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[Deleted Snippet – Ashes and Embers, Chapter 22] POV: Naruto. Timing: during Chapter 22, The Next Worst Thing After Love, of my fic, Ashes and Embers.

This didn't make the cut because Chapter 22 is told from Sasuke’s POV—but Naruto was clearly going through it too. Horribly down bad. No thoughts, just Sasuke’s dick.

(Also: despite this snippet and the existence of Chapter 22, yes, this fic will feature mostly Top Sasuke. They do switch, but the ratio is not balanced. Consider that a threat or a promise depending on your orientation.) This is also my apology for the emotional devastation in Chapter 23 😅

🔞 NSFW / explicit. Read with your whole chest.

It was just Sasuke.

Of course it was.

Naruto’s hand wrapped around him again—slow, tight. Testing. He’d touched him before—his hips, his chest, the scar on his shoulder—and this wasn't any different. Really. This was just...intimate. Heavy. Better.

Sasuke’s cock was flushed and thick in his hand, impossibly hot. Slick already, twitching faintly, betraying just how worked up he was. Naruto’s breath caught as he watched a drop bead at the tip, slow and glistening. It clung there—obscene—before slipping down the shaft.

His thumb followed it, spreading it lower.

Sasuke’s thighs jerked.

Naruto’s eyes didn’t leave the sight. Couldn’t. He stared like he was committing it to memory—every vein, every twitch, the taut flush of the head, the way the skin gave beneath his palm when he tightened his grip.

Pretty.

Too pretty.

Unfair, really. For Sasuke to look like that. For his cock to be this beautiful. Pale skin flushed dark, so responsive, so needy, like it had been waiting for Naruto’s hand this entire time.

Naruto traced the underside with a knuckle. It jumped.

Sasuke exhaled sharply—sharp enough for Naruto to feel it in the rise of his chest.

Naruto pressed closer.

Watched his own fingers curl around the base. Watched the muscles in Sasuke’s abdomen tense. Watched his cock throb when Naruto twisted his wrist slightly, just to see what would happen.

More slick gathered at the tip.

Naruto licked his lips.

He hadn’t even touched himself—hadn’t thought about it once. Everything in him was locked on this. On Sasuke. The weight of him. The warmth. The sound of his breath catching every time Naruto did something right.

He shifted lower. Nosed at the crease of Sasuke’s thigh, inhaled slow and deep.

Salt. Skin. Sasuke.

His teeth scraped lightly against sensitive flesh, just to mark it. Not hard. Just enough to make Sasuke twitch again.

His hand resumed its rhythm. Firm. Focused. Reverent.

The flushed head peeked between his fingers again and again, like it belonged there—like it had always belonged there.

Naruto didn’t blink.

Didn’t breathe.

He just moved. Slow, sure strokes. His grip tightening slightly every time Sasuke’s hips bucked, adjusting for the way his cock pulsed in his hand like it was pleading for more.

This wasn’t about dominance.

It wasn’t even about sex.

It was about Sasuke.

About every inch of him.

And how Naruto needed to see him undone.

By him.

Only him.

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I'm never escaping them...

Many people in the manga have spoken about Naruto and Sasuke's feelings for each other, but no one has done so more than Orochimaru.

1. Kishimoto is someone who pays attention to sound symbolism. And Kishimoto explicitly emphasized Sasuke looking at and reacting to Naruto 3 times with his heart beating in response, thus establishing a metonymic relationship in which Sasuke's heart beating represented Naruto having an effect on Sasuke's heart. Naruto was the only comrade Sasuke's heart beat for. When Sasuke finally decided to wholly reject Itachi's words, Sasuke's heart beat again, symbolizing Naruto being connected to Sasuke's heart changing.

Orochiamaru took note of Naruto's effect on Sasuke and, in the more accurately translated panel, stated that Naruto was changing Sasuke's heart. And this is part of a larger pattern of heart symbolism being integral to Naruto and Sasuke’s bond. Naruto made Sasuke's heart beat, Sasuke made Naruto clutch at his heart, Naruto made Sasuke's sharingan (a reflection of the heart) transform repeatedly, and in the end, their hearts were able to mutually merge in their shared feelings of empathy for each other.

On a less meta scale, this scene is emblematic of Naruto and Sasuke being integral to each other's development and mutually pushing the other to get better. They drive each other.

Kishimoto also validates Orochimaru's Forest of Death observations in the narrative.

Orochiamaru indicates that Naruto was extinguishing the darkness from Sasuke's soul, and we repeatedly see Naruto framed as Sasuke's light in narrative. In order to enter the darkness, Sasuke needed to leave Naruto. When Sasuke talks about Naruto walking in front of him, the text is placed on a panel of the sun. Even in Boruto, when Sasuke reflects on Naruto and talks about Naruto's Hokage dream that Sasuke "died" to protect in the Land of Waves, Naruto is pointedly encased in bright light. Kishimoto has even stated that Sasuke likes Naruto's "sunny" personality. It's all connected to their recurrent yin and yang symbolism.

Kishimoto also referenced Orochimaru's statement in Sasuke's 698 monologue. Orochimaru said that in order to counteract Naruto's influence on Sasuke, he needed to "dye" Sasuke in his colors. [That particular phrasing coming from Orochimaru has a very negative connotation and a disturbing innuendo.] But, Sasuke used the word "dye" in an innocent context to refer to Naruto being his weakness and unconsciously having an emotional effect on him.

2. Orochimaru specifically brought Sai to Sasuke so that they could reminisce about Sasuke's "dear Konoha." When Sai specifically riles Sasuke up by disrespecting Naruto, he's swiftly met with Sasuke's fierce genjutsu, and Orochimaru warns Sai about baiting Sasuke too much. This moment is particularly interesting because it resembles the way both Orochimaru, Kabuto AND Sai used Sasuke's name to provoke Naruto earlier in this very arc.

It's also narratively fitting that in the same way Sasuke's introduction in Part 1 began with him angrily telling off Sakura for not being understanding about Naruto, he began his Part 2 introduction with putting Sai in a genjutsu because of how he mentioned Naruto. And it aligns with Sasuke confirming his feelings for Naruto never changed.

3. Orochimaru recognizes that Sasuke is worried about Naruto when Sasuke (and the others) sensed his chakra and Sasuke rushed Orochimaru so they could "revive" the Hokage. Sasuke had been on his way to Naruto to keep true to their promise to fight each other first (Chapter 574) before he'd come across Itachi. Kishimoto really built up Naruto and Sasuke's desire to meet each other, which is fitting given that Kishimoto discussed wanting special feelings to be born to them when they finally returned to eachother.

Kishimoto also referenced the the word that Orochimaru used to describe Sasuke's feelings in Sasuke's monologue as well, lending further credibility to Orochimaru's statement.

4. In Chapter 646, Sasuke is established as looking at Naruto with a pained expression. Chapter 647 maintains focus on Sasuke staring in that same direction with a look that Orochimaru indicates represents Sasuke being in a foul mood. And that foul mood that Orochimaru noted was only lifted after Sasuke specifically encouraged Naruto to keep fighting, and Naruto stated he was coming with Sasuke. It also gives us the iconic moment where Naruto's heart pours out to the shinobi alliance, and his regrets about not reaching out to Sasuke are at the very forefront. This moment also connects to the heart symbolism that is significant in Naruto's and Sasuke's bond as well as the theme of them feeling the others' pain.

5. Rather than making Orochimaru comment on Naruto and Sasuke's bond via direct speaker reference, Kishimoto utilizes semantic reference to have Orochimaru indirectly comment on Naruto's status as Sasuke's wind. Wind is directly meant to represent Sasuke's future and life force. That's why when Sasuke (and Naruto) dies, Orochimaru wonders if this was as far as Sasuke's wind was meant to go. But, in the text, there's one other thing, or person, regarded as Sasuke's wind: Naruto. Orochimaru could have more straightforwardly said that he was looking forward to to seeing Sasuke's future and what lied ahead for him, but instead, Kishimoto deliberately made him use the more unusual wording of wind to foreshadow that Naruto, Sasuke's wind, was intimately connected with his future. Given Kishimoto's love of puns and wordplay, the intention was clear.

6. It doesn’t end there. In Gaiden, Orochimaru states his desire for Mitsuki to find a sun that can illuminate the darkness... a moment that's a clear allusion to Naruto and Sasuke's relationship, and the very aspect that threatened Orochimaru and his plans so much that he desired to separate them.

7. Mistuki mentions in the Boruto movie, which was proudly written by Kishimoto and was stated to be a movie that was more about Sasuke than Boruto, that Orochimaru told him Sasuke was the only one who could rival Naruto.

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We don't talk enough about SNS' official lyrics. They're so tragic. It's also significant that whenever the motif of escaping the village (even by means of death) is invoked in Naruto and Sasuke's stories, Sasuke and Naruto are the respective biggest/sole factors.

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Sasuke wasn’t the problem. The writing was. Stop punishing female characters for feeling, and stop forcing men into relationships they never wanted. Everyone lost. No one was fed.

Hot take but the truth™️: Naruto’s women deserved better and I will die on this hill 🧍‍♀️

We don’t talk enough about how cruel it was to shove Hinata and Sakura between Naruto and Sasuke—two emotionally constipated soulmates with god-tier trauma bonding and a love language consisting of fighting each other to near-death every six months.

Like… imagine being Hinata. You’ve spent your whole life admiring this sunshine idiot from afar, and when you finally get his attention, suddenly he’s got a whole-ass emotional husband who:

left the village for years and Naruto never stopped chasing him

shows up once every blue moon and Naruto still smiles like the sun

had a final battle with Naruto so intense it blew off both their arms

got the “I’ll die with you” speech more than once

shares more eye contact with Naruto in one episode than with his wife across an entire spin-off series

Be so for real.

And Sakura?? Babygirl carried the weight of the “strong female lead” label on her back for 700 episodes, only to be handed the most confusing, unresolved romantic arc in the entire series. She should’ve ended up with Rock Lee—who respected her, supported her, and actually grew as a person—or with Ino, her rival-turned-soulmate who challenged her, loved her fiercely, and actually talked to her like a human being. That rivalry had more chemistry in one forehead insult than her entire canon romance.

Instead, the writing forced her into a marriage that never made sense—and this is where we need to get real:

✨ Sasuke never owed her love. He never promised her anything. ✨

He was traumatized. Broken. On a mission of revenge. He didn’t have room to love anyone—not even himself.

The problem wasn’t Sasuke. The problem was the narrative pretending this was romance.

Instead of letting Sakura grow, let her choose herself, or realize that her love wasn’t returned in the way she deserved—the story punished her for feeling too much and called it a reward. That’s not Sasuke’s fault. That’s bad writing.

Meanwhile, Naruto and Sasuke were out there:

gazing at each other like lovers across battlefields

calling each other their one and only

collapsing into each other’s arms like it’s a Tuesday

having full breakdowns when the other one was gone for 10 minutes

bleeding, dying, and nearly destroying the world for each other

BUT SURE. Let’s pretend the real endgame was two exhausted women and a pair of war husbands trying to pretend they weren’t already married spiritually, emotionally, and metaphysically.

Let’s be honest:

Hinata had more chemistry with Kiba, her actual teammate who supported her and saw her as a partner—not a mystery to be noticed for the first time after 600 episodes and a war.

Sakura had a whole destiny arc waiting with either Lee or Ino, and we were robbed. She didn’t need to be “chosen.” She needed to be loved—and the story didn’t give her that.

Naruto and Sasuke should’ve gotten forest married.

Sakura and Ino should’ve started a psychic-medical clinic.

ROCK LEE DESERVED EVERYTHING!!!

Hinata and Kiba should’ve raised ninja puppies and babies together.

Tenten should’ve had a weapon empire.

And all of them should’ve been rich, moisturized, and unbothered.

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I'm going to cry this is so fucking funny like 😭

Obito: Wait WAIT time out, Kakashi, we're not even gay! Kakashi, mustering on an expression like a kicked puppy and wiping a tear from the corner of his eye: So...you gaslit me. What a player. *Chuckles bitterly* Kakashi, looking him dead in the eye: Can't believe you're a homophobe *Naruto and Sakura glare at Obito. Sasuke crosses his arms and says "Tch. Figures."* Obito: What the fuck is happening??

Kakashi: Just like you to forget our anniversary…

Naruto: SENSEI’S TRAUMATIC EX IS THE FINAL BOSS??

Sakura: I KNEW YOU COULD DO BETTER.

Sasuke: Hn. (Which means: "I always knew.")

Really stupid au where when they were younger, Kakashi and Obito shared an accidental kiss a lot like Sasuke and Naruto. (Kakashi commits to his mask shortly after but will never not insist it's unrelated)

Years later and Kakashi, trying to cheer up Naruto and Sasuke ab their own embaressing accidental first kiss, shares his own story

Then, years later when Obito reveals himself on the battlefield, instead of going "woah, another Uchiha!?" when he hears his name, Naruto can't help but point and shout OH MY GOD UR THE GUY WHO KISSED SENSEI!!!!!!!!

Instant dead silence. (Obito wants to die)

Sakura, who never heard the story ab how it was a one time accidental kiss: "omg... sensei's childhood boyfriend went evil on him... this is so fucked up"

Obito is VIOLENTLY thrown off by this turn of events (and also hasn't actually thought ab it in years oh my god that did happen didn't it)

Kakashi, seeing how badly it threw him off, and also the kind of person who plays hard into throwing people off and generally fucking w them to gain an edge, seeing Sakura mumbling ab lovers to enemies and just kinda goes "Yeah Obito I can't believe you'd do this to me I thought we had smthn special."

"Yeah a rivalry????"

"So I was only ever a way for u to get stronger,, figures u were using me,,,"

[Confused Obito car crash noises]

Sakura yells smthn ab him being a deadbeat and how Kakashi can do so much better and Naruto is instantly shouting in agreement as Sasuke stands there like "hn." Which is basically the same thing for him

Kakashi just starts straight up lying actually

"What about all those picnics we went on... watching the sun set over konoha..."

"Are you talking about when Minato said we weren't allowed to come back inside till we stopped arguing and ate on opposite ends of the roof bc we couldn't even look at eachother without yelling???"

"It was so romantic."

Obito, starting to actually doubt himself, "was that a date????"

(It was not.)

"You died in my arms..."

"I died under a rock"

"We literally got eye married" (not a thing, he just made this up 3 seconds ago)

"We got WHAT" (no one can prove him wrong tho bc no surviving Uchiha knows that much ab their clans marriage traditions)

"Oh my god sensei's husband is a deadbeat" - sakura, horrified (and maybe a little delighted)

"Figures." -Sasuke, who's been in proximity w Obito for some time now and absoloutley believes every word ab this topic Kakashi is saying

"Woah. This is almost as bad as the fact he murdered my parents when I was a baby dattebayo" - Naruto who's priorities are NOT what they should be

"Ok. I wouldn't go that far." - Sasuke, who's priorities are also fucked but not THAT fucked, oh my god Naruto

"No, no he's right. We should kill him even harder for this" - Sakura, who doesn't actually agree but wants an excuse for more juicy sensei love drama (and also wants to see Obito beaten to death anyways)

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Konoha really let a man with chronic absenteeism, visible trauma, and no confirmed chin run the village just because they really liked his 'mysterious' ✨vibes✨ (it was depression). RIP to the villagers. You would've loved Wattpad.

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HELP YEOSANG THAT INSANE FACE CARD HELP THE BICEPS HELP I'M BEING ATTACKED ON ALL SIDES HELP

I'm sobbing hysterically right now I wish I was half as pretty as Yeosang. I apologize to the world for even gazing upon such beauty, for simply existing on the same plane should be a sin, as I am not up to the mark.

Captain...the sass...the glowing skin...the attitude...the double denim...he's really feeling himself, huh?

Did not know that Hongjoong with freckles was something I needed until now. Wow. I'd literally sacrifice, like, a good chunk of my makeup to see Freckle Hongjoong again and that stuff was EXPENSIVE.

Ofc Yunho will always serve till the end of time. It's giving casual. It's giving chic. It's giving 'I didn't even try, I'm just naturally this hot'

Yunho truly is the most Boyfriend Material looking man Ever. All of his pics are so boyfriend coded. If you're delusional (like me), I'd recommend him as a bias.

Mingi. Minki. Princess Minki. The blush makeup, once again, will give me heart problems. I have never seen a man look finer while leaning out a car window, you truly are something else, Song Mingi.

Direct eye contact? From a car? A bit scandalous no?

...I need them to ban direct eye contact in the concept photos now because Jung Wooyoung, the man that you are, I'd do something cringey like cry over your jawline.

Blond Wooyo is literally so special to me because I literally just dyed my hair a few days before he hard launched his fully blond hair. I dyed it based on his Oreo Hair era. He was literally the inspo pic.

I'm going to be so honest, I previously thought that Jongho could not possibly get any cooler. Well. That was before I was introduced to the concept of Jongho Driving™. Anyone who happens to be within a 10 kilometer range of this man will instantly get their aura zapped because they could never dare to hope to ever be as cool as he is.

The infinite aura exuding from this man...Sung Jinwoo doesn't stand a fucking chance.

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ATEEZ teaser pics 😭😭😭 just dropped 😭😭😭 and I am 😭😭😭 so gone 😭😭😭

What do you MEAN we're showing....waist? Skin? Arms? Is this legal? Is this allowed?

Hwa, my love. My ult bias. The heatburn blush. I'm going to die. This is how I go. I'm serious. I'm a simple person that likes simple things. I really love Seonghwa's makeup in this pic, it's so pretty! I like it so much that I can't breathe! Haha. I'm casual.

My bias wrecker... Listen. I woke up at 7 am today and was greeted with these pictures. I am glad to be alive. The sun is shining. The wind is blowing. My skin is clearing. My bank account keeps draining. Sannie looks better than ever 🫶🏼 I am 😌 so 😌 so normal 😌 about this 😌

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“You ever hold your daughter and think, “She has my eyes,” but then remember his eyes? The way they blazed when he said your name like it was a promise, a prayer, a curse? How you tried to kill him—tried—but he forgave you anyway? And then made you forgive yourself?

And suddenly, fatherhood feels like atonement, not love.

You ever wake up beside a woman who says she waited for you, but all you can think about is the way he never stopped chasing you, even when you told him not to? The way his chakra always reached for yours, even when you were miles apart?

And suddenly, marriage feels like settling.

You ever walk through Konoha, rebuilt and thriving, and realize you still don’t know peace? Because peace meant standing beside him. Not behind him. Beside him.

And suddenly, being redeemed feels like punishment.”

— Uchiha Sasuke, emotionally unavailable reformed war criminal, currently on a redemption arc with zero emotional supervision

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I feel like Naruto in Boruto Era is miserable

Naruto in Boruto is just… so unbearably sad. He’s overworked, always exhausted, barely present for his own family. Half the time, he sends shadow clones home instead of going himself. And the thing is—he could delegate. He should delegate. He’s the Hokage, not the entire damn village. But he doesn’t, because deep down, he wouldn’t know what to do with himself if he stopped.

He’d go home to a beautiful wife who loves him, eat the home-cooked meals he used to dream about, look at the family he always said he wanted—and still feel that gaping, hollow ache in his chest.

Because Sasuke isn’t there.

And he’d rather throw himself into work, into endless battles and crises, even risk his life out on the field, if it means he can fight beside Sasuke again—even for a moment. Because at least then, the world makes sense again. At least then, it feels like home.

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“You ever look at your wife and kids and think ‘I love them’ but then remember the way he used to say your name? How his chakra felt wrapped around yours? How he left you for dead but you still begged for his forgiveness? And suddenly love feels like a cheap knockoff of whatever the hell that was?”

— Uzumaki ‘Definitely Straight’ Naruto, shadow-cloning a therapist out of desperation

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Anyway now that the intro’s out of the way, here’s my official position on Naruto’s ass and postwar justice.

Guys, I'm just saying. Konoha probably has like a ton of homophobes, right? How would they get around the fact that their Golden Boy and Konoha's Top War Criminal are together now? (in my fic, at least) I imagine it'd go somewhat like this:

📰 KONOHA PRESS CONFERENCE — OFFICIAL TRANSCRIPT

Topic: “Uzumaki Naruto: A Bold Act of Reparations”

Location: Hokage Tower, Room B-69 Time: Too early for this shit Dress Code: Traumatized

Ino (looking like a girlboss who skipped five therapy appointments to be here):

“Effective immediately, the Seventh Hokage has chosen to bottom for Uchiha Sasuke. This is not a kink thing. This is diplomatic policy. We call this: The Uchiha Revitalization Initiative: Ass First Edition. As compensation for the massacre, surveillance, gaslighting, and general bad vibes Konoha inflicted on the Uchiha, Uzumaki Naruto will be, quite literally, throwing it back in the name of peace.”

Shikamaru (half-asleep, fully done):

“He’s getting dicked down so the village doesn’t burn down. We’ve run out of options. Don’t ask me shit.”

Sai (raising his hand):

“Should this be recorded in the historical archives under ‘sexual diplomacy’ or ‘interpersonal reparations’?”

Naruto (somewhere backstage, in absolute agony):

“WHY DID I AGREE TO THIS I THOUGHT THIS WAS A PRIVATE ARRANGEMENT WHY ARE THERE SCROLLS???”

Uchiha Sasuke (arms crossed, smug, victorious, glowing like a smug cryptid):

“It’s not reparations if nobody knows about it, dobe.”

Public Response:

Civilian aunties faint in the crowd.

A rogue ANBU starts clapping. He is swiftly tackled.

The Uchiha Memorial ignites with spontaneous blue flame.

Somewhere, Orochimaru sheds a single tear of perverted pride.

Ino (wrapping up):

“Three cheers for the Hokage’s hole, everyone.”

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Hi Tumblr. It’s me. Sharkfreak.

I actually made this account ages ago and then forgot about it like a true AO3 feral. Anyway hi. I’m the author of Ashes and Embers, the long-ass Naruto/Sasuke fic where they’re both mentally ill, emotionally constipated, and also probably in love (tragically).

This blog is now officially my place to:

Scream about my fic

Post dumbass meta

Spiral about how Sasuke is both the problem and the solution

Cry over other fandoms too (ATEEZ, other animes, K-pop chaos, etc.)

Possibly ruin lives with crack posts like “Naruto bottoming is reparations”

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