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5 Years on MFC

I can’t believe it has been 5 years of camming. I still remember the first day I signed onto MFC. I had absolutely no idea that cam could become the amazing thing it has for me. I did not expect that I would be camming for this long but I am so thankful I made this decision 5 years ago.

I was 21 years old and a university student working my 6th year of a horrible retail job when I decided to delve into the camming world. I look back and see what a naive young girl I was (still am in some ways) and so proud I made the decision to fight against the stigma of entering into a job in this industry. Honestly, I don’t think I expected it to become my job.

I had no idea what camming even was until a live jasmin ad popped up when I was watching porn one day. I remember thinking “who is this girl? what is she doing? can she see me?”. From there I was just curious and started googling. Found out what a camgirl was and somehow found my way to MyFreeCams where I spent a few months watching girls like Aspen Rae and Ginny Potter.

I can’t quite remember the moment I decided to make the jump to actually broadcast but I do remember the day I started. Even with all my “research” I still started camming in a way that I think now was the wrong way for me. I thought I had to be a constant sexual being. I thought members only came to camsites to see girls masturbate. I really was clueless to the fact that members may come to a camsite for that reason...but they stay for another.

Members stay in a girls room and tip because something about her is entertaining. So yes, watching me strip and masturbate could be entertaining...sure. What I learned over my first 6 months on MFC was that I could be myself. I could hang out and chat, joke around, play my favorite music. Members stayed and tipped for more than a sexual experience. I was finding that cam was whatever I wanted it to be.

The moment this hit me was when a member took me private one day. He did not want me to get naked or do a cumshow for him. He just wanted to tell me about his life. He just wanted to talk to me. So for 4 hours I let him. Though that time felt slightly of a therapy session and I in no way have the credentials to help someone through their life problems, that was the time it clicked that camming didn’t have to be a completely sexual time.

You guys started showing up and tipping for what felt like me being me. In the end I feel all tokens showed me appreciation for the entertainment and any joy I brought to anyone who has spent hour after hour in my room and kindly tipped for it.

Cam is a fickle thing. A roller coaster. So inconsistent I never know what to expect. I have cried on cam because of happiness, sadness, anger...but I have also laughed, danced, told stories, met amazing people. I still don’t think I understand this world at all. The longer I am in it...the more confusing it becomes.

Most important: it has let me live the life I want.

Today I am the happiest I have ever been and I believe I owe that to all you who have made camming possible.

I have gained so much confidence and become such a strong independent assertive woman. Cam did this. You guys did this.

I don’t know how much longer I will be able to cam. I don’t have any plans to stop but I do know I can’t do this forever so I will continue to appreciate it while I can.

On to year 6 :)

Thank you.

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