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less than one angel high

hi everyone, long time no see on ao3! about six months ago my bbc sherlock hyperfixation rose from the dead and grabbed me by the throat so i wrote this fic to cope. i hope you enjoy it bc i felt truly unhinged writing this at 4 am.

summary:

sherlock returns from the dead, and john returns from grief. they help each other remember how to live.

or: six times that sherlock gave john permission to touch him. set after the events of The Empty Hearse.

main tags: sherlock holmes/john watson, angst with a happy ending, ptsd, panic attacks, autistic sherlock holmes, platonic life partners

External link: AO3

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τυρὸς δ’ οὐ λείπει μ’ οὔτ’ ἐν θέρει οὔτ’ ἐν ὀπώρᾳ, οὐ χειμῶνος ἄκρω·

"But cheese does not abandon me, neither in summer nor in autumn, nor at the end of winter:"

--Theocritus Idyll XI.36-7

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You remember Jane Austen? Yeah. I'm not gonna forget her in a hurry, am I? The brains behind the 1810 Clerkenwell Diamond Robbery. Brandy smuggler. Master spy. What a piece of work. She wrote books. Novels. Jane? Austen? Yes! Whoa, bit of a dark horse. Novels, eh? Yes. They were very good. Good Omens (2019-) || Pride and Prejudice (2005)

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what i hate most about the dynamic aziraphale and crowley have is the way people somehow always seem to interpret it as crowley loving him more than aziraphale loves him back. and it's sooo frustrating because yes crowley is more open and honest about how he feels but aziraphale shows it, reeks of it. literally one of the things that fuel his internal conflict is that he cares for and trusts and loves crowley so much that for the first time something actually rivals his devotion to heaven, so much that he agrees to the fucking arrangement because he trusts crowley more, so much that he doesn't even know where to put it or what to do with it or how to admit to it

every single time he "chooses heaven" it's because he's allowed himself to sink too deeply into this love and that's what springs the catholic guilt into action. the final scene isn't even aziraphale choosing heaven over crowley, but him saying i can make heaven good enough for you, and he's so fucking happy because he thinks he's finally found a loophole, and when crowley says no he literally thinks he's the one being rejected. quite literally the entire show is aziraphale trying to find a way around it and explain it away and make excuses but my brother in christ he loves him so much he can't even bear to face the magnitude of it

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"The point is," said Crowley, "the point is. The point is." He tried to focus on Aziraphale. "The point is," he said, and tried to think of a point.

[insp.]

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More Good Omens doodles

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Genre of character: submissive like a guard dog is submissive

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growing up I was always afraid of being Found Out. not sure what I was hiding. just my whole self I guess

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Shoutout to everyone who has died and come back sluttier each time

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I'm like if a chivalrous knight kissed a fair maiden's hand and said "my lady, I fight for you" and then walked off and immediately tripped over his own armor and fell on the ground

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“It makes no damn sense! Compels me though,” and “no, it’s JUST DUMB” are the two most important additions to the general vernacular ever

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shoutout to everyone dealing with. thhe fucking difficulty

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Ya'll read this thread ! It's not something I have actively thought about but I think they make a great point here.

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IM GOING FERAL WTF