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People always say they care then never do anything to show it. I'm sick and tired of it. If you care about someone talk to them. Share memes with them. Tell them when things remind you of them. Randomly say hi. Actually respond when they try to join in. And for fucks sake if they stop talking for any period of time that seems unusual REACH THE FUCK OUT AND DON'T JUST IGNORE THEM!!! RELATIONSHIPS GO BOTH WAYS AND IF YOU AREN'T GIVING BACK WHAT THEY'RE TRYING TO GIVE YOU IT FUCKING HURTS AND MAKE THEM FEEL HATED, UNWANTED, ABANDONED AND USED!!!!!

Do better. If you don't want to be friends just say so, but stop claiming to care about someone then ignore them and leave them out and not care when they struggle and disappear for months and you don't fucking bother to reach out. Just stop. It's more harmful than just saying you don't want to be friends.

[screaming-out-my-thoughts]

People always say they care then never do anything to show it. I'm sick and tired of it. If you care about someone talk to them. Share memes with them. Tell them when things remind you of them. Randomly say hi. Actually respond when they try to join in. And for fucks sake if they stop talking for any period of time that seems unusual REACH THE FUCK OUT AND DON'T JUST IGNORE THEM!!! RELATIONSHIPS GO BOTH WAYS AND IF YOU AREN'T GIVING BACK WHAT THEY'RE TRYING TO GIVE YOU IT FUCKING HURTS AND MAKE THEM FEEL HATED, UNWANTED, ABANDONED AND USED!!!!!

Do better. If you don't want to be friends just say so, but stop claiming to care about someone then ignore them and leave them out and not care when they struggle and disappear for months and you don't fucking bother to reach out. Just stop. It's more harmful than just saying you don't want to be friends.

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No one even fucking cares if I'm alive anymore. I'm not sure they ever did.

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I'm lonely. It hurts. I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't feel safe with people. But I just wish... I had someone. I hate being lonely. But it better than hurting all the time like before. Maybe. I think? I don't know anymore. It's not like they actually cared before anyways. I just wished they did so much I believed it. I wish I could just turn off my feelings.

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Just give it a month and no one will even remember me.

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Its better to be alone then deal with rejection after getting close.

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I want to cry.

I want to let it out.

I want to be okay.

But I can't.

I never will.

One thing

After

Another.

Always brings pain.

Even the seemily good.

The happy looking.

The temporary calm.

It always ends in pain.

Worse.

Worse than before.

Always worse.

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They only care once I'm gone.

Their safety net of assurance seeing my name keeps them comfortable.

Once that name is gone then they panic, trying to justify their lack of empathy or care. Saying they didn't know.

It was weeks. The name was there, but I said nothing for weeks. And not one of them cared until the name disappeared. Then its all "are you okay, what's wrong, oh no im so worried!"

All lies. All of it.

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