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and the Stars Still Shine the Same

I kinda thought someone would take my bullet point fic and run with it, but apparently not? I do have some of it written, it’s still pretty much bullet points, but I wouldn’t mind writing more. I don’t have time to set up an account on AO3 or some other place, so I’m just gonna post it here. 

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Y’know what, since I can’t get this idea out of my head, I may just end up writing this.

@ Star Trek fans, I have a question:

Where’s the fic where the AOS characters are reincarnated versions of their TOS characters? 

Give me the fic where Jim remembers a happy family and a loyal found family, family of blood and choice; the sound of echoing laughter; the feeling of wanting to grow old with these people he somehow knows; the feeling of sacrifice, of going closer into the unknown until he can’t go anymore. 

Where Spock remembers the feeling of quiet, fond emotion (of all things) when he looks upon people he only sees in distant memories when his human side gets the best of him and he needs to sleep, where he remembers the feeling of something so important lost and deep regret followed by resignation.

Where Leonard remembers exasperation over these stupid people that get hurt and try to walk it off and, dammit, he’s (wants to be, going to be, has been) a doctor, not–.

Where Nyota remembers having darker skin, curlier hair, a huskier voice and remembers singing alongside a stern man who let’s small parts of himself show and learns so many languages to replace the so many people she not-quite remembers.

Where Scotty remembers laughing and drinking smuggled (very, very, very old scotch that he was savin’ for–) and other assorted drinks with people despite being only 12. Where he remembers plain white quarters decorated with proud proof of his heritage.

Where Pavel Chekov remembers joking and being sarcastic with people whose language he doesn’t know yet, but he will and he will learn all that he can until he reaches those people. 

Where Sulu remembers laughing jauntily and swinging a sword exaggeratedly (sometimes with a manic smile as people ran) as people laughed and teased. Of being roped into others’ mission and shaking his head bemusedly at…someone. (That’s your best friend, why don’t you remember?)

The crew of the Enterprise remember each other, their mission, their friendships, their lives, but they don’t at the same time and it hurts.

Nyota will be drinking and trying to reign in and pull out her memories when a blonde will lean against the counter and smile charmingly. Jim will make a quip about a fair maiden, and she will reply “Sorry, neither.” while making her voice raspier. The two will pause, look at each other and compare while trying to find words that don’t fit this world, this life, before Jim (her captain and friend) will be shoved away. Jim will try to calm the cadet down before the fight starts (just like so many other missions) and the two old (strangers) friends will be pushed away.

Jim will meet Leonard and the older man will make a quip about bones, hoping (c’mon, J—–boy, remember, don’t leave me again) and Jim will look at his now-dark eyes and call him by the name he calls his blue-eyed best friend in his not-dreams-not-memories. (”Bones.” “Dammit, Jim.”) They end up rooming together and start trying to find the others as their memories come closer.

Spock finds the bridge of the Enterprise (not his or his t’hy–, his captain’s) duller than he (remembers) expected, but he is glad to be (back) there even if this is not his captain or his crew. Spock sometimes finds himself feeling older and more tired and drenched in grief that doesn’t belong to him. He will see Nyota in his class and when she comes in early one day, he will be playing a song on his harp that he had brought on an illogical whim that would please his mother and the woman will join in with high notes that don’t match her younger, slimer, taller body.

Jim will find Nyota and then Bones, then he will find them in his and Bones’ dorm later, Nyota will then drag Spock in, and he and Jim will look at each other and relief will hit both of them and (their) a (t’hy’la) bond will open between them, and the four’s memories will clear even more. They will stay up late, but they won’t care because they found each other, and they need to find the rest of their family-crew.

Hikaru will bump into Pavel, and they will snark at each other and Pavel will say that “This was invented–” and Hikaru will finish with him “in Mother Russia.” The two will  pause and Hikaru will comment on Pavel’s new hair and age while the Russian snarks back and calls him old. Bones will find the newly reunited friends in his med bay after Hikaru got hurt practicing for a fencing competition and will immediately drag him into the newly named “family reunion.”

They will not find Scotty in time. He will be trying to (re-)invent warping technology and he will fail. He gets (exiled) moved to an outpost that is drab and gray and he will mourn his very, very, very old scotch and his proudly decorated room.

When Nero attacks, the crew will be ready, and they will fall into old and familiar habits and bonds. Jim will go and find Scotty and it will be like old times when he risked his life (stupidly, according to Bones) to save his crew. (Spock never made it through the opening with the Narada, he died with the thought of his t’hy’la and husband and crew and family and friends on his mind and not-quite-almost woke up younger and with a cloudy mind.) They will be reunited, the crew of the Enterprise.

On the journey home, others remember (Chapel, Reed, and so many others) and those who wake up will change.

Jim’s hair will lighten and curl slightly and his skin will tan; Spock’s face will grow sterner and green will flush his face; Bones’ eyes will become blue though he still (gratefully) retains his younger body; Nyota’s skin will darken and her hair will curl more than her captain’s, slowly her voice will grow raspier though not as much as it had been; Scotty’s hair will darken and his accent will thin in some places and thicken is others; Pavel’s hair will follow Scotty’s and grow straighter and he will appear older (much to his relief, he was growing tired of his baby face); Hikaru’s face will become more square and he will gain even more fencing callouses.

The Enterprise will return to Earth, and they will be questioned, and they will try to explain. This is not where the story ends, though; the Enterprise and her crew belong in the stars, TO the stars. They fought to find each other and they will fight more if needed.

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@ Star Trek fans, I have a question:

Where’s the fic where the AOS characters are reincarnated versions of their TOS characters? 

Give me the fic where Jim remembers a happy family and a loyal found family, family of blood and choice; the sound of echoing laughter; the feeling of wanting to grow old with these people he somehow knows; the feeling of sacrifice, of going closer into the unknown until he can’t go anymore. 

Where Spock remembers the feeling of quiet, fond emotion (of all things) when he looks upon people he only sees in distant memories when his human side gets the best of him and he needs to sleep, where he remembers the feeling of something so important lost and deep regret followed by resignation.

Where Leonard remembers exasperation over these stupid people that get hurt and try to walk it off and, dammit, he’s (wants to be, going to be, has been) a doctor, not--.

Where Nyota remembers having darker skin, curlier hair, a huskier voice and remembers singing alongside a stern man who let’s small parts of himself show and learns so many languages to replace the so many people she not-quite remembers.

Where Scotty remembers laughing and drinking smuggled (very, very, very old scotch that he was savin’ for--) and other assorted drinks with people despite being only 12. Where he remembers plain white quarters decorated with proud proof of his heritage.

Where Pavel Chekov remembers joking and being sarcastic with people whose language he doesn’t know yet, but he will and he will learn all that he can until he reaches those people. 

Where Sulu remembers laughing jauntily and swinging a sword exaggeratedly (sometimes with a manic smile as people ran) as people laughed and teased. Of being roped into others’ mission and shaking his head bemusedly at...someone. (That’s your best friend, why don’t you remember?)

The crew of the Enterprise remember each other, their mission, their friendships, their lives, but they don’t at the same time and it hurts.

Nyota will be drinking and trying to reign in and pull out her memories when a blonde will lean against the counter and smile charmingly. Jim will make a quip about a fair maiden, and she will reply “Sorry, neither.” while making her voice raspier. The two will pause, look at each other and compare while trying to find words that don’t fit this world, this life, before Jim (her captain and friend) will be shoved away. Jim will try to calm the cadet down before the fight starts (just like so many other missions) and the two old (strangers) friends will be pushed away.

Jim will meet Leonard and the older man will make a quip about bones, hoping (c’mon, J-----boy, remember, don’t leave me again) and Jim will look at his now-dark eyes and call him by the name he calls his blue-eyed best friend in his not-dreams-not-memories. (”Bones.” “Dammit, Jim.”) They end up rooming together and start trying to find the others as their memories come closer.

Spock finds the bridge of the Enterprise (not his or his t’hy--, his captain’s) duller than he (remembers) expected, but he is glad to be (back) there even if this is not his captain or his crew. Spock sometimes finds himself feeling older and more tired and drenched in grief that doesn’t belong to him. He will see Nyota in his class and when she comes in early one day, he will be playing a song on his harp that he had brought on an illogical whim that would please his mother and the woman will join in with high notes that don’t match her younger, slimer, taller body.

Jim will find Nyota and then Bones, then he will find them in his and Bones’ dorm later, Nyota will then drag Spock in, and he and Jim will look at each other and relief will hit both of them and (their) a (t’hy’la) bond will open between them, and the four’s memories will clear even more. They will stay up late, but they won’t care because they found each other, and they need to find the rest of their family-crew.

Hikaru will bump into Pavel, and they will snark at each other and Pavel will say that “This was invented--” and Hikaru will finish with him “in Mother Russia.” The two will  pause and Hikaru will comment on Pavel’s new hair and age while the Russian snarks back and calls him old. Bones will find the newly reunited friends in his med bay after Hikaru got hurt practicing for a fencing competition and will immediately drag him into the newly named “family reunion.”

They will not find Scotty in time. He will be trying to (re-)invent warping technology and he will fail. He gets (exiled) moved to an outpost that is drab and gray and he will mourn his very, very, very old scotch and his proudly decorated room.

When Nero attacks, the crew will be ready, and they will fall into old and familiar habits and bonds. Jim will go and find Scotty and it will be like old times when he risked his life (stupidly, according to Bones) to save his crew. (Spock never made it through the opening with the Narada, he died with the thought of his t’hy’la and husband and crew and family and friends on his mind and not-quite-almost woke up younger and with a cloudy mind.) They will be reunited, the crew of the Enterprise.

On the journey home, others remember (Chapel, Reed, and so many others) and those who wake up will change.

Jim’s hair will lighten and curl slightly and his skin will tan; Spock’s face will grow sterner and green will flush his face; Bones’ eyes will become blue though he still (gratefully) retains his younger body; Nyota’s skin will darken and her hair will curl more than her captain’s, slowly her voice will grow raspier though not as much as it had been; Scotty’s hair will darken and his accent will thin in some places and thicken is others; Pavel’s hair will follow Scotty’s and grow straighter and he will appear older (much to his relief, he was growing tired of his baby face); Hikaru’s face will become more square and he will gain even more fencing callouses.

The Enterprise will return to Earth, and they will be questioned, and they will try to explain. This is not where the story ends, though; the Enterprise and her crew belong in the stars, TO the stars. They fought to find each other and they will fight more if needed.

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I randomly remembered this post about how bitch and bastard referred to gender and that a gender-neutral word was bitchard. Anyway, here’s my non-gendered greeting for people:

“Good morning bitchards and asshats.”

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One of these days I will fade, and my body will be buried, but the stars will sing through my bones and my soul will live in the river. Forever will I be shrouded in mist and flowers and constellations.

Claret Nova Wicket