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I'm so sorry I've been so inactive lately, my mental health has taken a bit of a hit. One of my medications hasn't been available to me for over a week and I'm definitely feeling the effects. I also didn't do great on my tests last week, and that's kind of demotivating for me. Things in my personal life are also kinda hectic, in a good way, but still hectic.

Politics are still scary. I'm still scared. I don't really know what else I can say about it.

I don't have a video for tomorrow unfortunately, I might be able to have one up Tuesday or Wednesday depending on when I get my work done.

Stay strong, y'all.

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New video up! https://youtu.be/-XJ8v2dBTuE

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New video up! https://youtu.be/enJ-cCYzJuM

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New video up! https://youtu.be/lqbYAGQgBLc

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I promise I’m alive guys, I’ve had so much work to do lately 😭 Luckily after Friday I’ll be less busy so I can yap on here more often.

I’ve got 3 tests this week so I’m kinda stressed about it, but I’m also kinda at the point where I’m so stressed I’m chill about it? I don’t know, I need a nap.

Still scared over the political circumstances right now. I’m not in a place right now where I’m able to actively protest, so I’m sticking to studying and being myself. For me, being myself means dying my hair, getting piercings, dressing in a way that makes me feel comfortable in my identity, and just being openly queer, as scary as that is right now.

I haven’t really talked about it on here, but I’m nonbinary, use they/them pronouns, and I’m pansexual. I tend to present fairly feminine and I’m okay with that.

Anyways, my point is that is you live in the US, do as much as you can to resist fascism and all that bad stuff. Do whatever you safely and comfortably can. It’ll be hard, and scary, but we’ve gotten through this before, and we can do it again.

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New video up! https://youtu.be/jzWepTsLPvQ

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Sorry for no video this week :( I've been having tech issues with my editing software, but hopefully I'll have it figured out over the weekend. I do have a couple of videos filmed, so once I get those edited I'll be back on my regular schedule of uploading once or twice a week.

All of my classes have tests next week and I have fear in my soul. Chem has been really difficult for me so far, and bio has been so easy it's boring. I'm actually doing pretty well in calc though, so I have hope for my GPA.

I'm still really stressed out about the political climate. History is repeating itself. Censorship is becoming horrific. My friends and I joke about how we're living in a YA dystopian novel, but we are scared. Nearly all minorities in America are pretty much under attack right now.

But I'm making my silly little videos and doing my boring homework and quietly resisting. I encourage you to do the same.

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hey! you popped up on my feed and i just felt the need to share that i also got my bellybutton pierced for my 19th and i still love it at 21 :) happy birthday🩷

Thank you so much! I love it so much, it’s so cute! I can’t wait until it heals though 😭

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Yesterday was my 19th birthday!!! I got my bellybutton pierced and I also got to hold a snake which was super awesome. Turning 19 is weird because there's not really anything new that you can do. Like at 18 you can vote, at 21 you can drink, but at 19 it's like "ok last year of being a teenager before you have to actually adult".

Anyways, I've been making a lot of moving/interactive pieces for my sketchbook, and I might show those once they're done. I also got a printer which is awesome, because now I can print out my digital art and put it in my sketchbook.

I haven't had a ton of work to do, but I should have a video up later this week.

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Just cried. “So this is how democracy dies… with thunderous applause” has never been so strongly felt

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As silly as it sounds, I'm making studying my act of rebellion. They want us to be uneducated and blissfully ignorant? Too bad, I'm off to do my calc homework and then talk about the government with my political science major roommate.

Social media in the US is now being controlled and censored. Check your Instagram account, Meta is making people follow the POTUS and VP accounts, even after unfollowing and blocking.

This is getting really bad.

I'm scared.

I'm angry.

I want to interview him, and question him about the contradictions in his speeches.

We can't even pretend to be free anymore.

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We are fucked

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AI under capitalism

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I've been fairly productive the last few days! I did two loads of laundry, tailored a skirt, and I'm two weeks ahead in my public speaking class.

But I'll admit, it's hard to get things done right now. How am I supposed to concentrate on my ionization lab when mass deportations are being planned by the government? How am I supposed to solve for 'x' when it will "be the official policy of the United States government that there are only two genders, male and female"? I've read too many dystopian books. I know how this will end, and I'm terrified.

In a lot of the books I've read, information is heavily censored. I'm a budding scientist. Will my future publications be hidden from the public? Will I need to worry about my colleagues being silenced? It seems ridiculous to think about. But I have snapshots of scenes from movies and books running through my head. Cover-ups happen and it's only going to get worse.

The separation between church and state is quickly dissolving. The owners of exploitative monopolies are now in political positions of power. The healthcare system is actively killing people.

This is heavier stuff than I usually post, but it's important.

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New video up! Over an hour of me trying to form thoughts! https://youtu.be/-ectcewAl-U

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Fear not, I have survived the first week of school! To be honest, all my classes are really boring right now and I hate orbitals with a passion now, but I had a delectable bagel and chai for lunch so all is right with the world. I’m going to film later today and maybe on Sunday, so I should have a video ready by Monday for y’all.

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First video of the semester is up! Not super long, but enjoy!

https://youtu.be/MAzKpPvogcQ