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[shin-bunny1]

[shin-bunny1]

1. STORY TIME

I never talk about how I actually feel but sometimes ther is so much in my head...and then I can take it...I know That sounds like a 13 year old person who wants attention haha but that's not gosh I'm just not fine that's all and I DON'T NEED U'R ATTENTION OMG U don't know what happen in my live ok u really don't know.. how it is when u don't have a dad who cares about u, and will u be happy!! You don't have a mom who really don't want you...I tell u a Story about a girl who was 6 years old she cry's because her mom says to her: ,,please die, I hate u so much, why are u alive, fuck why give I birth to you...!!" And THATS NOT ALL FUCK SHE SAY THIS EVERYDAY SHE SLEP ME SHE TRIED TO KILL ME SO FUCKING MANY TIMES AND I DONT SAY THAT TO U BECAUSE I WANT U'R ATTENTION NOOO BECAUSE I NEED TO SAY THAT... if I do not say that, I break slowly!! Fuck I need time thx for EVERYTHING MOM U BROKE ME AND MY FAMILY REALLY THANK U HAHA U BROKE ME U SMASHED MY HOLE LIFE WHY GIVE U BIRTH TO ME WHEN U HATE ME THAT MUCH OMG U... Wow because of that I never can trust a Person thank u I NEVER CAN LOVE SOMEONE THANK U!!

I know it has nothing to do here but I just need a break now I mean have not lived with this woman for 3 years now but it feels like I’m there!! Every night she said the worst things a mother can say when she hit me and when she tried to kill me!! I do not want you to look at me with other eyes I'm not a person who can not live with that there is MUCH worse things on this Planet but this is actually the first day time back then that I feel something again and actually I'm really happy about that wow l actually have Alexithymia... so this is rather rare for me but yes!! I think you understand this!

And no thanks I do not need to hear your stories that you're feeling sick too sry but I can not do that at the moment l'm sorry l'm someone you can always talk to but now it just annoys me!! & I do not need anyone to say ah then do a therapy or something... thanks no i've been doing this for 2 years and my therapist said that you can not do much there except talk to friends about it but that's the kind of person I do not and will never be! I do not need any advice or any other thanks!! Bye