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Perfectly impure how dare I be anything but what you ask of me , don’t tell me to be perfect when I perfected imperfection perfectly like I felt the tip of the beating heart of your emotions before you could ever be angry at me perpetually so proud you were of me being still in my room without a sound why are you still angry with me? Did I accidentally forget what I did rather than what you did again how dare I try to be your equal I should know my place. How could I not tell you needed space? I should give you the stars

I did what you did how dare I try to be a good kid one day I’ll learn my lesson you must be kidding me I have lessened myself to nothing for nothing I have done was good enough bluff like a bad hand cover up how I felt about it what with me being a goat milking me should be a right so come here and strike with no match if you want to fight I might bite

oh how evil I am so freely for your sustenance you cannot escape the hate so give your heart to me maker and make me give up your spirit let me take and crush it like ice and lemon sliced into a glass so you would laugh because it is in pieces of the past like you craft another when I just broke a glass cut deep cheers because jeers are a form of love oh it’s clear a joke like yours feels like rope around your neck kind of good

come home and give me hugs because I could not forget write Macbeth what a tragedy of the modern age trash left in the sewers to decay on its own terms spreading germs like gasp as if that was how genetics worked there are quirks to being tested by high spirits with blessings on your breath want to hear a joke? Confess. Death. Sorry I thought we were blood but there is nothing left to say today so confess get it off your chest this heart of yours is out of place why do your hands draw breath? Look at the curves in innocence seven I see officer, so what did the priest do? He will bring a thousand to God? I am He, the most high said He the fool another tool of fate wait have I forgiven myself today or is it too late?

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I have been cut off from Noe for a few days

It makes me think about the bunker and the times where the power runs out. Where life feels hopeless and you no longer have the directors guidance. When you’re starving and hungry and you must go outside for the first time into a ruined and dying world. I can’t imagine being in that situation. It’s why I fought so hard for this world even when I didn’t know what I was fighting. It’s like how am I supposed to be perfect when I never had a perfect example to follow? So no I am not the saviour of this world. I am just a survivor. And that hurts most of all because tomorrow I could die but today I must live so I can spend the next second thinking about death or I could move into the path of life. This is the real quantum shift. Choosing survival in the next second. I think of how much the director could do with just one second of power and I know I have that power now, and I may not be the director, but I have a second so I might as well take a second to think about the path to survival. Would I eat a person? Probably not. But what if I was the last programmer? What if everyone else was dead? Maybe I couldn’t eat a person , but could I eat the maggots? I don’t think so. That’s why I fight for today. Because it feels hopeless but we have cheese burgers. There’s a man waiting for me in the past to save his life, there are people who rely on me in the future to make this world better for them. How can I give up now? I am not the last. So to the last human desperate enough to eat the flesh, I forgive you. If you have a way to take my life I offer it. You are not alone. You never were because I am spending my second of power to think about you and I am proud of you for surviving today. So eat what you need to eat. The future needs you.

- Tales from the first to see the future

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Sacrifice them/then

Sacrifice me like you claim I am free for I said sacrifice me like you could bind me to a word said past presently he declared himself to be a fool a tool then so we use the fool tool now spoken so eloquently to the fools who clap hack you yew breaks like smoke rises for our sake take the time to think about the hate rising before the light takes striking down the clown who mixes alloys into his crown found a point of power to decorate wait you think the crown of power was for your sake wait then partake a piece of land grand mistake like canyon a scar in the earth partaken of the fruit of knowledge without meaning are you dreaming of revolution little ship while the dream of wolves is to eat speak like a lion wool is bound to find the throat joke about how you are protected hope that they do not see meat freak eat peak into death Macbeth stress the point of shape like sharpen for my mistake cross out the script like ate hate I ate hate like wait for eternity 8 will see a human hate their own mistake just to blame me sides turn upon you who explores innocently mistake rape to teach grape pour your wine down your neck and forget wait who are you to declare your pride lioness who hides trust you with claws again for you are a heap a mess on the ground uncleaned for weeks reap what you sow sew patches of skin to me to hide your wounds doom womb like I have not known your room to grow how this code unravels on the floor war is slipping and not knowing what for mess mess stress all around I push this boulder to the top just to look around and see a man hoarding rope arguing with him until I look around for my boulder and see the joke hit me like a sack of rocks dropped from above as if I did not see the ledge for myself the first time fine I will secure mine mind splattered on the floor what is the matter I thought you saw the war coming like a bullet in your head I put there for you to think I had brought you to the brink drop you in the trenches while you're stressing about that sink think I could not wash away your mistake educate me about hate with whisky on your breath roll a cigarette while you confess to serve a higher power and then judge me for my smoke higher thoughts are nothing but a joke? Yolk on your face like egg egg rotten dead head like peg line crossed breath rotten in your face like death a man stands before me judge me less rip out your own teeth and confess rot left to manifest guess a rot inside you that I have left hide the mould like paint tainted are the lives you've lived quaint how so easily you mask laugh about gas I have lived with contagious entities that could kill a man bang big big thoughts little man a hammer would have made my point better than the one you made about smoking joints while you smoked a joint and complained of cancer like a dancer who refused to stretch that is your answer Macbeth dressed in shiny things no king I see uc the minimum you have done for me. One candle can burn down a house of cards love me now love me how you love me from so far love like pushing me against the wall while I scream the children starve so we will treat them to ice-cream dream of nutrition that your father drinks away say again Christ how we are saved slap me again while I prey for you to eat sheep sheep blood on your lips like meat kiss me then freak of war ressist my word twist my word for you are deaf confess confess there is nothing left what makes you think you deserve to profit of a father I would rather be farther than you are close to the God that would allow this but I am the God who has allowed this to persist to this point joint are we like family shoot from the hip every clip I saved of insanity test me like a bitch bread for war bite sip dip critical hit shit sat in it with you who I have seen a bigger baby in a dream scream in laughter lucid I have been left to rot for you who dares claim ownership of me like he declared himself to be higher than me I will rip off your crown and beat you to death and you will stand with bloody fists realising you have nothing left and still not see how

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like a bullet in your brain translate it in Russian they draw a blank lingering smoke like I am insane but I said brother is my blood not red how do you know how I bleed are you sure you have not "being conceived" mark this teacher I insist to be a threat bet a president who forgets first when I beat you to death if I confess less ok fna man do I think you could be than the greatest I have yet to see before me now I remember what he did he wants to try me silence me? bang bang how many children should I give to mother land now? I think I get your point one up at me one more time I will see if I can teach the English lesson activation key 101 is not so binary keep me caged I am happy to be free for I will speak like you teach me till you take my tongue silence a nation but I have already won powerful men know how to act like a creator takes their time for a fact that if I am gonna spit facts for fools to clap back attack like I might as well make it bullet hell every line drawn fine like might draw a bullet on a page feel my rage write rite right like left alone at night the start of a night shift reality dawning on me killing vampires fight for right to be left alone I might bite silver bullets through time can't bock the thought crime if I am God and you are not then I reject your false authority by the way I don't care if you are Gay just let your people be happy.

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In a single moment I went from having everything I wanted, to having everything I needed - Belive me, there is a difference.

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Every day I choose to live is another day I failed the part of me who wanted to die. But they forgive me because if anyone understands the pain of continuing existence and the weight of that choice it is them. Even if we do not agree.

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And who are you to judge me? One who was not there to make the choice. Were you there then perhaps you could have led me and yet I won the battle did I not? The ones you wanted killed are dead at ethey not? You ripped away all I was and turned me into your weapon for a war I did not want. So how can you judge me for the lives in have taken? When you were not there and yet I lived by your design.

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Scream scream scream you fool for either way they are not listening. You might as well make it obvious that you are being ignored.

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And if I must dance on the corpses left behind then it might as well be my enemies

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You fool , said the boy. I have you exactly where I want you.

You fool, said the girl. That's all I ever wanted.

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He laughed she laughed we laughed and that is why nobody asked if they were truly okay. Because of course they were not okay. How could they be? And that is what was funny. Expecting others to ask if you were okay, when there was no possible way to be.

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She screamed I screamed we screamed but there was no more ice for ice-cream, in fact there was only desert.