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We're getting more menagerie!!!! Sam at the table sam at the table yeeeeeeee

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got real sad about fcg when qi got mentioned.

from e81

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Among the many reasons why Matt probably wouldn't allow Sam to bring Scanlan into bells hells is because the pure spiritual pressure between him and Dorian would explode all of Exandria along with Catha and Rudius and thus end the campaign.

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feel like pure shit

just want him back

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headcanon that elves grow their hair slower than humans and essek just never got a haircut since he left rosohna so he has a weird grown-out undercut going on

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ashleyisms for the soul

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There was pretty much no way I wasn't going to do this

Click for quality!

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Bells hells deserves to go to a Scanlan Shorthalt concert. As a treat for the hard work they’ve been doing.

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Ooh ooh ooh, what made you start your blog and do you collect anything?!

It's like the 3rd or 4th time I remade my blog tbh, I was looking for a place to share my pics that isn't instagram or twitter because I really dislike both, tbh. Always had a soft spot for tumblr.

I don't think I collect anything? Do art supplies count? Because I have a lot of them. My already bad impulse control is basically non existent when it comes to paints, pens and paper!

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Why FCG's death feels unsatisfying to me.

TL:DR; not enough rp.

It's nobody's fault - the timing just didn't work out in CR's favour. The EXU cutaway in e92 was inspired, and I'm a huge fan of how it added depth and stakes to the story. We know from 4SD that it was planned well in advance, so even the players were aware that they'd have very little time to react to FCG's death. Again, it's nobody's fault that the party didn't initially have time to grieve in a satisfying way.

CR had their work cut out for them in e93 - close the chapter on EXU and reintroduce Dorian to the party. If you imagine there hadn't been a recent PC death, it would have been perfect - but the fandom was aching for more time to process FCG's sacrifice. It's very hard to feel the absence within the party when there's suddenly been a new addition - especially because it's Dorian/Robbie, who is a brilliant and funny and fits like a glove.

This was also the episode that confirmed that resurrection or reincarnation was off the table. A lot of the fandom has speculated that this was the case, as otherwise the sacrifice wouldn't have had the same weight. Unfortunately, this also means that Bell's Hells have nothing slowing them down - which became apparent in episode 94.

At first, it felt like we might finally get some down time for the party to just talk to one another, to reflect on their loss and to make some decisions about how to go forward and what their motivations were. Between Fearne and Orym's surprise combat and the lore dump / NPC cameos in preparation for Aeor, there has been very little interpersonal time.

Even if the episode 95 is less lore and more role play, the momentum from FCG's death has now been lost. It's been a month in real time since they died. Most of the fandom has recovered from the shock, but a lot of us still feel the sadness and really just want the catharsis of characters just talking it out. It just feels less and less likely that it's going to happen. Maybe in a week I'll need to eat this post when they have a decadent role playing episode and everyone gets to say some stuff. I'm in love with this story so I feel bad for wanting things to slow down a little.

I guess I just wanted to write this up to try and process why I'm feeling sad.

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Let's not forget, Scanlan Shorthalt is a champion of Ioun. So that motherfucker has gotta be involved somehow.

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so just to summarize, essek thelyss’s fake name came from the middle letters of his own name and the panic fake name he made up for his mom came from the first chunk of their last name.

veth must be so proud ☺️

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site that you can type in the definition of a word and get the word

site for when you can only remember part of a word/its definition 

site that gives you words that rhyme with a word

site that gives you synonyms and antonyms

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If the Good Moms of Critical Role ever learn about the shit Liliana's pulled it's on sight 😤

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look man. look

essek saying "bren" out loud, claiming a position on caleb's side as the mouthpiece of his regards to astrid, did something to me. i can't tell if it opened a wound or punched me or gave me a hug. all i know is that i am feeling so many emotions right now

more under the cut because i'm about to get rambly:

"bren aldric ermendrud" is a separate character from caleb widogast. he's a young boy learning how to make magic. he's a deeply traumatized and indoctrinated teenager. he's the boy who curled up with astrid and eadwulf in a freezing tower for warmth all night.

essek never met bren. he met caleb and he's never known him as anyone else. if i'm remembering correctly, caleb never even said the name "bren" to him during the campaign, and neither did any of the nein.

essek knows caleb widogast. he knows the man who held up the object of his worst crime and then kissed him in the bowels of a ship and made a floor of infinite stars for them to walk through together. he knows the person who healed over bren's wounds—thinly, but enough. he knows the man that the boy has become.

astrid knows bren. she barely knows who caleb is. she still calls him bren after hearing him referred to as caleb repeatedly. she can't know him as the man he is, she only knows the boy. there's some of bren in caleb, but there is no caleb in bren.

essek saying "bren sends his regards" is him gauging astrid's reaction, on one level—if she freaks out, which she did, she's in opposition to caleb's cause and thus a threat. on another level, it's essek delivering a very different subtextual message from caleb: "the boy who loved you is giving you one final warning."

because essek is a threat to astrid. their last meaningful interaction was slinging spells at each other in the blooming grove. and that's funny in a "current boyfriend vs ex girlfriend exclusively fight each other" kind of way, but it's also deeply tied to caleb's recurring theme of transformation. "bren sends his regards" also means "i have healed enough to love enough for someone else to know this name and use it with my consent. and this someone else is your enemy. what does that make you think i've become?"

it also does a fantastic job of communicating subtle offscreen discussions that have happened over the years since the end of c2. we don't have the details of when or how caleb told essek his birth name, but we know that he did, and we know from all of c2 that the name bren occupies a place of immense emotional weight for caleb. it functions similarly to a deadname in terms of who uses it and for what purpose. trent exclusively calls caleb bren to wound him and place himself in a position of power. astrid calls him bren to remind both him and herself of who they used to be—same with eadwulf, though obviously he's not here.

the first time we hear essek say "bren" is on caleb's behalf and confronting one of the narrative representations of caleb's trauma. it's four words that manage to communicate "i, your enemy on a hundred levels, can speak for both the man i love and the boy who loved you, because i know him in his entirety."

astrid knows bren and essek knows caleb, but only essek can speak for both. because at some point, caleb gave bren to essek. and we know this from four words. four IMPROVISED words.

god. this moment is just so fucking good

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You’re getting married to your Tumblr pfp how fucked are u