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[saturniid-screaming]

The House Cat and the Stray

tw: mention of blood, mention of teeth

My teeth have grown dull

not the dull of over use

of enamel scrapped against bone

But the slow dull of inaction

of soft and warm nights

spent safe and comfortable

I am grateful for this gentle life

and for the healing that is brings

But I feel again the urge to run

to feel the earth beneath my feet

To taste fresh blood on my tongue

and to sharpen my teeth against bone

[saturniid-screaming]

Your Parting Gift

tw: maggots, mild gore, disease, parasites, worms, wasps, insects

Maggots fall from your mouth and hands

A writhing tide of sickness and of filth

They burrow into my skin, chew through my muscle, swim through my veins

They riddle me with the parasitic infection you have given me

You released these larva into me

And now that they have grown

Now that wasps tear through my rent flesh

You have the nerve to act surprised?

[saturniid-screaming]

Arachnophobia

TW: spiders, arachnophobia

When I open my mouth spiders fall from my lips

Their twitching arachnid forms spill down my chest in a flood of juddering limbs and dark carapace

They hit the floor and scuttle off to the hidden corners of your room to built their webs

In the husk of my body their mother has spun her own web in the hollow of my skull

She pulls this string or that string and my arms and legs move in a near perfect imitation of life

At night you pull me close and whisper

"Before I met you I was never afraid of spiders"

[saturniid-screaming]

Content Warnings: swearing and mild reference to injury

Fuck this, fuck this, fuck this. All of the time and energy I put into healing was fucking wasted. Up ending my life for this bullshit was wasted. I didn't learn anything, I barely remember anything and I don't even know if the work I did was necessary. I'm right back to where I started. Trapped in an endless cycle of healing and harm. The stitches are gone but the wound remains.

[saturniid-screaming]

WARNING: Please Read

Hi, this is a side blog I have made to give myself a place to vent and share some of my poetry about more personal things that don't fit the tone of my main blog.

WARNING: I am an adult, some content will likely be 18+ Relevant trigger and content warnings will be at the top of a post, the tags or both.

Similarly, I sometimes have a very chaotic writing style when I am trying to express difficult things. This includes use of some grotesque and potentially triggering imagery and metaphor.