flowers by J. Jennifer Espinoza

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asking about you by Eloise Klein Healy

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fr. “Antilamentation” by Dorianne Laux

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on watching a parent age

i saw somebody say “what if you’re gone and i haven’t become anything yet” and basically that broke me on a random thursday evening

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also a poem from the new, unreleased collection. very possibly my own all-time favourite.

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me gusta el internet mientras que la gente es maja y agradable y mira un vídeo gracioso

me da miedo el internet cuando veo que hay gente que tiene acceso ilimitado que da muy mal rollo. alejaos de mi

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& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!

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sometimes i just randomly remember neil and todd and i smile so much 😁😁🥰🥰

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above everything, I was born in the right era because I LOVE hearing the little pieces of wisdom from people I’ll never meet from places I may never visit and use them to feel at peace with my life

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onwards, comrades

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ik there’s like 7 movies about it but we should make living dinosaurs BUT just the herbivores.

hear me out it would be fineeee, maybe he will step on me and kill me but he didn’t mean to, okay????