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Hey, what do you want to see most in Thailand?

Hard to say because there's so many things I want to se. But I guess this trip wat samphran (the pink dragon temple) is one thing I'm really looking forward to. I'm only here for a bit more than two weeks this trip so I'm sticking to the Bangkok area but in the next couple years I want to do a longer several month trip and see all the different regions of the country.

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Goodbye Toronto!

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How am I supposed to sleep tonight when I’m so excited about tomorrow! I need to wake up 6am and then leave at 8am for the airport? My friend has a friend in Osaka I can meet up with but she has to go to a hostess club for a school project but said I can tag along? Not at all what I imagined doing during my layover but sounds like an experience to say the least. Only issue is there was just a typhoon, all my plans are weather dependent I guess. Worst case scenario if it’s raining too much I’ll just stay close to the airport. There’s a little commercial area where I could get food and go to 7-11 but I hope the rain is light and I can head into the city for a few hours.

Too exciting!! I can’t believe I’m going this I’m losing my mind it’s all happening just like that

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Had such a nice day was genuinely in such a good mood all day. It was my mom’s birthday my sisters came into town and we all went for oysters.

Right now I’m doing the last of my laundry so I can pack tomorrow and be ready to leave the day after.

My ex dropped off the last of my stuff that was at his place and took the couple things of his I had. That didn’t even bother me but then I was just reading about the history of Cumbia and it reminded me of our last date the day before I ruined everything and we broke up. Feeling a bit down now, I hate how it always happens late at night I can feel fine all day and then get sad at 11pm.

Tomorrow will be so busy I need to pack, clean my room charge all my devices and locate everything I need for my trip, I can’t wait I booked it today and I randomly ended up with a whole 24 hours in Osaka on my way to Thailand so I guess I get to spend a few hours in Japan which is cool.

Tomorrow will be a good day.

I want to text him but I guess I won’t, I don’t know if I should let him know I’ll be out of the country for 3 weeks or not. I want to tell him if he needs me he’ll have to text me on Instagram because I won’t be able to use my phone. But I also want to respect his space and leave him alone. It’s really hard to know when I go on this trip (which is partially to escape him and move on) that I can’t message him and tell him all about it. I’m used to telling him everything about my days but I guess now I just have this blog since I don’t want to bother my friends with my feelings, they’re busy with their partying anyways.

I’m so excited I finally have everything I need and I can go to bed tomorrow night ready to wake up early and leave. I know I’m doing the right thing with this trip.

I know I should unfollow him on insta but I can’t I need to be able to see he’s posting and make sure he’s ok with his health condition and everything. And I want to see posts of his dog too, I was there with that dog since the beginning I hope I get to walk him again someday.

1 week sober today too lol