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"I pray not to God, but to the peace that lives here"

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Every step forward brings more emptiness.

And the exit is farther away, or maybe it never existed🌕🪽

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Nothing calms me down like painting

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"I was raised by shadows. And now I'm watching instead of living."

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Everyone looks, but no one sees

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Follow up question :

Why do you feel the need to always have things under control?

Why do I always want to have everything under control?

Because there is no one waiting for me in the chaos. Neither security nor stability

Control is my way of stitching reality together so that it doesn't crumble right under my feet

It's like drawing lines when the world around you is smeared with spots of fear and uncertainty

When I'm in control, I exist

Although in today's realities it's very difficult

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"Do you think I'm looking at you?

no

I'm looking through you"

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Now I look at the world not to trust, but to survive

My flowers grew out of scars,

That sees through masks, words, and promises

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Teach me to love without tearing out my own heart...

But if you can't, at least look me in the eye before you lie to me again

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What's the obsession with the eyes? If you don't mind me asking.

I draw eyes all the time because it's my way of keeping the world under control. When I draw them, it's like I get my strength back. It's my personal form of self-soothing: when I'm anxious, scared or feeling bad, I take my pencils and draw eyes. They can be different, just like my emotions. Through them, I express what I feel, and at the same time, I seem to remind myself that I can still see, still feel, and have the right to do so.

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Maybe the point is not to find answers,

but to have the courage not to look away

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He had no heart

But I gave him mine

With a smile,

with blood on my lips

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The line between beauty and horror is as thin as a thread

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A little sketch