siroliverphillips

[siroliverphillips]

"You never get it wrong and you never get it done." - Esther Hicks

[siroliverphillips]

The Rabbit Hole

Synchronicity is a subject that has been most tantalizing for me in recent years. My journey into the mechanics of what I consider to be an intentional reality started about four years ago. I was going through a major shift in my energy. It took some time, but I realized that at twenty-seven years old I was experiencing the emergence of my first Saturn Return. Anyone who is familiar with the astrological event knows how jarring it can. MY SHIT WAS ROCKED right off its access. I was insecure; I gained weight; I developed irrational fears; I abandoned dreams; I lost touch with my authentic emotions. It was the most violent experience I've ever had in my life.

But I lived through it and made it to the other side.

It was a difficult task, and I still am learning how to fully assess the many experiences I had during that time which at thirty years old today, I can say have finally concluded their cycle. One of the many things that became important in my journey was inspiration. I was grappling between an anxious urge to do what I thought should be done and a soft desire to do what felt like fun. And I don't mean fun in the general sense. I speak of fun in the spiritual aspect. My spirit is delighted by experiences that leave me feeling charged and energized. No amount of productivity at work could bring me that sense of satisfaction that came from sitting down to write a novel or completing a painting tutorial on YouTube. Even something as simple as taking a bath became a restorative hobby that would clear my cluttered being in a way, I didn't think possible.

This all was the result of synchronicity. In the face of adversity, I realized that bliss and fulfillment lie in the flow of the water, not against it's current. This was a very difficult concept for me to grasp. Make no mistake, this knowing is the result of a dark night of my soul that spanned the course of four years. Synchronicty lead me out of a dead-end job and into an activating one. Synchronicity lead me from one project to a random book in Barnes and Noble I had heard of in passing but never considered. Synchronicity lead me to the money I always needed when I needed it precisely. And it would be three years before the weight of its influence on my life would become clear to me.

I will explore this complex subject at length along with many others as I flow down this river of insight. My knowledge is an amalgam of years of tedious, private study into esoteric subjects. I would describe myself as a spiritual scientist with a passion for field study. There's nothing I have studied or learned that did not come from firsthand experimentation. It is my hope that as I journey into the depths of my own human experience that those of you who find my words relatable will find some relief in your own lives.

My favorite quote comes from a teacher I found towards the end of my Saturn Return, Abraham Hicks. This collective consciousness is one my favorite guides to arrive in my life in recent years and her words have become the cornerstone for the next phase of my life I am entering.

"You can never get it wrong, and you can never get it done."

And so, we begin.