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Update : 54.4kg /170cm

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I feel like my scale is lying to me 🫠

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What's thw point of living if I cant be pretty and smart

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Crying on an empty corner -

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Control

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Hi guys

I've been on a binge episodes again real bad .

People don't understand when I say I feel the fatt around my body I feel every inch of my body getting bigger and bigger each day goes by it feels like I'm drowning in water for too long and I'm aware , I cant move but I feel the pain in my mind ...

-struggling-

I want to fucking lose the frick fat fuck pls help

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ED morning routine :

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Love it

ok but its funny

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IF U R A FAT BITCH WHO HAD ED AND BECAME A THIN SKINNY SLAY QUEEN DM ME I NEED UR COMPLETE GUIDANCE TOWARDS MY WL JOURNEY UR HIGHNESS!!!!!

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HI I'm CHAE ♡

18+ she/her 111

(*･ω･)(*･ω･)(*･ω･)(*･ω･)(*･ω･)(*･ω･)(*･ω･)

I haven't been diagnosed with any type of disorders or anything but I know i do struggle with some stuff which doesn't show in my appearance . I was always the fat hippo everywhere .since I'm tall and fat I was so much insecure and I hated how I felt ugly everywhere I go n I would always compare myself with any of the people around me .it got kinda deep like 2 years ago and I started trying to lose weight in a unhealthy way smh there was so many binge episodes in my story and its still as it was on and on time to time I do binge .I'm not consistence but I'm trying my best to reach my ugw before my bday(Nov 30) which 4 months left .

I was a light šh when I discovered about it I tried doing it sometime to cure my sadness and stress also some issues I had which left me feel better . I stopped it some months ago which im glad cuz I feel like I'm doing so much better now .

My stats are ,☆ミ

Hw-70kg

Cw-55.5kg

Gw1-52kg

Gw2-50kg

Gw3-48kg

Gw3-46kg

Ugw-44kg

I'm 5'7 /168cm tall

♡Feel free to interact with me and talk with me about your struggles /thoughts(I'm a good listner)

Just because I lost some type of weight I mentally feel like I was still the same person at my Hw . Eventhought ik reaching my gw will make me sick or rip I'm educated on that and I know what am I doing ...

I'm standing up for people who chose recovery and trying to recover .YOU R AN ABSOLUTE SLAY POP!

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I saw how people changed their perspective on me when I lose the weight they were more focused and I'm telling u the quote im living up with "Nothing tastes good as skinny feels"

I like couqutte style/old japanese styles eventhough my wardrobe malfunction isn't it.

I listen to many type of music and I love rap (central cee ●♡O_O) I'm a silly little introvert acting like a extrovert but I can be clumsy and funny around people I can be open upto .I hate when people make jokes on others and look down on others .

I love rain ,being alone ,lofi and sleeping sm..

Ty ❤️

Yours,

Chaë

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WHO ATE LIKE A FATTY PATTY PIG BIG HINGRY HIPPO TODAY

Me💩

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Ummm yeah I'm sitting at the corner of my table looking at my family eating food and I bought a new sauce(shiracha) ,I don't want to taste it cuz the ed is hitting me like a brick .I deserve to be skinny .and I hate how they r trying to provoke me to get my throat down on that big fatty fat fat fat fuck meals ,I see the oils dripping down and it reminds me of how big of a fat fuck I am 🥰it's crazy Why THE FRICK FRUCKEDY FRUCK ARENT I SKINNY I SHOULDVE BEEN -45KG IF I PUT MORE EFFORT I'm JUST GONN BE A BIG PIGGY PIG BACK 4REVER 👨

12.00am and I ate 🤡

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Guys I'm starting a diet I failed miserably and I'm not losing weight gladly not gaining hugely either but I gotta get to my first gw1 which is 50kg this month .[rn I'm 55kg/after dinner lol]

Help me smo moots?????

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OUUUUUU I BOUGHT A NEW SCALEEEEEE 😍MWAHHIHIHIHUHI

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I think I fucked it up .someone got my laptop yesterday and my tumblr tabs were open and also the bmi cal saying my height and ugw 😭and Ed ed ed ed ed ed stuffsssss.pls noooo gawddddd .I asked my mom about it she's acting clueless ik she's hiding smt

Holy shumble thank god 🙌!!!I asked my dad he said he couldn't open it .😭

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Few more months of suffering and i can get the b0dy i dreamt of my whole entire life and go back to eating my maintenance c4lories.

few. more. months

I couldve already been sk11ny a month ago, two months ago, five months ago, a year ago, two years ago, five years ago. Why give up now? Time WILL pass regardless. Just be patient.

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Who do you hate most?

Oh ....

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Myself. I always wondered why didn't I get the attention all the other girls got .everyone had their boyfrnds and a good life or I saw so .but I always went behind the screen it's like I never existed like a soul wondering around a empty page .I wanted to change it .I tried losing weight ,I started begging my parents for braces ,I cut my hair ,starved and starved .months went on and on but I'm still there wondering on that empty page .oh yh I get jelous over those pretty girls I always admired them being flawlessly pretty, pretty body .they didn't had to change or chase they were just there and everyone liked them. I wanted it so bad that I got so disgusted with myself .I hated everything about me I felt like I need to crawl out of my skin peel it off and slice it down .People just came and played with me like a little toy I knew it but atleast I got some attention I wanted. It went away and I'm stuck in this zipped up suit as before that fat girl ,pigtails,ew you peice of shit some said .where did it go wrong ?oh yh maybe I need to rip this page and go to the next one .so I burned the page and walked to the next page but. it was also a blank space filled with darkness. maybe I should start writing something on it don't I?

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I don't need ur pity and fake ass caring honestly .it makes me sick 👐