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Thinking about Lou anxiously calling Oliver to talk about the kiss because he wanted to do it right and Oliver reassuring him and telling him just go for it.

And then Lou felt so safe around Oliver that he improvised the chin grab 🥹

This makes me tear up because Lou cared about that scene as much as Oliver and I think it's beautiful.

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Lou's behind the scenes from 911 season 2

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I really love that Tommy calls Buck Evan. He can't call him that without Buck himself telling him to call him that, because Tommy only heard all other people call him Buck. But Buck teels him to call him Evan, never corrects him, even when other people around calls him by nickname and I guess during the kiss scene when Tommy says "My attention". He's not so "oh you're so in love with Eddie but stupid", but he sees that Buck actually treats him different in this little, but big for Buck thing. Even Buck's best friend calls him by the nickname, but Buck gives Tommy his real name, holds it as his trust, and it's Tommy's oh he is really into me, how I wanted to know during the tour, before Eddie came moment. And he starts acting

Tommy is interested in Buck and he sees Buck's interest

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lou saying that "he's not the most approachable human being" makes so :(((( just because he looks like he can lift a truck with one arm, doesn't mean he's not a sweet bean! he paints silly flowers and cartoon characters!!! he's really goofy!! did you guys know he went to college because "my mom wanted me to go. so i did that." his response to being typecast is "i don't give a shit. i'm here to play and i'm gonna do my job the best i can. you can typecast me however you want." so i really hope we get to keep him and he gets to develop tommy, i think the character and him have the potential to do so many amazing things! so yeah! pls tim let us keep lou!!!

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Art by Yuming Li

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SHIP NAME. Lou has spoken? Sort of? He'll vouch for Tevan or Kinley.

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curls☺️

lou in outer banks

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LOU FERRIGNO JR. August Man — Ben Cope (2023)

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[ a study in eyes and hands ]

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seeing any hate on bucktommy and tommy or especially on my fellow buddie shippers who enjoy and ship bucktommy too has me like:

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make me yours. (x)

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Rough day… come here

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Thinking about this and So that was okay? and I don’t think you’re ready and I didn’t wanna pressure you and Are you absolutely sure about this?

I just have really strong feelings about characters who are trying to be the person they needed when they were younger

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Everyone else moved on but im still at the “is that okay?” from Tommy right after he kisses Buck and their stupid little smiles and the way he straightens his shirt and I need to be put out fr

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Should I be eating and resting? Yes. Am I? No, so come join me for a dissertation on Tommy Kinard being lonely.

Edit to add a note since I saw a reblog about it: Tommy has no canonical age right now and Lou is 39, 40 later this year, so that is my basis for saying he’s 39.

Now when I say lonely, I don’t mean that he has no one whatsoever. I can picture him going for drinks with his team or having some Muay Thai buddies that he could call up if he really was inclined. Maybe an old army buddy or two.

But there’s something about Tommy that’s just achingly lonely, both when he was at the 118 and now at Harbor.

Tommy had a broken home, or some other kind of unstable childhood. Maybe his parents split, maybe he was mistreated, maybe he was in the system or was passed around family members. Maybe he was isolated as a child because he was a little overweight (I think Lou said something along those lines) and was bullied. I think Tommy didn’t really have any friends until high school, when puberty hit and maybe he started working out and probably joined the football team. I don’t know if anyone remembers what teenage boys are like, but I can imagine they were the same as they are today back in the 90s/early 00’s. Because around this time, Tommy might’ve started to realize that something was very different about him.

Now this isn’t a meta about how I think Tommy dealt with his sexuality (maybe I’ll do one of those later) but I think he never would’ve risked his football friends knowing even if he himself could acknowledge it, which I doubt. So he messed around, got in trouble with these guys, hung out with the bros, and pretended to be interested in girl talk.

Of course, eventually, his buddies all got girlfriends and he was always the odd one out again.

He didn’t do college. The army was his next step. And I feel like this might have been the first time in his life he wasn’t lonely. He’d learned to blend in by this point and he worked with some great people. But as he started making real friends for the first time, he also started losing them as the war tore them away.

Tommy left the army and joined the fire department. There was an aching hole where the camaraderie of the army had filled previously and with no education beyond a high school diploma, Tommy thought the fire department would replicate that. Not the police though. He’d had enough of guns.

(And ohhhh now so many ideas on his thoughts during the sniper)

But he ended up at the 118 and quickly realized that his team had maybe more of a DADT stance than the army. He realized that he had to put on an elaborate act to fool his fellow firefighters, who had more time on their hands and more prejudice they were willing to wield to pick apart his life. Tommy, who maybe had only just started to acknowledge he felt differently about guys with less panic than before, had no choice but to backslide. He acted and acted and crafted a person he wasn’t until the day that maybe he was. Sal was his closest buddy at the 118 and Tommy had no doubt that Sal would be one of the first to make his life hell. Gerrard seemed to look at Tommy as some sort of mentee. Boxed in by two notorious bigots, Tommy had never felt more claustrophobically alone.

Chim was the first one to reach out a hand of friendship, or at least the first one that didn’t come with caution tape, but he was also an “other” and Tommy, who was confused and afraid and had just had his captain call his bluff on his fake girlfriend, lashed out. Then he allowed Chim in and Chim wasn’t interested in being besties but he was a great drinking buddy and movie buddy and Tommy felt safest around him.

Then Hen came and Tommy watched her get the same treatment he was afraid of. Not that he had to worry about the racism, and he was aware of the privilege, but Hen didn’t exactly hide herself and he watched them bully his lesbian coworker. He let himself get pulled into it all and hated himself for it, but was too cowardly to break away from it. He wasn’t sure why Hen had forgiven him, but she became the only other person on shift he felt even a little safe around other than Howie. But then Chimney and Hen became best friends and Tommy fell to the wayside. They still included him, sure, but they were always a pair and there was something there that Tommy didn’t know but longed for. A closeness he’d never felt.

A best friend. A juvenile idea to him, but one he’d never truly had.

Then Gerrard was gone and Sal got transferred and the 118 moved forward under Captain Nash, but Tommy felt left behind, even in what was the most united A shift team yet. Because he was over 30 and was starting to be unable to ignore everything that he’d had to hide under Gerrard, as he no longer had a distraction from it.

He’d been a pilot in the army, so he transferred to Harbor. And Harbor was great. He wasn’t best buds with anyone (he was starting to think that was never in the cards for him) but his team didn’t carry the same baggage that the 118 had.

So Tommy started to come to terms with himself. He started to date for the first time and came out to his team. And he had several boyfriends, but most couldn’t handle the job or his baggage or the desperate need he had to be wanted. His most long term partner cheated and the one he fell hardest for couldn’t deal when Tommy was injured on the job. Even within his own relationships, he felt like he was destined to stand alone.

Tommy was 39 years old and alone, as always, when Chimney walked back into his life, dragging an adorable and also extremely hot blonde and a stoic brunette that radiated ex military in a way only ex military could know. And then Hen was there and they were trying to rescue their captain and his wife and they clearly loved each other fiercely and like family.

And as Tommy listened, flying through the remnants of a cat 5 hurricane, he thought to himself that he should’ve never left. Simply just never found himself if only that meant being part of the family the 118 was now. However, he knew deep down that he still would’ve been alone and on the outside.

And they rescued the survivors and Tommy thought that was it but then Eddie wanted to hang out. And they liked the same things and had similar experiences and Tommy couldn’t help the hope. Because the loneliness had grown stifling and now he could breathe a little. And then Evan, the cute blonde, wanted a tour of the hanger and he thought that maybe he was being hit on.

And then at the end of it all, Tommy was left realizing that he’d wedged himself between two best friends and that was what happened when he allowed himself to hope. So he went to Evan to apologize. He would get Evan and Eddie to talk to each other and then would fade into the background.

But then Evan was sweet and apologetic and told him that he was part of the 118 family simply by helping them. Tommy couldn’t help it. Here he was, at 39, with a little boy still waiting inside of him to be soothed. And Evan was hot and sweet and Tommy couldn’t help himself.

And he really liked Evan. Evan was adorable. But their first date didn’t go as planned and Tommy knew he was already whipped. So he removed himself before someone could get hurt. Evan deserved better and so did he, even if the loneliness was stifling again.

But then Evan texted him and looked at him with sparkling blue eyes over too sweet coffee and wanted him. Him. He wanted Tommy and to have something with Tommy and he wanted him to come to his sister’s wedding with him.

And Tommy looked at him and saw someone who could finally fill the ache he’d felt his whole life. He saw a man who he knew he wanted to take a chance with. All he had to do was jump.

And he did.

And it wasn’t solved, not immediately and never fully. Too many wounds were left gaping for too long to ever heal. But for the first time in his life, at 39, with the 118 surrounding him and Buck as the sunshine at his side, Tommy finally felt at peace.

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i need everyone who keeps bleating that "a couple of dates doesn't mean they're ToGeThEr so it wouldn't be ChEaTiNg" to remember two things

Marisol Exists

going on a disastrous date with a cute boy you find adorable, telling him he's not ready, having him call you up for a cute coffee date where he's earnest and sweetly telling you he doesn't know what he's ready for but he's ready for it WITH YOU then inviting you to a FAMILY WEDDING - then he sleeps with his bestie who is also your new friend at the bachelor party? fucking DICKHEAD behavior

stop turning characters into hateable shitheels just because you want to see two cardboard cutouts fuck

idk why y'all want the worst outcomes just to get a shitty story and a shitty relationship fast. could NOT be me, i actually like this show

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tommy lifting buck up onto the kitchen counter like it’s nothing and buck giving a little gasp into his mouth send tweet