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The holy trifecta

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I miss new york so much . I don't fit in at my school here . I miss going out with my friends , I miss going to the park after school and eating with my friends and going to the bodega . I hate how racist people are here and they can get away with it . Can't even talk to my mom or cousins in japanese without a classmate saying " Talking Chinese again " , " Communist " , I hate them so much . I can't even walk to class without a group of popular girls giggling at me for how I dress . There's so little asian people at my school . I hate it , I don't fit in , I wanna be back in the city where I belong

Licca, i can understand where youre coming from. As you know, I also experienced racism and difference in the south.

Its incredibly hard and its not enough to say, "Everything will be okay." Because being there simply hurts you.

Honestly, what i can say to help is, dont let go of your hometown memories and stay with people who care. I know you should get used to new things, but sticking with what you know and love really helps. People suck everywhere, especially ignorant people who have NEVER traveled outside of their small town or even attempt to be open minded.

I hope you'll be able to grow a comfort with some places there. Dont push yourself and honestly, if you hate it, YOU CAN HATE BEING THERE WITH NO GUILT OR DOUBT. ITS GENUINELY UNBEARABLE. New York might be bustling with many other bad things just like in the south, but at least you built things you honestly loved there.

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Mommy issues this, daddy issues that

Have you ever had grandparent issues?

Yeah well they never liked me so 😁

I WAS ONLY A CHILD HOW COULD YOU TREAT ME AS IF ME AND MY SIBLINGS WERE LESSER.

We did nothing wrong. We only did what was necessary to fit into America as Hmong children. Why didn't they love me? Protect me?

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Ahhh ty Licca for your kind words as always. You always know what to say to cheer me up ^^

A suit? Just for me??? Well then let me take you out to eat as compensation. Chillis or some city restaurant, im down!

Sometimes i feel like my mom doesnt accept me being transgender.

I asked her to get a hair cut because I was genderfluid, and she was okay with that. Before i told her, when I showed her haircuts i wanted she said that i would look too much like a boy with a disgusted face.

That was okay I guess now that she doesn't mind me wanting to cut my hair masculine, but last month my cultural club held a formal and I wanted to wear a suit. She had insisted I wear a dress and heels, to which i said i didn't want to. When she asked why, I said because I'd rather not. I didn't wanna state again that I'm transgender again because I felt like things were already getting tense, and I didn't want to potentially fight with my mom. (I haven't got it yet bc of money and location issues)

Deep down inside, I think she still wants to hold onto the little girl she used to have. She always tells us on how she misses me and my siblings when we were small and although she never says it, she never appreciates us now. If I fully looked and acted like a boy, I think she would feel like she's truly lost me.

Not to mention my slipping grades and habits at home because of my mental health I never tell her of. She already know i used to self harm, but she just ignores that and treats me as if it never happened.

When we were at the mall looking for dresses I didnt want to wear, I had said no to many of the dresses because a lot were revealing or too modest. Besides, the tightness of each dress would show my feminine figure. I had stressed i wanted to wear a suit all throughout the trip, and she finally caved in but with annoyance. I was happy, but when I went to scan through suits, she had stayed sour. So I gave up to salvage out relationship in that moment. I got a dress last minute that I was mostly okay with.

Not that i hated the dress so much, I actually liked wearing it at formal, but i definitely gaslit myself into wearing it in the first place.

In the changing room I thought, "If I wear this, she will be happy again and we won't have to fight. I should... celebrate my femininity." Yes i should still accept my feminine part of my genderfluid self, but in that moment it wasn't for myself. It was to please my mother.

Next time, I hope I can have the courage to say no and explain to her that I'm a boy too. I want to wear what makes me feel like me.

I just don't want to be this person I was so long ago. I still look like her. I still need to reinvent myself. I need to be able to look at myself in the mirror and see a boy.

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Sometimes i feel like my mom doesnt accept me being transgender.

I asked her to get a hair cut because I was genderfluid, and she was okay with that. Before i told her, when I showed her haircuts i wanted she said that i would look too much like a boy with a disgusted face.

That was okay I guess now that she doesn't mind me wanting to cut my hair masculine, but last month my cultural club held a formal and I wanted to wear a suit. She had insisted I wear a dress and heels, to which i said i didn't want to. When she asked why, I said because I'd rather not. I didn't wanna state again that I'm transgender again because I felt like things were already getting tense, and I didn't want to potentially fight with my mom. (I haven't got it yet bc of money and location issues)

Deep down inside, I think she still wants to hold onto the little girl she used to have. She always tells us on how she misses me and my siblings when we were small and although she never says it, she never appreciates us now. If I fully looked and acted like a boy, I think she would feel like she's truly lost me.

Not to mention my slipping grades and habits at home because of my mental health I never tell her of. She already know i used to self harm, but she just ignores that and treats me as if it never happened.

When we were at the mall looking for dresses I didnt want to wear, I had said no to many of the dresses because a lot were revealing or too modest. Besides, the tightness of each dress would show my feminine figure. I had stressed i wanted to wear a suit all throughout the trip, and she finally caved in but with annoyance. I was happy, but when I went to scan through suits, she had stayed sour. So I gave up to salvage out relationship in that moment. I got a dress last minute that I was mostly okay with.

Not that i hated the dress so much, I actually liked wearing it at formal, but i definitely gaslit myself into wearing it in the first place.

In the changing room I thought, "If I wear this, she will be happy again and we won't have to fight. I should... celebrate my femininity." Yes i should still accept my feminine part of my genderfluid self, but in that moment it wasn't for myself. It was to please my mother.

Next time, I hope I can have the courage to say no and explain to her that I'm a boy too. I want to wear what makes me feel like me.

I just don't want to be this person I was so long ago. I still look like her. I still need to reinvent myself. I need to be able to look at myself in the mirror and see a boy.

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HOLY SHIT TUYU'S SINGER IS SINGING FOR TOKYO REVENGERS OP/ED??? HELP I LOVE THEM SM

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I literally cant fucking stand men.

I legit have a fear and irritation for men.

I hate it when they groan and when they speak. I hate it when they are near me. I hate their loud fucking voices and their deep tones.

I hate them so much I can't fucking take it.

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Oh so you think I know Hmong 😦

Nyob zoo (Hello)

Okay that's it. Idk how to spell anything else.

If I could VOICE RECORD ON HERE THAT WOULD BE GREAT.

Anyway Cupid, GO RIGHT AHEAD. I WOULD LOVE TO SEE U SPEAK JAPANESE AND SPANISH 😍

Speak Your Language Day

BRINGING BACK THE DAY OF LANGUAGES!!!

This year's 7th of May 2023 we use our own language again!

A few basic rules (this is very much copied from the original UYLD creators):

If your language is something other than English, on May 7th you can speak that language all day!

Speak whatever language feels good for you! Any and all!!

You’ll blog in your language all day: text posts, replies, tags (except triggers and organizational tags), the whole nine yards. Regardless of what language people choose to speak to you, you answer in your own.

Midnight to midnight according to your own time zone

English native speakers, if you wanna participate you can practice a second language you’re learning

The tag is gonna be #Speak Your Language Day or #spyld

Non-verbal, non-written languages (like ASl, dialects, otherwise non-written languages) are more than welcome!

Tag me in any and all non english posts! Or submit to your liking!

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AWWWHWHHEEHHEHEHE TYSM CUPID. I LOVE UR OCS TOO!!!

And yes I am fully aware you are FREAKY for Jayce 😭 /pos

Noooo I feel that my ocs are inferior to others design wise ~_~

I love the boys, but when I look at how pretty and well developed other ocs are, I just freeze up and dissipate 😙🔫

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Fr. I can feel myself disassociating in math.n

Middle school grades arent even important. Just understand what ur doing and I will be okay. No need to try so hard.

BUT HIGHSCHOOL AFTER THE PANDEMIC IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Legit cannot be motivated to do any homework at home.

I love it when my mom gets on my ass for school

"Why do you have so many missing assignments?"

Maybe bc im trying to keep up in my 5 other classes and im stressed out of my mind. When i get home i wanna chill out.

I hate it. I hate it.

3 D's and 2 C's. Honestly i could be failing like last semester but noooo Im actually doing alright. And she wants to scream at me.

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HAHA NVM IM NOT SAD ANYMORE

UP AND OVER MY 1 HOUR EPISODE

Stardew Valley, Shane my love 💕 as long as i fixate in this old man, I'll be ok.

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I love it when my mom gets on my ass for school

"Why do you have so many missing assignments?"

Maybe bc im trying to keep up in my 5 other classes and im stressed out of my mind. When i get home i wanna chill out.

I hate it. I hate it.

3 D's and 2 C's. Honestly i could be failing like last semester but noooo Im actually doing alright. And she wants to scream at me.

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Noooo I feel that my ocs are inferior to others design wise ~_~

I love the boys, but when I look at how pretty and well developed other ocs are, I just freeze up and dissipate 😙🔫

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AHHHHAHAHAH HAPPY EARLY VALENTINES DAY!!!

Cupid... Chae yul is my weakness..

IT LOOKS SO GOOD TYSM U ALWAYS ARE THE BEST. DOING GODS WORK OUT HERE 🙏🙏🙏

@sk3tch404 @trauma-and-mother-issue Happy Early Valentines Day post ! I drew us as famous yanderes with Kurumi being Kotonoha from school days , and Nana as Chae Yul . ! And I went for Yuri Gasai

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I hate the smut writers here on tumbler who use teachers pet by Melanie Martinez for there fucking smut . What’s so romantic about getting groomed by your own teacher . Can people stop sexualizing my damn trauma !

OMG UR SO RIGHT I HATE IT TOO

Like did they not see the music video? Did they even look at the lyrics? Its so obviously about grooming and predatory behavior and not smth like cheating behind someone's back.

It really makes me sick to see people misuse songs like this in a nasty manner.

Some smut writers are just straight up freaks of nature and not in the good way.

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When your brother tries to emotionally manipulate you again and again but you always see through it 🙏

Him telling me what to do and subtly threatening me with consequences don't scare me tf?!

The day I expose him is the day I'll die happy 😍

I cant wait until he moves out of the house.

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Yep. They "cant pick sides" (even when the person Im having issues with is seriously in the wrong)

AND they ditch you/cant put work into yalls relationship bc they're stop busy or tired to talk bc they're talking to others 24/7.

I hate people who "want to be friends with everybody".

Fuck y'all are some of the fakest bitches