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A MONSTER BUT NOT FOR YOU [4]

Pairings: Joel Miller x immune!Reader

Summary: you were born and raised in shit, like so many other people born during the apocalypse, you knew that things would be even more difficult since that fateful day in 2015, but did you ever imagine that people would no longer see you as a human being, or maybe someone would?

Warnings: !SPOILER TLOU!, typical violence of the last of us, angst, blood, quite specific descriptions gore, age gap, SMUT, 18+, obscenity, !Legal!, flashbacks, I will try to make Joel behave in a fairly canonical way

Words: 2,5k

MASTERLIST

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4

"Sure you don't want to sleep, we can do turns" your sister put a hand on your shoulder. You shook your head in denial

"I've slept enough this past week, I've regained energy, I can do it, you rest while you can" you spoke softly as you saw Ellie lying down in the center of the room, stretched out on the grass. You started to get up as your siblings got comfortable to sleep and a rifle was immediately pointed at you.

You raised your hands as you looked at the old and grumpy Joel sitting on the broken stairs who was pointing the rifle at you that he took from the F.E.D.R.A. soldier.

"I'm just stretching my legs, calm down" you sighed as you saw him slowly lower the rifle while he continued to look at you with that dark and cold look.

There wasn't much to look at, but you also shouldn't have left your siblings, you still didn't know if the two smugglers were trustworthy.

You took a chair, next to the door that led to another and you put it next to where your brothers were lying. It was late at night, you had to wait at least for the sun to rise, you should have waited a little.

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Your chin was resting on your hands that were crossed between them as you continued around, those two smugglers hadn't slept as much as you.

"aren't you asleep?" you looked up at the woman's voice, they were both looking at you from where they were sitting. Ellie, Thomas and Denise had been asleep for a while

"I'm not sleepy, and then I have to guard them" you turned your head towards your siblings "and her" and pointed your head at Ellie

Joel and Tess looked at each other and then the woman asked you another question, he was definitely not a chatterbox

"Why did Marlene want you in all this? What's so special about you that you serve to the fireflies?" You sighed as you slumped into the chair and raised your hands playing dumb

"I'm a special girl" Joel almost raised an eyebrow at your answer. It wasn't your strong point to use bow or irony but to not tell the truth it was necessary.

"And you? You are smugglers yes, but I don't think she chose you just for that, right?" Tess raised her hands and sighed, imitating your previous actions.

"we are special kids" You raised your eyebrows in surprise and grinned .

"touchè"

There was a minute of silence, where you watched your siblings sleeping in the corner of the room, with their backpacks under their heads. But once again Tess's voice brought you back to look at her.

"the fact that you're the one guarding your siblings instead of the other way around says a lot" you lowered your eyelids as you heard what she said

"you don't want questions about you but you can ask the others" - "information on what we're carrying"

It was never Joel who spoke, it was always Tess, as if Joel was only supposed to intervene in emergencies.

"and you old man? Anything to ask?" you turned your head towards him, you could see him gripping the handle of the rifle a little tighter.

You didn't get a reply. You nodded as you lowered your head.

You're going to have a lot of fun.

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Hours of silence passed after that last conversation and finally you saw the light filtering through the window illuminating Ellie in the center of the room. You were about to start talking to yourself.

Ellie mumbled something as she looked around, she stood up slightly and met your gaze. You raised your hand waving with a fake smile, still sitting on that chair, you thought you were moldy in it.

"good morning" she said still with a sleepy look. You were about to answer but the sound of the creaking wood made Ellie turn towards the two smugglers

"good morning to you too" Ellie turned towards them, she was about to get up but Joel's rifle was immediately pointed at her. You reached out an arm to wake your siblings and they woke up as well with a mumble, but you were more focused on watching the interaction with the girl and the smugglers.

"do I look infected to you?" Ellie said it angrily, it had actually been a night and there had been no sign of infection. She was fucking immune damn that bitch.

"let me see your arm" Joel finally spoke up. You stood up from your chair to see that famous bite as Ellie pulled up her sleeve. It was like a scar, with little blisters.

Ellie saw you peer over her shoulder "are you going to try to kill me too?" she said teasingly. You watched her as you put your hands in your jacket pockets "as long as you don't attack me I won't kill you, so no"

"actually it's not infected anyway, we can trust it, right?" you turned to see your brother getting up and stretching, you weren't the only one who had turned to look at him, because turning around you could see Joel's cold and intimidating look that clearly said 'shut up if you don't want me to shoot you'

You sighed as you let the three of them talk and went towards your siblings who were getting up and putting their backpacks on their shoulders, you glanced at your brother Thomas and he immediately understood "don't worry, we're going to the government building and it will all be over, no one will know anything" he put a hand on your shoulder while looking at you with a reassuring look. You were happy to have found someone immune but on the other hand you thought that now you had to pretend to be shocked, as if you weren't immune either, a single mistake and all three of you were dead.

You woke up from your thoughts when Ellie went into the next room with some pieces of newspaper. You walked a little further to the center of the room, seeing that Joel and Tess had stood up.

There was a pretty palpable tension in the air

"well fuck this is a big situation" you sighed at your brother's umpteenth comment to lighten the situation.

"I'm going to check if everything is okay outside" you muttered before walking towards the door.

"Come on, it was to release the tension!" you heard your brother behind you talking while laughing. The last thing you heard before leaving was Joel's voice saying 'is it safe to send her outside?'

The fresh air flooded your face, you closed your eyes and breathed in some clean air. In front of you was the sight of a destroyed city, skyscrapers on the brink of destruction and nature that seemed to almost engulf everything. You had forgotten that being outside could have, even if small, a positive side.

You looked around, everything was so peaceful, a flock was passing in front of a building to signal their presence, the sun was high in the sky, everything was so calm, as if the apocalypse almost didn't exist.

Your hearing didn't detect anything, no infected, no bandits or any other form of threat. This beautiful day almost made you want to run, scream at the top of your lungs to free yourself.

You stayed to enjoy that view for a few minutes, until the noise of the door signaled the arrival of someone. Your siblings and then the smugglers along with Ellie.

"Is everything okay?" Denise asked you, putting a hand on your back. You only nodded; moments of tranquility like these were truly rare.

Now your journey towards a new beginning began, maybe.

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You could choose a short road and get killed or a long road and go with 'serenity' or at least you thought. As you walked you passed through rubble craters where once there were civilian roads, where soldiers had dropped bombs to contain the infections, failing miserably, killing people needlessly.

Were you currently on some kind of highway? Lots of cars stopped for too long, you were well exposed, a sniper could kill you in a few seconds. You kept looking around, as if you were paranoid with your ears always on alert.

In front of you you had Tess and Ellie talking, behind you instead Thomas and Denise, you were slightly ahead of Joel. He could see you continuing to look around as if you were waiting for danger.

"there's no one around here" Joel's voice made you wake up from your paranoia. You continued walking while looking back at him

"who doesn't say someone hasn't headed to Boston with a sniper ready to shoot us, to rob us" he almost laughed at your paranoia

"you find it funny old man" you stopped so you could walk alongside him. He didn't answer you he just looked at you before continuing to walk in front of you.

"asshole" you shook your head following him

"I heard you brat" he said nonchalantly they continue to walk straight with the rifle tightly gripped and steady in his calloused hands.

You didn't hear your sister's footsteps slow down, so as not to be heard by you and then take your brother by the shoulder to slow him down too. "do you think there will really be in Jackson?" Denise's question seemed almost desperate.

Thomas turned his head toward you to see when you were far away then turned it back to look at his sister “we're not sure, and in case they're not there…” he paused sighing placing a hand on his hip “it means they're dead and we'd be his only family and that gives us all the more reason to go there” they both looked at each other with regret, not knowing if they would find the people they were looking for there.

“come on let's go” Thomas put a hand on Denise's back to get her to start walking with him again.

At some point in the walk you all came together again so that you were more or less all close together, and you also heard Ellie's long talk-she hadn't stopped talking since you left. The question that fell under your ears to you your siblings was “so there are no super infected that spit fungus spores at you?”

“I fucking hope not” the sentence came from Tess with a giggle in the background.

“what the fuck are you talking about” exclaimed Thomas laughing, the exclamation came for Tess. Ellie turned around laughing, before she could open her mouth “so the ones that fly don't exist either, my life has always been a deception!” your brother put his hands on his head acting dramatic, making Ellie laugh even more.

The air became serious again at the question he asked succssively always Ellie “the ones with cracked heads that see in the dark like bats?” no one spoke for a few seconds

the fucking clickers. You had met many during the course of the apocalypse before entering the Boston QZ.

and well speaking of the devil

An inhuman scream flooded the silence and the quiet of the street making everyone stop. You rushed to the edge of the street with anxiety eating away at your insides.

Where was he? Why hadn't you heard him? Was he close? How long would it take him to come here with other infected or attract others?

You even tried to glimpse him from above, a movement in the trees, a noise, anything, but nothing. You clenched your hands until your knuckles became white on the pipe connected to the street.

A hand landed on your shoulder and you didn't hesitate to turn around and grab his wrist quickly to block his movements, but it was only Joel, he was quite surprised by the speed with which you did it, he looked first at you and then at his wrist that you had grabbed and you slowly let go "let's not stop" he looked you intensely in the eyes scrutinizing you from head to toe. You only nodded and immediately after you looked back observing the area for another few seconds.

You really hoped you were wrong

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The longest route apparently included going through a hotel that could fall on you at any moment and inside it a pond where swans had died in it instead of kissing. At least you had washed, you think you hadn't touched water in a while.

“Fuck are you damn serious” the expletive obviously came from who? From your brother, because he saw the ten flights of stairs you had to take to go up.

“less talking and keep walking” the grooming came from Tess, who was also inwardly cursing, I mean fuck it was still ten flights of stairs. No one expected you start to running to reach the last flight of stairs “ehy ehy ehy! what are you doing?!” You turned to Joel

“just in case there's someone there I'd knock him down” and you started running again to do the flights of stairs, you made it look so easy, you weren't even out of breath.

“how the hell does he do it?” Ellie looked down at you as you ran to get to the bottom. Denise looked at her brother and answered for him, “lots of gymnastics.”

It didn't take you long to get to the topmost door, or where it had once been; black veins appeared almost conspicuously on your wrists, neck, and at the beginning of your jaw, ready to lash out and attack whatever was on the other side.

nothing.

You sighed and the veins disappeared in seconds as you waited for the others. You leaned with your arms crossed, against the wall.

It took a few minutes for everyone to arrive, all of them out of breath, the one who seemed least tired was Ellie. “someday you're going to have to teach me how to fucking do 10 flights of stairs without breaking a sweat,” the little girl laughed as she watched you lean against the wall.

"maybe" you muttered and immediately followed the smugglers towards a corridor that led to two barricaded doors. But there was a passage in front of you, it was a tiny hole where a sliver of light had passed "maybe I could climb there" Tess whispered looking towards the passage.

You stepped forward and stood beside her "I can do it" Tess turned and looked at her. "if you are as strong as they say, it is better if you stay here in case of danger" The woman started to climb but your voice stopped her "and if you run into an infected?" She had her hands ready to climb but before doing so she spoke again

"I can handle it" and climbed. You huffed and slammed your arms against your sides. For a moment you did not feel the presence of Joel beside you. The whole trip he had been looking at you to check you out, to examine you to understand you, or rather, to understand what you were capable of but he hadn't made up his mind yet. You all leaned against the wall waiting for Tess to arrive.

"She's badass" your brother sneered as he looked where the smuggler had disappeared to. He didn't notice the threatening look Joel had given him

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I I admit this was a bit boring, but I wanted to stay active, I promised that at least once a week I would post somethingthing

#pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal #joel miller #joel miller x reader #troy baker #the last of us #tlou1 #tlou hbo

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secondsistershelby3 · 2 months ago

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Me want to read something about Joel during my lunch break but I get a spoiler of episode 7

#pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal #joel miller #joel miller x reader #please help #try not to cry

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secondsistershelby3 · 2 months ago

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"oohhh I finally got done working and can finish writing the chapter-"

literally like this for a week

help.

#pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal #joel miller x reader #joel miller #i hate working #sleeping

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secondsistershelby3 · 2 months ago

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I started crying from the beginning of the episode when I realized that the kids were Joel and Tommy when they were little, not to mention Pedro's name in the intro and the two figures together again... one of the most beautiful and sad episodes at the same time, maybe one of my favorites ever.

It was all a blow to the heart.

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secondsistershelby3 · 2 months ago

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I only have inappropriate comments

#pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal

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A MONSTER BUT NOT FOR YOU [3]

Pairings: Joel Miller x immune!Reader

Words: 3,1k

MASTERLIST

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4

It was raining outside. You had to go outside and you covered yourself as much as possible with your brother's jacket so that he wouldn't see the blood on your body, you had to get it off him as soon as possible.

You were almost in single file, you, your siblings, the two smugglers, and the girl.

From what you understood, you were going to where they lived.

You could have seen the girl, who was called Ellie, not Veronica, turned to look at you but turned back after not even a second.

After you were all soaked, you were in front of the battered door of the apartment, the woman opened it and motioned for you to go in, first Ellie and then you went, your siblings were about to follow you but the woman, forcefully grabbed your brother's shoulder.

"We need to talk" the woman clarified and closed and was about to close the door. Ellie was about to pass you and a "What the fuck?!" came out of her mouth and the door closed.

"fuck…" the girl whispered. You continued to look at her and when she finally turned around she met your look.

There was an uneasiness in the air, she made movements like looking from one side to the other as she exhaled "so…it was you…" you raised your eyebrow at the statement

"I mean…the one who made noise with the chains in the next room and who the others talked to"

you nodded

"yeah" she clapped his hands on his legs as she looked down

"you're a talker eh"

it's not that you didn't want to talk, it's that you were busy listening to what the 4 on the other side of the door were saying

'listen we don't want to cause problems, we just want to get to our destination' your brother

you were standing in the same spot while you were focused on listening while Ellie looked around

'and we have to carry the little girl'

you slowly turned your head to the side waiting for the answer as you started moving around the room pretending not to hear

'perfect, let's go to the government building and then we'll say bye bye' this was always your brother, he always used that sarcastic tone at the wrong times

you heard sighs then the gruff man, Joel, spoke

'we leaver after dark, you're with the girls I have to have a talk with them' - "wait Tess, why-" then you heard her name again and then

silence.

you turned your head to see Ellie looking into a huge book.

You didn't have time to step back before the man, Joel entered suddenly and you took a step back in response.

It was the first time since you had seen him on the stairs that you had looked at him closely. His eyes were almost empty, his gaze dull almost as if he were dying.

He wasn't that much taller than you, you almost reached his forehead, but it was that which he transmitted that made everyone who passed by him look small.

A few seconds passed and Joel after taking his gaze off you, proceeded to take his backpack off his shoulders and sit on the shabby couch.

"who are Bill and Frank?" It was Ellie who broke the ice, well he was certainly sociable for being with two strangers.

You sighed and walked towards the window. You liked the rain, it was almost relaxing compared to the days when the sun burned you and made you sweat, during the apocalypse taking a shower was not easy, you almost preferred to be cold.

While you were looking outside you were thinking about what would happen: you would get out of that cage called QZ, you hadn't seen the outside for 7 years, almost a year after the accident you and your brothers went to the QZ in Boston and you hadn't come out from there.

You didn't know if it was worse to risk being killed or eaten outside or dying of hunger or during the work inside

You would go to Wyoming and maybe you would find some peace in this shitty world, you had never been optimistic but it was necessary in these cases.

The mind was suppressed by various thoughts for the future and current, current because your siblings were with a smuggler, ALONE, there were two sure but it wasn't a coincidence that she was smuggling, right?

"ever seen rain?" you turned your head to see Joel slumped on the couch with his hand over his eyes and Ellie looking at you.

She didn't say it rudely, it almost seemed like for breaking the ice

"the old man won't keep us company" she laughed as she pointed at Joel, then came over to sit on the chair in front of the window.

You breathed in and out and then replied:

"it relaxes me"

Ellie turned her head to you, looking up at you since he was sitting and seemed almost shocked to hear your voice.You shifted your gaze to her "the rain…it relaxes me" you nodded as you spoke

"that's something" Ellie smirked as she looked at you.You raised your lip almost to smile but resisted

"why Marlene did want you on the expedition, I don't want to be mean but…fuck, you look like you're barely 20" You huffed at his question, you put a hand on your hip as you started looking outside again. "i'm 18 anyway"

"if we're careful you won't have to find out"

And you moved around the room looking for a bathroom or something to at least clean your face of dried blood. You didn't want to stick your nose but you wanted to get this filth off your face.

The the apartment wasn't much, right next to this room was the bed divided by a divider, it was held up with pieces of cement blocks on each side, then you got to the bathroom, the mirror was dirty but you could still see. You put your hands on your face.

this shit that was inside you, didn't know if it was consuming you, but every year you felt weirder than the year before.

Marlene had reassured you from the beginning that she wouldn't use you as a conduit for a possible cure for fear of the consequences it would have on others, for what had happened to you.

you looked down to see if there was anything to clean yourself, a slightly dirty rag, well better than nothing. You took it and started rubbing your face, you didn't have running water, and it was quite uncomfortable.

You threw the rag on the floor and saw your face red from rubbing the dried blood away, you touched your cheek, almost as if to see if you were still you. You didn't even know sometimes if you were

Your brother's jacket hid the blood-stained shirt, his pants looked more worn than anything else, the blood was not noticeable there.

You walked away from the cracked sink and went back to the 'living room' if you could call it that.

Ellie was still sitting on the chair, but what broke the silence were Joel's soft groans as he slept.

Nightmares.

"should we wake him up?" you asked as you approached the window again. Ellie looked over at the old man on the couch "he'll do it himself, he'll stab you at the very least" she smirked as she turned her head

you nodded and after you sat down on the chair that was in front of the sofa, now you just had to wait for the night

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"so why does Marlene want your sister, fireflies don't take random people in their territory" the woman, who the two siblings had learned was called Tess, asked

"why does Marlene want you and your boyfriend?" Thomas raised an eyebrow as he asked the woman the question

Tess turned with a look that could have killed him and struck him down : "we are colleagues, nothing more" Thomas brought his face closer to Tess's "and she is my sister, nothing more"

Denise could feel the tension between the two. She never felt brave, she always put herself in Thomas's shadow, she was never the one who spoke first or the one who pointed the gun first.

Tess snorted and started walking again "the walk to the government building won't be long, so we don't have to socialize" - "funny to say that after you just tried" Thomas laughed ironically as he walked beside her

"I want to know who or what I'm traveling with" his tone didn't lose his temper, he always tried to be as monotonous as possible

"if we're careful you won't have to find out" they didn't look at each other, not even for a second during the statement, they continued walking

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You had your arms crossed as you waited for Joel to wake up and finally he did, you saw that he was opening his eyes and muttering

"You mumble in your sleep"

it came from Ellie, always the first to break the silence. You saw Joel rubbing his neck with his hand, that couch must not have been too comfortable.

"i've never been on the other side of the Wall"

"you don't miss much"

you said as you looked at your hands. Both of their heads turned to you.

"have you been out?" you were shocked that it was Joel who asked the question. You nodded as you looked between your hands and him

"i was born out of here…but i've been in here for 7 years" - "why did you imprison yourself in here?" Ellie asked you almost as if it was the stupidest thing to do

"a 10 year old girl out there doesn't have much of a chance of surviving…my siblings had to do it" Ellie laughed as she turned to look at you then moved to Joel "and you? You guys go out there a lot?

"sometimes" the voice was hoarse, tired or rather fatigued. He wasn't looking at you and he didn't realize that you were scrutinizing him, you wanted to understand who you were dealing with.

"When was last time?"

"Maybe a year. What's it the matter?"

"You know where to go…so we're gonna be okay" you wanted to tell her that it wasn't like that that infected or living people could hurt you, they could kill you slowly and painfully or with a sniper shot or in other worse ways, but she seemed so innocent, full of hope even if the shitty situation you were in.

“yeah” was Joel’s only response. You looked at him, realizing that he wasn’t sure about it either, and probably by looking at you he had realized it too.

Joel pulled his body back, his back completely against the couch, he spread his legs. Your eyes widened slightly, what you had thought was so out of context and not suitable for the situation and god knows how old he is. it was a passing thought for the action he had done.

You lowered your head as you turned it to the side nonchalantly for the silly thing you had thought of.

Who could blame you though, you never had a boyfriend, you barely knew what sex was, you had never found porn magazines or anything.

You caught a glimpse of Joel getting up and as soon as he did the door opened. Tess calmly walked in with your siblings right behind her, as soon as you saw them you stood up to go towards them

"everything ok?" you looked at them both and they immediately nodded "rather you? You've recovered from… you know what" Denise whispered the last part as she put a hand on your shoulder.

"it's okay" you nodded. Your brother sighed and you patted your shoulder

"its time to go" you turned your head to the woman as she looked at Joel and Ellie.

As we all got ready you looked at your hands, now quite clean compared to before…but how long would it take for them to get dirty again?

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you looked like rats, you were going through underground tunnels to get out of that hole called Boston.

Finally you arrived at some stairs that led to the surface, the first to go up was Joel, to check the perimeter before going out and the last one was you, as you were about to go up the stairs you saw Joel staring at you for a second too long and you did the same. As soon as you noticed him you lowered your head and went completely up to the surface.

"holy shit. I'm actually outside" Ellie smiled and looked around

"there's someone who's positive here" Thomas smiled as he looked at the girl, in a way their behavior was similar, they always tried to break the ice or always use irony to defuse the atmosphere

"fuck yeah buddy" Ellie replied laughing back

"down" you immediately warned seeing the lighthouse almost illuminating you and they almost caught Ellie if Tess hadn't pushed her suddenly to her knees

"christ…" Thomas whispered "that was close" Your brother could see Tess's pissed off look from miles away

"You stay close and you follow my lead" then she turned to your siblings and you "and you try not to die or get caught"

Thomas raised his hands "yes ma'am"

Tess had two balls as big as a house and it showed.

The first thing you did was go under a beat up bus to get to the other side, you made everyone go, only you and Joel were missing "go" he always said with his gruff tone

"I'll cover your back, you go first" - "I won't let a little girl cover my back"

You moved your face closer to his while looking into his cold and dark eyes "this little girl would have already killed you at the base of the fireflies but she didn't"

You saw the conflict in his face, and after a snort he went first, you had a feeling that it wouldn't be the last fight you would have

You were traveling in the dark, only the F.E.D.R.A. headlight was lighting your way, you were almost out but nothing is easy if what you want is freedom.

A soldier was leaning against the wall to empty his bladder "fuck.." you all immediately started to run away "HEY, STOP...STOP FUCK" the soldier didn't take long to notice you, he quickly zipped up his pants and grabbed his weapon

"STOP I SAID" You raised your hands. You looked to the side to find your brother already looking at you, he had mimed a "NO" with wide eyes, knowing that you would immediately attack

it seemed that the soldier knew Joel, so he used the technique of diplomacy but it didn't work since the soldier was repeating you to get on your knees.

"everyone on your knees I said!" there was dead silence for a thousandth of a second, the only noise was the rain

"obey, everyone on your knees" it was Tess who spoke. She was trying to negotiate and you wasted no time in whispering to your brother while Tess distracted the soldier

"it doesn't take much, I can take out Tommy!" you didn't hear a response from your brother because you saw the soldier's rifle pointed at your face

"on your knees I said" he enunciated his words carefully, it was your chance, but who knows what the smugglers would have thought, maybe they would have given up on taking you to the government building and you didn't even know where to start to get there.

Your thoughts were interrupted by your sister who said your name "obey, get on your knees"

You sighed looking at the soldier as he pointed the light at your face and you gave in, you placed yourself to Ellie's left.

"Hands on your head" that's when you saw that damned contraption, if they found out you were infected it was fucking over.

"Hands on your head!" you all obeyed without a word at the second call. You didn't think your journey would end so soon, barely out of Boston.

Checking one by one starting from Joel to your sister and then arrived at Ellie, that's when you heard a scream of agony from the soldier. You turned around and saw a knife with a handle on his thigh.

It was your chance

You closed your hand into a fist and hit the soldier right in the face making him fall. You got up but you didn't have time to move to hit him again that the soldier pointed his rifle at you for the second time "don't move you fucking bitch!"

then his aim passed towards Ellie's face but Joel stepped between the two. Screams came from both sides, at one point it almost seemed like Joel was having a flashback, you moved cautiously almost behind the soldier to take him out once and for all but someone else got there before you.

The soldier almost hit you, because someone had thrown him to the ground

Joel.

You saw the rage that Joel radiated as he tore that soldier's face to pieces. The lightning illuminated that scene with flashes

You didn't count the punches that Joel gave the soldier but there were many, his hand was bloody, his face looked like…

an animal.

Maybe you weren't the only one with "pent-up anger"

"holy shit…" the curse came out of your brother's mouth, you moved your gaze to where he had pointed it, and it was on Tess who was holding the cordyceps detector, red

infected.

"NO! NO! I'm not infected!

Weren't you the only one?

For 8 fucking years you thought you were the only one and now here she was, a little girl who was immune, or at least you thought, shouldn't she have already transformed?

The words "I'm not sick" kept coming out of Ellie's mouth as you approached your siblings, they were looking at you with the same shock you were looking at them

It was when Ellie showed a 3 week old bite that you had confirmation, she was fucking immune

the question that came to mind was: she had the same side effects that you had?

"We need to go guys!" Thomas spoke as he heard the qz alarm go on. They all started running while you stayed behind, the only thing you could think was the sentence:

You weren't the only fucking one

Then you felt a tug "move girl or they'll kill us all" Joel scolded you while he carried you with the hand that was attached to your arm, you had to have proof that you were immune too

Maybe the idea of going with these 3 strangers wasn't so bad after all

#joel miller #joel miller x reader #pedro pascal #pedro pascal x reader #tlou #tlou hbo #hbo max #the last of us #tlou1

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secondsistershelby3 · 2 months ago

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NO HAPPY ENDING FOR US

Pairings : Joel Miller x Wife!Reader

Summary: your life with Joel was perfect, you got engaged in high school, you went to the prom, you got married, you had a perfect daughter, but apparently they didn't want you to have a happy ending

Warnings: !SCENE TAKEN FROM DEADPOOL 1!, a bit of fluff, angst, death

Words: 731

Notes: this is so short and pointless but i'm feeling down and i wanted to write something

It was a cool, lazy Sunday, which meant Sarah wasn't in school and Joel wasn't working. The Texas sun was shining through the half-open windows. You blinked as you tried to look ahead, thinking you were the only one awake, but as soon as you felt kisses on your neck you realized that wasn't the case.

You smiled and closed your eyes at the feeling. "good morning to you too"

"good morning honey" Joel's wet kisses moved from your neck to your bare collarbone.

"if you want to have sex wait until I brush my teeth" you tried to get up but Joel stopped you "do you think I care what your breath is" Joel laughed at your statement.

You turned around and looked at him in protest "uhg..alright alright you win" Joel removed his arm from your torso and stretched as you stood up in only your black lace panties, you picked up Joel's gray shirt from the floor and went to the bathroom.

Amazing how life can go from perfect to a huge explosion of shit

As soon as you brushed your teeth you walked out of the bathroom with a smile with Joel watching you, ready to take off your shirt. But when you put your hands on the hems to take it off you started to feel heavy

"what the fuck…"

and you fell to the ground

"DARLING!" The last thing you saw was Joel running towards you

one day you find yourself making pancakes with your husband and daughter...another day the doctor tells you that you have terminal cancer

"it..it can't be…I..how the hell is it possible!?" Joel got angry at the doctor in front of you, you instead couldn't hear a single word. Joel was already thinking of all the possible strategies to save you while he held your hands.

You instead were counting the days you had left to live

"there are some experimental treatments that we could try, medicine is making progress every day, we could at least try" the doctor looked at you and Joel with passion

"then we will try, we will try as long as we can" he squeezed your hands as he turned to look at you "I won't let you die" you looked at your husband with a heartbroken smile "ok…."

Joel kissed your knuckles.

You had never believed in miracles and you didn't believe in them now either

Joel has never been a believer… but in these last months he has been more of a believer than any believer in Texas.

The experimental treatments hadn't worked, you should have expected it. You had nothing left to hope for, the doctor had suggested palliative treatments for the little time you had left, to at least ease the pain that had tormented you for the last 3 months.

They had asked you if you wanted to do them at home or in the hospital and without hesitation you decided to do them at home. You received flowers from Tommy almost every day, affection from your husband and daughter and that was enough for you

you were lying on the couch, wearing baggy pants, and a fleece to keep you warm from the constant cold you felt. You had Joel on one side and Sarah on the other while you were watching a movie. At a certain point a pain in your stomach made you writhe on the spot

"Mom? Mom are you okay? Should I get you something?" Your eyes were closed as Joel stood beside you like your daughter not knowing what to do "it's okay honey, it's okay it'll pass now"

"Sarah go get her some water" Joel whispered as he tried to hold you up as much as he could

You didn't even realize you were crying, you turned to look at Joel and he hugged you right away

"I don't want to leave you Joel…I don't want to.." He pulled you closer, Joel shed a tear too, because he knew he was about to lose you, he knew he couldn't do anything to stop the process, that you were just waiting for the inevitable

and that moment didn't take long to arrive

because it was precisely 3 weeks later that Joel and Sarah watched your grave being buried 3 meters underground

It seems the world didn't want you to have your happy ending

#joel miller x reader #joel miller #pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal #the last of us #tlou hbo

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secondsistershelby3 · 2 months ago

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A MONSTER BUT NOT FOR YOU [2]

Pairings: Joel Miller x immune!Reader

Words: 2,0k

Note: I'm glad people enjoyed the first chapter, I had this idea in mind for a while but I never had the courage to write it because I thought it was a bad idea

MASTERLIST

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4

Boston, 2023

Your skin was cold as ice, almost as if you were dead, even though it was hot in Boston. You felt almost helpless, as if you hadn't moved in a week. At the slightest noise you jumped up in the air thinking that whatever made the noise was coming into the room with you. The room was dark, except for a few slivers of light that came in from the window during the day, the chains had left a mark on your wrists from how many times you had tried to free yourself. There was only silence

"uuuggh WHAT THE FUCK!"

well not completely silent, since every day you heard a voice complaining and pulling on the chains in the room next to yours. You could hear them always asking her the same thing: "count slowly and clearly from 1 to 10", "now hold out your hand" "say your name slowly", you always heard her answer.

Count, Veronica, count Veronica, count Veronica, always the same answers

For you, they only came in to feed you, they looked you up and down and then they left. No tests, no questions, no 'courtesy'

You didn't speak, you only used gestures: you kicked, you gave the middle finger, you spat, you pulled but not a single word. You had been in that shitty room for a little over a week.

No torture, nothing like that, it wasn't because you were weak.

It was because they hadn't fed you since they put you in this room. Not the food that is usually meant, something else that you wanted to repress for days but that in the end you had to give in, a souvenir of that night, along with others.

You had your knees pulled up and your arms around them, trying to stay "conscious", in case someone came in.

The door in front of you opened and you threw yourself back against the wall, panting and feeling your face throbbing, as well as your arms and legs.

"you're still… well you" Marlene approached slowly, still remaining at a certain distance.

"you're not going to say anything today either?" nothing. That bitch didn't deserve a word from you, she just had to give you some fucking blood tests and blood samples, instead here you are.

"I know you don't like this, but if I had told your sister and brother they wouldn't have let me do it, and this operation is important and we're sure we can do it with you" you were sweaty, out of breath but you still managed to give her a threatening look and suddenly you tried to sprint with your little strength but the chains were too short and they pulled your wrists for the umpteenth time. Marlene remained still where she was.

"you'll understand that all of this is for the greater good" you remained on your knees staring at a fixed point while you heard the door close and you returned to the dead silence, you don't know how much you would have resisted your impulses and you didn't want to find out.

—

"I told you that you couldn't trust Marlene, damn it!" Thomas whispered to Denise as they walked quickly to the building where they had left you because Marlene wanted to do some "tests"

"She seemed trustworthy, I.. I thought I could trust her…" Thomas turned quickly towards his sister, making her stop suddenly "that's why we shouldn't trust the fucking Fireflies" Thomas looked her straight in the eyes and sighed before starting to walk again.

Denise loved you and only wanted the best for you but she thought she could trust her, they both trusted the Fireflies, but for a while you had your doubts about that group, but they gave you extra rations, a comfortable place to sleep and in exchange they wanted you for a blood sample or test, but never for that long. They had to understand that Marlene wanted to screw them

While walking through the streets of Boston the two ran into some F.E.D.R.A. soldiers that surrounded where it looked like there had just been an explosion.

"it must have been those fireflies again" Thomas sighed - "yes.."

they only had one thing in mind, to have a talk with the boss of the fireflies

—

You hadn't counted how much time had passed since Marlene had spoken to you. But you knew that you were getting worse by the minute, your veins were pulsing all over your body and your almost primal instincts were struggling to get out and you were about to let go of everything, close your eyes and abandon yourself to the darkness.

But gunshots prevented you, you raised your head suddenly and opened your eyes wide, the gunshots continued and were reciprocated, you also heard people shouting commands from one side to the other, people running on the stairs, going up and down.

And then the door opened

"sir there's a little girl here"

it was your chance to recover and escape, but it wouldn't have been nice, not for you, nor for this F.E.D.R.A. soldier.

The darkness obscured most of your body.

"are you infected?" the soldier continued to slowly approach

"I'm sorry…" you whispered

"what-"

screams

gunshots

grunts

blood…

so much blood

the soldier was dead.

—

Tommy moved carefully as he entered the building with Denise and as he closed the door trying not to make any noise he felt a tap on his shoulder "Tommy…" his sister Denise's whisper scared reached his ear

"What-" as soon as Thomas turned he saw two dead bodies in front of the stairs. One was a firefly, the other was a soldier of the F.E.D.R.A.

"fuck…they got in" - "and if they got in it means they'll find her" they looked at each other at the same time and hurried up the stairs, fuck being silent, the F.E.D.R.A. had found the fireflies and that meant they would find you too.

Thomas went with the gun pointed in front of him as he checked every corner before moving forward, Denise looked at his balls with her revolver.

As they climbed another flight of stairs they heard the first voice

"Joel!"

fucking Marlene.

Thomas turned to Denise and put his index finger in front of his mouth to signal for silence. They stood against the wall as they walked forward, the voices getting closer and closer

"Ellie" was still Marlene's voice, it sounded authoritative as if she was scolding someone.

Thomas leaned forward slightly and saw 5 people, Marlene, next to her presumably a firefly, a girl who couldn't have been more than 15 years old on the ground, a man and a woman next to her. He could shoot one of the two unknown adults and they might have had a chance. Thomas took a breath and aimed the gun at the adult man, he put his finger on the trigger.

"Thomas, wait!"

Everyone turned around and the two smugglers immediately pointed their guns behind them.

"Don't shoot Joel!" Marlene stopped them immediately.

"Where the fuck is our sister Marlene?!" Thomas continued to keep his gun pointed, Denise did the same standing next to him.

"everyone put your guns down first, we're not enemies" Thomas raised his eyebrow

"oh no? so taking my sister as a guinea pig by surprise isn't being enemies?! - "now calm down and put your gun down Thomas and I'll give you your sister back" Marlene held one hand in front of her for safety while the other rested on the wound

Thomas looked from Marlene to the two strangers. "they have to put them down first"

silence fell in the hallway. "Joel does as he says" Joel glared at the head of the lights "Do it!….please"

Joel looked at Marlene and then Thomas and motioned for Tess to put her gun down, Thomas and Denise put theirs down in return.

"where is she?" asked Thomas as he slowly approached the group, continuing to check the two in front for safety. Marlene nodded towards the door next to the girl on the floor.

Denise looked at her brother and rushed to the door, took a deep breath and turned the doorknob and pushed it, letting light into the room.

Denise opened her mouth wide and gagged when she saw the scene in front of her, she put her hand in front of her mouth to keep from vomiting and turned her head to the side. Thomas put a hand on his sister's shoulder and tried to get his courage up to go in.

A F.E.D.R.A. soldier was lying on the ground with part of his guts hanging out, he had bite marks on his neck, his intestines were hanging out of his body. There were bullet holes on the walls, there were several.

Thomas turned his head to look for you but he didn't see you "fuck..fuck, fuck"

He immediately turned to Marlene and went angrily towards her, but the woman next to her raised her gun towards him "what have you done?!" Thomas had a look more than furious

"Thomas" Denise looked behind Marlene

"no christ now she have to listen to me, she have no idea of the seriousness of the actions she have done!-"

"Thomas!" - "WHAT?!" he turned her head towards her sister angrily. Her sister had a worried look as she pointed her head towards the stairs, behind Marlene.

When your brother turned his head in that direction, he finally saw you, you had blood on your clothes and a little on your face, you were breathing fast, your face almost tired "holy christ.." he whispered before rushing towards you, your sister did the same, Thomas put his jacket on you. They just hoped that the two of them hadn't seen the body in the room.

"we had a deal Marlene, a fucking deal!" - "I had to do it, I needed you to help me carry the girl" Marlene sighed in pain with her hand on her hip as she looked at Thomas

"and I still need her" Thomas' eyes widened with an almost amused expression

"are you kidding us!?" your sister spoke to that statement

"my soldiers are dead and having your sister is more than indispensable, and I need you too" Marlene turned her head towards the smugglers

"Who is she?" asked the woman

"to you? She's a cargo"

"we don't smuggle humans and not with other kids" - "but how old do you think we are excuse me?" your brother looked at the stranger with anger

"he had to escort her to the government building, I had squadrons and armored vehicles but not anymore and you are the only ones who can do it"

"you are fucking crazy" your brother laughed

"there will be some fireflies there and they can escort you to Wyoming, that's where you want to go, right?" Your brother had an arm around you as he looked at you. Yes, they had wanted to go there for a while, they had heard that there was a community of survivors and they could finally be safe but they didn't know how to get there, but they didn't know if they could trust Marlene as much as they do now.

"and for you there will be more than a battery, I can give you also an armored vehicle with a full tank, weapons, supplies, I swear" Marlene turned her head towards the two smugglers then pointed her finger at you

"she may seem like a little girl, but you don't know what she is capable of, she is as much as you if not more, it will be more than essential" you looked with a cold gaze at the two strangers in front of you

"who said we accepted?" - "I swear I'm telling you the truth Thomas, I know what I'm getting into if I don't tell you the truth this time"

Thomas looked at Denise as the smugglers walked away to talk "I don't want to put her in danger" your sister spoke

"I can do it" for the first time in a week you had uttered a word "if this takes us to Wyoming…I can do it" you turned your head towards your brother more than determined

You walked down the stairs with your brothers behind you while you looked at Marlene without saying anything.

You had been locked up for almost 14 days but you finally got out but how long would it take you to get into trouble with these new "companions"

—

I swear the interactions with Joel will come, but first I wanted to introduce everything a bit

#joel miller #joel miller x reader #the last of us #tlou1 #tlou hbo #pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal #troy baker

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secondsistershelby3 · 3 months ago

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A MONSTER BUT NOT FOR YOU [1]

Pairings: Joel Miller x immune!Reader

Words: 1,3k

Notes: I don't have specific days to publish, but I will try to post at least once a week if this series will continue.

MASTERLIST

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4

You were born on December 30, 2005, during that damn shit apocalypse, your memories were so vivid, usually memories of when you were little fade like clouds of smoke over the years, but not yours. Your most vivid memory is when you were infected at the age of 10, it was on May 25, 2015, or at least that's what the calendar said that it was already in that half-destroyed house where you lived then

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May 25, 2015

"Thomas what's going on?" you asked as your brother quickly picked you up, while your sister grabbed a backpack ready to go out. "We have to go honey, it's not safe anymore" Your brother tried to be as sweet as possible but hearing the effects banging against the doors was quite difficult. "Tom..." Denise, your sister, looked at the door and then at him looking worried. "I know, I know" they both put a freshly prepared backpack on their shoulders and both went out the back.

You were with your face pressed against your brother's shoulder scared, your heart was beating a thousand times, as if you had just run a marathon. "ok ok" Thomas said quickly with agitation, up ahead there should be the car we had left when we got here, let's take it and get out of this shitty place" Every time going outside was like setting off a fire alarm, the danger was lurking, anything could happen, infected, humans, they were one more dangerous than the other. That evening you must have forgotten it in part or maybe from the adrenaline you weren't thinking about it.

"Tommy…I'm afraid" you gasped while you were afraid even to turn your head to look around

"I know, I know but we're almost there honey, hold on" tears began to come down from your eyes and suddenly you heard grunts not far from you until your sister's scream broke the air

"TOMMY WATCH OUT!" An infected rushed with superhuman speed towards you and Thomas, the crash was confused, you only felt your whole body burn, especially just below the shoulder. You had your face slammed against the grass. Maybe a few seconds or maybe minutes had passed but you heard someone take you again. It was Tommy sweaty and with blood on him and you could see out of the corner of your eye the infected person who had attacked you with a slightly dented head.

"COME ON" Your brother quickly put you in the car and all three of you quickly partied with the infected behind you.

"Everything okay honey?" Your sister turned slightly putting a hand on your knee "My shoulder is burning a little" you whispered with your hand over your shoulder

His hand never left your body "as soon as we find a safe place I'll check it out" his head turned to you to give you a reassuring smile and turned his head back to the road or at least what was left of it.

Shortly after your sister turned you looked at the spot where he burned you, you slowly removed your hand and saw a bite, the mark of the infected's teeth penetrating your skin, it had been so fast that you hadn't even noticed. Your breathing increased just by seeing it.

If there was one thing you had learned since you were in the world it was: "bite = death"

You wouldn't have said it then given your age but if it were now you would have said that .you were.fucked. You didn't even hear your brother and sister arguing about the next destination, because in fact you didn't know, you had been in that house for almost two months, you had stopped to look for fireflies, they say they would have saved you and your destination was that.

10 or 20 minutes passed where you were staring straight ahead, you didn't want to die, that wasn't in your plan, no fucking fuck; the beat up car stopped

"no no shit, fuck FUCK!" you jumped at your brother's scream as he slammed his hands against the steering wheel. He looked in the mirror and saw you crouched down. He swallowed and spoke "sorry honey, I didn't mean to scare you..it's..it's just a bad time" He slumped down in the seat and ran a hand through his hair.

"We'll have to walk" your brother nodded to your sister and the three of you got out of the car cautiously, in case there were any infected.

"come here sweetheart we'll check your shoulder" your sister approached you while Thomas checked the surroundings turning his head in all directions. You continued to press your hand against your arm.

Denise lowered herself to your height and gently took your arm "Ok, let's see how to disinfect and then see- "

silence

you looked at her with a trembling lip while Denise stared fixedly at your arm with her mouth that slightly opened but no words came out. She shook her head and began to rave

"No, no, no, it can't be, it can't!" He was constantly rubbing his wrist against the bite hoping it was just a nightmare "please oh my god!" He put a hand on his mouth and started crying as he finally looked at you

your brother noticed the commotion and walked over to a crying Denise and you who had teary eyes as you looked at your older sister "what the hell is going on?! Why are you-" your brother gasped as he knelt down to check what was happening.

still silence

He gently ran his hand over the bite spot "it was…it was that infected..right?" he asked as he looked at you who was on the verge of bursting into tears as much as your sister. You nodded as you looked up to look at him.

"it's all my fault…" you and your sister looked up at him

"it's all my fault, I should have protected you" his composure slowly disappeared. He put a hand over his eyes

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry" he took you by the shoulders and hugged you. You pressed your head into his shoulder without hesitation as tears began to fall from your eyes.

You heard your sister muttering continuous "we can't, we can't do this"

your life would have ended here, bitten by an infected at only 10 years old, what a sad life you thought. What would they have done to you, you kept asking yourself. Would they have shot you? Suffocated you? Or would they have let you transform because they won't be strong enough to kill you?

You didn't know if you were afraid because you were going to die or because you would have left the people you love alone.

—

Boston, 2023

"What the fuck are you trying to do Marlene?" one of the many fireflies asked.

"I want to find a cure for this fucking virus, that's what I'm doing" the firefly glared at Marlene

"They explicitly told us not to take more than one sample and if she breaks free, do you know what the fuck she could do to us?! We've all seen her in action and she's a fucking animal!"

Marlene looked coldly at the firefly. "I don't want to carry her, I want her to help us transport our real cure along with the others"

"So why the hell are we keeping her here?" Marlene looked away from the firefly and looked at the closed door in front of her "because I want to see how much she can give if she gets to the final stage"

"she'll tear us apart!" - "not if we take her straight to F.E.D.R.A. She'll be our transporter"

Marlene didn't even have a vague idea of what you could do and only when she's one step away from death will she understand it

#joel miller x reader #joel miller #tlou #the last of us #tlou1 #cordyceps #marlene #fireflies #pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal #troy baker

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