shayochism

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"Passin' as a guy is awesome at times. But I'm thirty..."

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NO I DONT STRUGGLE WITH DRAWING AT ALL *crying*

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"NO, WAIT!!"

A pause.

"Kiss me t'piss Jax off."

"Kiss me an' I'll choke ya. Unless y'into that........"

Kiss meme ?/5 He blinked at that, holding the younger rocket up in the air, helmet tilting slightly in confusion. "Kiss you??? I'm about to punch you!!" he stated, clearly confused by her train of thought, before dropping her. "Screw this, it ain't worth my time. Just keep your trap shut about my private business."

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CLUBCAAAARD

TESCO SUPREMACY

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TESCO SUPREMACY

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Regret is a useless emotion and she refuses to pander to it.

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She does, however, sort of regret getting so into being praised by her superiors that she signed up for a project relating to mega evolution, of which fucked up her Tyranitar and even herself. It was a highly arduous few months and when she looks back on it, she is always quick enough to push those memories away and into the back of her mind where they subconsciously fester and haunt her; she refuses to face that she fucked up, even if she did get told she did well and helped a lot of research.

But, whenever she looks at her ever-tortured Tyranitar, there's almost a pang of guilt. Almost.

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That's actually a huge thing for Shayan. Praise is actually what drives her on a daily basis and keeps her functioning, ensures she wants to be the best of the best; the craving and need to be recognized for her hard work runs in her blood. Hence, she works day in and day out on her physical form, training with her Pokémon so they become stronger and stronger, more and more powerful. All so she will be noticed and told she's doing a good job. The mental health can suffer for all she cares as long as she's recognized.

When she first joined Rocket, she was a troublemaker and didn't care about anybody and anything. She was depressed, overly angry, and self-destructive, sitting at only sixteen years of age. She hated life and everything in it. But it only a took a year and one simple sentence to change her way of life when she got told she did a good job on one assignment. After that, she became obsessed with being praised, and obsessed with the job. She started working out, cut out the drink and drugs, stopped attacking everybody and everything, and focused on what she was told to do. She didn't cut out the self-destructive tendencies, however, and would go way too far in her training, so much so that she often collapsed or blacked out to the point of needing medical attention. She would do anything to succeed and gain the recognition she claims she deserves. It all still holds up to this day, fourteen years later.

And this is why her Tyranitar is so screwed up. Because she wanted the praise.

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Everybody was ignored as a kid, it seems.

Pls praise her for being such a good Rocket.

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Shayan's features momentarily contort with confusion at the other offering help, but then just as quickly turn back to the usual emptiness. She's crossed people like this before, ones who seem to have no qualms with anybody and just help out. It irks her in some weird way.

"'m fine, don' stress 'bout it."

She's really not used to meeting people who would be nice to her. Her entire life revolves around being cold, harsh, and unfriendly, doing bad things to good people. So, she just waves a hand in a dismissive way at the handkerchief.

"Do y'help everybody or somethin'?"

"I didn't plan on it... I mean, unless you were doing something to make me need to alert someone, but you're not doing anything wrong."

She carefully approached and offered a handkerchief with a bunnelby on it.

"Here, so you can get the blood off...and um "She looked through the kit to find a cold compress.

"Ah! maybe you should stay sitting for a little while, you seem more hurt than you think..."

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@eclectical-ocs // Fear

"Peon?"

She isn't going to let that one go. So instead of watching Cashmir walk away with use of his cane, she strides far and fast until she's stood before him, blocking his exit. A hard sense of anger crosses her features in a quick wave, those blazing emerald eyes darkening, sharpening, keen on boring right into the man's own gaze. Anybody else - anybody lower than her - and she may have throttled them half to death.

"Listen up, Cash. I ain't a peon. See this uniform, huh?" Hands gesturing to her entirety, the light gray, blue, and black outfit on display, she makes a clear show of her rank. "Y'should know I ain' any simple peon. Or did y'hit y'head too hard when bein' fucked up by Jax?"

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@seaglassmarigold // A lie

Stopping for a moment in, well, a little bit of awkwardness at the comment, it takes Shayan a moment to switch her mind from 'what the fuck' and back to the scene at hand.

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"No, wait, the fuck you on about?"

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@livingshinycharm // Ya found me

"It don't matter."

Albeit the bleeding from her lip, Shayan seems okay otherwise, which is a surprise considering the scrap she got into not too long before this person found her hiding in the shadows of some large bushes. Ah yes, good ol' rivalries. It was a thing between her and a certain Skull member to continuously fight when they meet, battling with Pokémon and fists alike until one of them dropped. It's usually an equal match ending with a draw. They also keep it secret that they're rivals lest a Rocket leader or even Guzma find out. After all, it's just a friendly rivalry, right? Something like that, anyway.

A hand lifts to wipe at her face, running it down from forehead to chin, smearing some blood from her mouth in the process. Carefully eyeing the crimson, she can only shrug in disinterest. Healing exists and there's been worse things in life. She will be just fine.

Then, suddenly, she springs up to stand instead of remaining slumped on the ground. Damn, even her ribs hurt. The other got a mighty good smack somewhere other than her face.

"Don' tell anybody shit 'bout me bein' here, alright?"

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// I DESPISE the updated tooth emoji on here ew ew ew ew why

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She never got a middle name.

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Sleeps with a sword that she swore to adore less Scraping her knees as she bleeds from importance

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