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" Tried so hard to cut the strings, but ended up becoming the string's marionette again " -ˋ┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈

MAY 0# 2025

"Ahh... I'm so tired even though all I did was laying on the bed...

Today feels empty. Like... it's lacking something.

Right, I didn't go to school today.

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I didn't see him.

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Graduation is near...

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Graduation is near...

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It's.. near...

I... I don't want to.

It's too soon.

Why. Why did time flow so fast? I feel like I just came into this school months ago, but now I will be graduating soon.

I don't want to graduate from this school.

Wait.

I shouldn't say things like that. I should graduate. I... I want to graduate from this school.

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I still want to see him. I'm not ready to leave this school yet. I don't want to. I want to stay here with him. I want to see him everyday. No, I don't want to cross paths with him. Please, not now. Not so soon. I don't wanna.

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Time is so cruel...

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Ah... I forgot to watch that anime... I planned to watch it after final exams, but I haven't finished the manhwa I'm reading...

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I will delay watching it.

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Ah... Graduation is near and all I think about is him. I... I should've been thinking about my friends... I shouldn't cry for him. I'm a cruel friend. I shouldn't think about him. I shouldn't cry for him.

But... I hope I can have a good relationship with him again after graduation. I want him to be the love of my life. But, thats kinda impossible. I want him. I want to live together with him as a family. I'm fine with a loveless ma— What am I thinking??? I will move on after a long time anyway, so why am I still hoping for nothing...? There's no way...

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But... at least... let me be friends with him again.

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Ah...

I'm too naive.

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There's no way...

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But, we never know what the future...

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God.. If being lovers with him is too much, please at least let me be friends with him again. Just friends. I'm sure thats not too much, isn't it...?

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Thats... maybe still too much...

There's no way he would want to, remembering what I've said about him. I'd do the same if I were in his shoes. I insulted him. I... I don't deserve to be in the same class as him. I don't deserve to talk to him, to be near him, or even staring at him. I made myself too bad in his eyes.

Ahh... I should wash my face. I can't use a wattpad story as an excuse if someone sees because my phone isn't near right now."

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HATSUMI'S NOTES : (why is the font so big lmao)

Didn't expect people to vote this girl more lol. When writing this I kept imagining Mizuki alone in her room watching anime (first parts of Ena5). Also, Mafu6 song must be relased already. I will post Clarissa's different appearances later. I can't make gacha videos rn because I deleted my ibis paint x lol. My storage was too full, and it still is now. Ahh... I yapped too much.

Remember that the ask box is always open if you have questions.

Have a nice day!

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— Magic : The Visual Novel —

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Check this post and fill the form to apply!

Like and reblogs are very appreciated <3

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Idk what is this but for me it looks like a teary eye.

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Yuno's voice drama is called "the melting point".....

Mahiru melted Yuno's coldness. I'm not crying.

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KANA5 CARD LEAKS

Higher quality on my twt.

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"...when?"

Without effect

HATSUMI'S NOTES :

I really like the dark one, lol. It reminds me of okaasan.

The ask box is always open, you can ask about my series or characters.

No speedpaint.

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Sometimes you need patience.

Without lighting effect

HATSUMI'S NOTES :

I drew this when I had no internet connection last night. I was planning to draw stabbed Clarissa but ended up drawing this. Anyway, I hope your fantasy will come true someday, Clarissa.

Speedpaint will be uploaded soon.

The ask box is always open, you can ask things about my series and characters.

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almost correct! it's "too"

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「優しくされると余計にツライ　けど冷たくされるの望んでないよ」

𝖭𝖺𝗆𝖾 : 𝖢𝗅𝖺𝗋𝗂𝗌𝗌𝖺 𝖠𝗀𝖾 : 𝟣𝟦 𝖡𝗂𝗋𝗍𝗁𝖽𝖺𝗒 : 𝖥𝖾𝖻𝗎𝖺𝗋𝗒 𝟣𝟦𝗍𝗁 𝖫𝗂𝗄𝖾𝗌 : 𝖧𝗎𝗀𝗌, 𝗉𝗁𝗈𝗇𝖾, 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝖣𝗂𝗌𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾𝗌 : 𝖧𝖾𝗋 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝖠𝗌𝗌𝗈𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗌𝗈𝗇𝗀 : 𝖯𝖺𝗋𝖺𝗌𝗂𝗍𝖾 𝖻𝗒 𝖣𝖾𝖼𝗈*𝟤𝟩

𝖠 𝗆𝗂𝖽𝖽𝗅𝖾 𝗌𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗈𝗅 𝗀𝗂𝗋𝗅 𝗐𝗁𝗈'𝗌 𝗈𝖻𝗌𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖾𝖽 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗌𝗂𝗇𝖼𝖾 𝟦𝗍𝗁 𝖽𝖺𝗒 𝗈𝖿 𝗌𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗈𝗅. 𝖴𝗇𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗍𝗎𝗇𝖺𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗒 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗄𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝗂𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗀𝗈𝗍 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗓𝗈𝗇𝖾𝖽. 𝖶𝖾𝗅𝗅, 𝗆𝖺𝗒𝖻𝖾 '𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗓𝗈𝗇𝖾𝖽' 𝗂𝗌 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗋𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝖽, 𝖻𝖾𝖼𝖺𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖺𝗅𝗄𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗂𝗇. 𝖲𝗁𝖾 𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝗋𝗎𝗀𝗀𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗅𝖾t 𝗀𝗈 𝗈𝖿 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌. 𝖲𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝖾𝗅𝗂𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗋𝖾𝗍𝗎𝗋𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾𝖽𝖺𝗒.

𝖧𝖺𝗍𝗌𝗎𝗆𝗂'𝗌 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍 : 𝖴𝗀𝗁… 𝗌𝗁𝖾'𝗌 too 𝖽𝖾𝗅𝗎𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇𝖺𝗅, 𝖨 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗂𝗍. 𝖲𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗆𝗈𝗌𝗍 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝖽𝖺𝗒 𝗈𝗇𝗅𝗒 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖺 𝖻𝗈𝗒 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝖽𝗈𝖾𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗀𝖺𝖿 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗋.

𝖭𝗈𝗍𝖾 : 𝖸𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗇 𝖺𝗌𝗄 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗆𝗒 𝗈𝖼𝗌 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗆 𝗆𝗈𝗋𝖾. The ask box is always open!

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Clarissa facts.

TW : Obsessed behavior, a mention of self-harm.

— She is very insecure about her hair.

— Hair smoothing once every year.

— Loves doing chores.

— Has a strong urge but doesn't have the courage (basically : obsessed but not brave).

— Choking herself is her way to calm herself from jealously. It also helps her to be more aware of her position as a stranger.

— Is very aware of her obsessed behavior and is disgusted by herself.

— Tried to move on at the end of 8th grade, and it worked!! She wasn't shy around him anymore and was able to talk to him without freaking out. However, the obsession came back weeks later. And it became WAAAAAY worse.

— Had noted everything she knew about him in her notebook, but she ended up throwing the papers away.

— Had noted his activities at school, and the time too (Ex : 9 AM : He *******). But she ended up throwing the papers away.

— Tried to search his information on his elementary school website, but it didn't have data for students. She was very disappointed.

— Does NOT follow him anywhere. Because as I said, she doesn't have the courage to.

— When she was at 7th grade, she secretly grabbed his notebook and stole a paper away. And then she saved it in her bag. Basically collecting.

— Planned to give him 2 JARS of his favorite candy on his birthday. Tapi malah jadi strangers duluan. Also happened on the 7th grade.

— She REALLY wants to bite him, don't ask why.

— She wants to hold his hand at least once in her life.

HATSUMI'S NOTES :

Do you guys think thats unhealty enough...?? I have more facts but I will save them for later.

As I mentioned, Clarissa is fully aware of her obsession. But, it's like she was bounded by chain, or controlled like a doll, by the obsession itself. No matter how much she tries to move on, it will come back. And she hates it.

You can ask about my characters! The ask box is always open!

See you and have a nice day!

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Happy very belated birthday to Nanari Hikari

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"I don't need the rules to keep me safe. When I hear your voice, I feel safe already."

THE STORY OF SUMIKO'S PARENTS

Characters : Aime Kanamine, Kurome Oborodzuka

Chapter 2 : Beautiful voice

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After that encounter, both of them wanted to meet each other again. For Aime, because she feels bad for him. She knows he has no friends because of his disability. For Kurome, because of her beautiful voice. He wants to hear her voice everyday.

Aime looked for him everywhere, and finally found him sitting below a tree, then she sits next to him. "Hey!" She greets him. "Oh? You're the girl from yesterday, right?" "Yeah! I'm glad you remembered me! My name is Aime, whats yours?" "Kurome, Kurome Oborodzuka."

"Kurome? Hey, don't you think we sound like siblings? Aime and Kurome!" "Hmm, you're right…" Aime laughs. Oh, her laughter is so addicting to Kurome. "Wanna be friends?" "F-friends? Sure… I've never had any friend before." "Ahh, I'm your first friend then!" She said with excitement.

He was scared, because he wasn't allowed to go outside nor interact with outsiders. But, Aime's voice and her cheerful personality already took his heart. He doesn't care about the rule anymore, he wants to be friends with her, listen to her voice everyday, and being together with her– oh, it's too early to think about that.

The important thing is, he gets to hear her voice often. Thats what matters now.

CHAPTER 2 END

HATSUMI'S NOTES :

Hehe, I said soon.

See you in the next chapter!

Have a nice day!

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"I don't need the rules to keep me safe. When I hear your voice, I feel safe already."

THE STORY OF SUMIKO'S PARENTS

Characters : Aime Kanamine, Kurome Oborodzuka

Chapter 1 : The beauty of flowers

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"Beautiful..." Said by a young girl who has been looking at a field of flowers, mesmerized by their beauty. Her name is Aime Kanamine. She is 11 years old, and she likes flowers. "I wish mom would allow me to plant some flowers... So I can see them everyday."

"Ah, I should go to home, otherwise mom would be angry." She stands up and walks to her home. On the way, she saw a young boy standing nearby the flowers and she decided to talk to him.

"Hey! Are you looking at the flowers? They're beautiful, right?" She says it with a sweet smile. "Ah? N-no, I'm not looking at them." "Huh? So, what are you looking at then?"

"Actually... I can't see. Everyone in my family ha–" Before he could finish his sentence, he was dragged away by his mother. "Ah... He can't see?" Aime frowns, feeling bad for him.

"He can't see the beauty of flowers..."

Meanwhile, Kurome's mother is scolding him now. Telling him not to go outside interact with outsiders. Kurome apologized to his mother and entered his room. He sits on the floor, remembering the voice of that girl he met just a few moments ago. He mumbled something softly, barely above a whisper.

"That voice... I want to hear it again."

CHAPTER 1 END

HATSUMI'S NOTES :

Hii! Finally, I published this story! This will be most wholesome story I wrote, I promise 🙏🏻 I love them sm. I'll drop next chapter soon!

See you in the next chapter!

Have a nice day!

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Nanari and Himari :

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Literally Shimai and Natsumi :

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THE STORY OF A FETISH—————————————————

Chapter 3 : Jealously

Natsumi's pov

Why did it come to this? I wanted to kill her, but now she saved me. Ugh... My chest isn't hurt anymore, but now I feel dizzy...

3RD PERSON POV

FLASHBACK

Natsumi and Shimai are preparing dinner, and Natsumi is having a plan to get rid of Shimai. "Natsumi, I'm going to the toilet—" "It's okay, go ahead. The dinner is almost ready, leave it to me!" With that, Shimai ran into the toilet.

"Mother, I know this is wrong. But this is your fault. You care about Shimai more than me." She poured some honey into her mother's tea cup.

BANG!

"AAA—"

"You... what in the world did you do?! What are you thinking?!" Her sister, Namitsu, pushed her onto the floor. She grabbed a knife and is ready to slice Natsumi's throat. "Don't intefere! It's none of your business!" "IT IS! I CAN'T LET MY SISTER— WHA—"

Shimai pushed Namitsu away and grabbed Natsumi's hand. She headed into Natsumi's parents room. Before they could, Namitsu threw the knife at Natsumi's direction. But, Shimai has a good reflect, she pulled Natsumi to dodge the knife.

Shimai knocked on Natsumi's parents room loudly, pleading help. But no response. Oh, right. Their parents are out. The only option is run. They both ran from the house.

FLASHBACK END

"Natsumi? You awake?" "Huh, yeah. Don't come in, I look pathetic right now." "It's not like I'm gonna laugh." Shimai enters the room. "Are you okay?" "No, my head is hurt." "Here, drink this." Shimai offered Natsumi a cup of ginger tea.

"Where are we?" Natsumi says, while taking a sip of the tea. Shimai sighs "Let me explain. You passed out when we were walking, then not long after we arrived at my old homevillage. We are in my grandma's house."

"Wait, I heard that your family were hated here?" "W-what? How did you know?!" Natsumi covered her mouth with her hand. "Oh- um, my mother told me."

Shimai sighs again, she doesn't like this topic. It was all because of Shimai's little sister, Kirai. Kirai was possesed by an evil soul and killed herself infront of Shimai. Unbelievable, but true. The people in the village were terrified, they avoided The Shiawase Family because they thought the evil soul was still there and would posses other people too.

"Ah, I'm sorry– I didn't mean to–" "It's okay, it happened, and it's useless to mourn over the past. We should move to the future." "Hmm? You sound like an old grandma right now, trying to be wise like that." Natsumi smuged "YOU–"

"Lalalala~ I'm not going to hear old grandma's rant~" Natsumi covers her ears with her hands.

"NATSUMIIII—"

CHAPTER 3 END

HATSUMI'S NOTES :

Hii! Finally finished this chapter! I'm glad I had the motivation to finish it, lol. Also, the scene at the end is a reference to Owari No Seraph! I can't find a gif of it, and i'm too lazy to download a video from youtube, lol.

Honestly, Shimai and Natsumi's relationship was inspired by Mika and Yuu's. But this isn't romantic, and will never be.

Feel free to ask questions about my series.

See you in next chapter!

Have a nice day!

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I uploaded the chapter on the wrong blog 🥲🥲 I'm so sorry 😭🙏🏻

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Chapter 2 : You shouldn't be here

Shimai's pov

This village... looks familiar. Don't tell me- "Why do you look so stunned?" Natsumi brought me back to reality. "I'm not stunned, I'm terrified." This can't be- "Of what?"

"My mother once told me that a massacre was held in this village. She said it was done by a girl-" "A girl?" "Don't cut. She was a girl who turned into an evil being. She massacred her own clan."

"Why would she kill her own family? She's insane!" "My mother told me that it has something to do with The Goddess of Death." "Ah- Goddess of Death? Makes sense, I guess."

We saw a lot of bones of dead people, and you know what did Natsumi do? Yeah, she tried to walk into the village. I grabbed her wrist, preventing her from going further. "What are you thinking?! We can't go there. This village is filled by dead people bones. Do you want to sleep here or something?!"

"This place... feels familiar." "Huh?" "Very familiar. I feel like I've been here before." "Thats not possible, the massacre happened like 150 years ago. You might be-"

"Ah, are you two lost?" I was cut by someone's voice. We both froze and looked behind us slowly. We saw a woman, no, a girl. She looks like she's in her early 20s. I can't figure her appearance much because it's dark. But what I can see are her eyes, they are glowing red.

"This is an abandoned place, you shouldn't be here. What if a scary animal suddenly chase you? It's very dangerous." She is right, we shouldn't be here. But this wasn't our plan either. "I'm sorry, we just ran away from a family problem. My friend's sister tried to kill her."

I can't see her expression, but her voice says it all. She doesn't sound terrified. Instead, she sounds annoyed. "You think I care about that? You shouldn't be here. It's upleasant to see your face."

"W-what?" She points at Natsumi and a purple light suddenly appears from her hand. Oh no–

We both ran away from her into the forest again. We are running and running, as fast as we can. I can see the girl chasing us from behind. She's flying?! Is she a ghost or-

"AAAAAAA——"

"NATSUMI!"

I tried to push her away, but it was too late, Natsumi got attacked by the girl. She fell into the ground. Before I could reach her, I saw something– Ah– the light—

I dodged the purple light and fell onto the ground as a result. "Natsumi..." I tried to reach Natsumi's hand. When I managed to, she gripped my hand tightly. I'm glad she's stil conscious.

"Can you stand up? Hey–" She didn't answer, but she managed to stand up. We both can't see the girl anywhere. It seems that she's gone now. "Ugh... it hurts... my chest–" Natsumi is clutching her chest tightly, what should I do?? She looks like she's in a big pain.

"Natsumi?! Natsu-" She fell to the ground again. "Hey, hey?! Natsumi!!" I slapped her face to see if she's conscious. She's not responding, I'm starting to panic.

"Help... t-the pain is so-" She's still alive, thank God. I helped her to stand up and grab my shoulder. That should help her to keep standing.

We continued to walk, I can only hear the sounds of night animals and Natsumi's pained whimpers. Now I'm questioning myself, why did I bother helping her in the first place? Was I always like this?

Ah... it's because she's my first friend. The first person other than my family who cares of me.

CHAPTER 2 END

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HATSUMI'S NOTES :

Phew... it's longer than I expected. Anyway, can you guess the girl who attacked Natsumi? It's easy if you have watched my previous story on youtube.

I'm writing 2 chapters today, as a birthday gift for my pookie @newtonunkow !! Go wish him a happy birthday!!

Also, WRONG BLOG— I JUST REALIZED WHEN I EDITED THE DRAFT BUT IDC ANYMORE. I'M TOO LAZY TO EDIT THE TEXTS ALL OVER AGAIN—

Go read the first chapter, and the coming chapters on @shinsei-lore

See you next chapter!

Have a nice day!

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THE STORY OF A FETISH ————————————————— Chapter 1 : Run

Shimai's pov

We're running, running in the forest. No matter how tired we are, we keep running, searching for a safe place. I still can't believe we ran away. Why did it come to this?

We were preparing for dinner, and I went to the toilet. But after I exit, I saw an unexpected sight. Namitsu was trapping Natsumi on the floor, grabbing a knife. I wanted to call their parents, but Namitsu's knife was so close to Natsumi's neck. I pushed Namitsu and grabbed Natsumi. We ran away from the home.

We planned to call for help, but ended up running into a forest. We are lost now, great... My legs are sore, and Natsumi is panting, pleading to stop for a while. We decided to sit down below a tree.

"Hah, hah... Why does it feel like I can't breathe here?" Natsumi complained "Why did you ask me? Hah... I'm not a teacher!"

"I can't take it anymore, I feel like I'm gonna faint." She stood up and walked away. "Where are you going?" I asked, she was the one who wanted to rest, but now she's leaving, nice. But she had a point, I'm struggling to breathe under these trees.

Natsumi didn't answer my question, she's that tired, huh... I followed her, and we continued walking... and walking... I don't know where are we going, I just want to find a place where I can sleep, even if it's an abandoned house.

"Hey, Shimai. I can see a village there!" Natsumi runs. Wow, she still has some energy to run. I forced myself to run and Natsumi was right. Infront of us is a village. Wait, this looks-

CHAPTER 1 END