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Nothing too serious just, uhhh,,, forgot my anxiety meds and now my entire body has me paralyzed on a couch scared that I’ll run into another scary human while also fretting over the communal nature of the very couch I trapped myself in

If someone could murder me actually that might be nice rip

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If someone could murder me actually that might be nice rip

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Gosh, wow, love to hear from the German hospital my Oma is at that “it’s not their fault we moved to America” in response to my aunt asking for an update on whether her mother is alive or not.

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Ahhhhahahahahah Apollo save me

Sorry to break yall's hearts but this is too well written of a post to not include in here.

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"what if im a bad person" yeah? well what if you arent? what if you're trying your best and you're growing and you're kind? what then?

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Hhuhhwhoa the dreaded anxiety returneth on this eve of gentle star trek athon

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Ahhhhhhhh I just love all of us so much I don't know what to do

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When the entire polycule is just anxiety-anxiety-anxiety-anxiety

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Auuugghh I love my girlfriend and boyfriend and gahhh my boyfriend took me out to a cool retro diner along with his girlfriend (not my girlfriend) and it was so nice and cozy and fun and we worked together and gosh I love all of them (his girlfriend platonically) but gosh wouldn't it be awesome if all of us lived in the same area rather than my girlfriend living across the country, I just wanna cuddle them both and be warm in winter ahhhhhhhh

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Eeeeeee the notifications are no longer silenced 🥰

Nothing like waking up thinking about your new polyamorous lover, excited to once again meet him at the coffee shop halfway between your two apartments, getting sad that you can’t hug him right now at 7AM, opening your text app, and crying a little when you see “Significant Other has notifications silenced” 😩

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Nothing like waking up thinking about your new polyamorous lover, excited to once again meet him at the coffee shop halfway between your two apartments, getting sad that you can’t hug him right now at 7AM, opening your text app, and crying a little when you see “Significant Other has notifications silenced” 😩

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Godddds and it’s workplace romance too, we’re hitting the gay romcom bingo sheet with a whole ass six inch wall brush at this point

Godddssss how did I just spend like three weeks randomly going “Hmm, yes, I want to hug this person right this moment, I am now sad that he is not here right now” and not realize I was in fucking love with him?????

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The way this man adjacent nonbinary entity restored my faith in humanity multiple times over and made me feel like maybe I’m a little bit cool and just increasingly, with more and more stuttering each time, said “You’re — you’re cool. You’re a cool dude. I appreciate you man. I - I - I really appreciate you” and I just smiled like, “Thanks, that’s nice to know” and gave him thumbs up

How many times did I make this person just scream internally because I was too dumb to notice anything?????

Godddssss how did I just spend like three weeks randomly going “Hmm, yes, I want to hug this person right this moment, I am now sad that he is not here right now” and not realize I was in fucking love with him?????

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No, no, no, let’s also talk about how he was buying me lunch and breakfast and coffee and walking me home late at night and making up excuses to keep talking to me late at night because HOW does my brain go “ah, yes, perfectly normal friend behavior” while also simultaneously having to fight myself from just glomping him and his stupid high ponytail ass like alskdfjalkdsjlka

Godddssss how did I just spend like three weeks randomly going “Hmm, yes, I want to hug this person right this moment, I am now sad that he is not here right now” and not realize I was in fucking love with him?????

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Godddssss how did I just spend like three weeks randomly going “Hmm, yes, I want to hug this person right this moment, I am now sad that he is not here right now” and not realize I was in fucking love with him?????

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Pinned Post for Quality Vibe Assurance!!

This is essentially my keyboard smash / vent side blog, so I’ll leave below a list of potential content that may come up in my posts here. I’m a very queer, multiply disabled, polyamorous, traumatized individual, so this list will likely be updated over time.

Please take care of yourself!

Potentially Triggering Content

- Descriptions of personally experienced queerphobia, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, misogyny, anti-theism/religious persecution

- Medical neglect

- Bullying

- Emotional abuse and manipulation by friends // Transactional Relationships

- Therapeutic processing

- Financial insecurity

- Food insecurity

- Medical diet: celiacs + alkaptoneuria

- Intimacy issues

- Untreated anxiety disorder, depression disorder

- Self-Diagnosis: avoidant personality disorder, autism/adhd, auditory processing disorder, (c?)PTSD

- Substance use??? Exclusively marijuana and alcohol

Cool Content You Might See

- Me geeking over my two partners (they’re such lovable nerds alskdjfasj)

- Being Gender

- Me being incredibly Asexual and oblivious to people flirting with me

- Me being oblivious to my own flirting and romantic inclinations

- Poetry??? Maybe??? About love???