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I didn’t belong to anyone. I wouldn’t allow myself to belong to anyone.

Marie Howe, from Magdalene—The Seven Devils (via lilys)

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oliviahqs‌:

liv had been at a house party the night before, she wasn’t planning on staying for long but sometimes plans change.. -she had been up all night, she had just started to walk home when the sun was coming up. liv had spotted a familiar face as she smiled, “hey! i don’t know about you but i’m starving. do you want to go get breakfast with me?” 

mascara bleeding underneath her eyes, sloane slung her worn pair of combat boots tied together over her shoulder as she squinted in the morning light. she told herself she was only going to stay at the house party the night before for an hour but one drink turned into two and so forth. now here she was, late for work and with a killer headache. holding her hand against her forehead to shield her eyes, she smiled as came face to face with liv. “i’ve got an early shift at the diner, but if you want to come with breakfast is on me. that is if you’re okay with being my excuse for why i’m late. pretty sure coming to a friend’s rescue sounds better than staying out all night.”

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blue had no intention of being here, but it was practically impossible for her to  stay away from a party. and in the middle of the ever-moving throng of people, music blaring from all sides, she felt a strange sense of calm. though, maybe that feeling was the pill she’d swallowed when she arrived kicking in. ‘what did i take?’ she doesn’t have much time to reflect on the question before she sees sloane (and thank god for that). “uh -” she starts with a laugh, leaning against the wall to face the girl, “i mean, i’ve got a half tab of - something, but i don’t think that’s what you’re looking for.” 

“of something?” sloane raised an eyebrow with a laugh. she knew she shouldn’t, she knew the old sloane never would but that only seemed to make her want to do it more. that, and the desire to be out of her own head had been increasing in the last few weeks. one miserable work shift after another, still finding it difficult to make ends meet and making no progress on deciding what direction she actually wanted her life to go in. “no, not exactly.” she shrugged, looking away for a moment in contemplation before her eyes returned to blue. “but why the hell not?”

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the smell of spilled alcohol and overhearing a girl crying in the bathroom had sent caiden the opposite way of the life of the party, towards a realm he considered more comfortable to himself: the alcohol. he had a few drinks already, one.. two.. no, maybe three. there was a low hum inside him that buzzed, made his chest warm and his head a little less floaty, it was a settling feeling. at his dismay, sloane held up a daunting finger towards him as if a warning, before spilling that she didn’t want to talk about ── not that he would ask, regardless. “i’d share my tequila so you could loosen up a bit but.. i’m self medicating over here,” he retorted back to her, before nudging an off-brand vodka bottle her way that stood lonesome on the bar tile, not particularly one to ever go out of his way to help sloane. 

just as sloane thought her day couldn’t have gotten any worse, she saw caiden peeking out from behind her cup. a headache setting in just by his presence. the two of them were like oil and water, they weren’t meant to mix. especially not in sloane’s half-exhausted, half-enraged state. there was only so much she could take, and everything having to do with caiden was not on that list. “what a gentleman,” she sneered sarcastically, her nose scrunching as she picked up the bottle and started pouring because she knew she was going to need all the alcohol she could get to get through this conversation. “you know, i’m shocked by how many girls you manage to get with those manners. but hey, i guess chivalry really is dead.”

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Her eyes—green—were bright, merciful, sometimes given to melancholy, not entirely guileless. And I’d listen to her tell me about the abandoned factories and the cemetery where she’d grown up, the places where she’d skinned her knees. And her voice took me over.    This is how you find the one to break your heart.

Nico Walker, Cherry (via sinfulmuse)

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the sway of sweating bodies and thumping music had max off it, rocking back and forth with the warmth of wine and the promise of a crazy fucking night, as he made his way to the kitchen. cluttered with red solo cups and a few who nibbled at what was left of the family size portion of doritos, he heard the familiar voice before he recognized her. a hand felt and reached for the skin on her shoulder, before he joined sloane and turned to lean against the tile of the island counter. “merlot?” he offered, lips stained with a purple hue as he extended his cup forward, but the female must’ve had something else in mind. “i know they keep whiskey in the bar area cabinet..” he explained, eyes fluttering up and down her. “we could always not talk about it over there, if you wanted.”

her pulse quickened as she felt max’s fingers brush against the bare skin on her shoulder, his energy was dizzying. she knew it was only a matter of time before he’d come rushing to her side, but that knowledge did nothing as her body was still choosing to betray her no matter how hard she tried to suppress any sign that she was happy to see him. shaking her head at his wine-stained mouth, her cheeks heated up as she pushed the cup away. “stronger, maxwell.” she told him with a roll of her eyes before nodding her head as he got it right with the whiskey. her lips twisting as he mentioned coming with her, wanting to turn him down but deciding against it at the last second. too exhausted to try and fight the inevitable. “fine. but only because you’re being kind of helpful tonight.” shrugging her shoulder, she started towards the cabinet, stopping for a moment to look back at him. “don’t make me regret it.”

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pushing her way past a few people congregating on the front porch, sloane ignored a past hookup who was trying to say hi to her as she walked into the house party and went straight in search of the alcohol. a stressful shift at work weighing on her as she poured herself a red solo cup of whatever she could find and downed its contents. holding up her pointer finger as she saw someone she knew approaching her, she shook her head as she finished her drink. “i don’t want to talk about it. got anything stronger?”

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(yael shelbia, cisfemale) okay, so get this… i was in palo alto the other weekend and i ran into SLOANE BECKER. everyone calls her the HOYDEN, which makes sense because she’s very ASSERTIVE and FEARLESS but also very DETACHED and QUICK-TEMPERED. you know, the TWENTY-TWO year old WAITRESS really reminds me of STOMPING AROUND IN COMBAT BOOTS, STRESSING OVER UNPAID BILLS, and SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS IN FRUSTRATION. (farah, twenty-one, pst, she/her)

hi friends! i’m farah (aka the admin on the main), um thank you sm for joining??? i rlly can’t wait to write with all of you! i’m going to go workout in a bit, so i don’t know if i’ll be able to get my other character’s (delilah) intro up since i still need to add a few more things to it. but in the meantime, here is sloane! if you want to plot, just hit that like button and i’ll message u? ok i think that’s it! love u bye!

ok so some of her inspirations are shelly from twin peaks, jessica jones, nancy wheeler, and summer from 500 days of summer

here is her pinterest board if you’re interested!

her main vibe is really that 90′s tomboy older sister who will always rat you out and gets off on being right

she just moved to palo alto like a year ago with no plan and barely any money just to get away from home and never look back and since then she’s been running herself ragged working three jobs to try and support herself while trying to figure her life out

but she totally acts like she has it all together and never wants anyone to see that deep down she’s kind of struggling and with her confidence and kind of “tough” girl attitude, it’s easy for people to pass her off as such

um more into her backstory, she grew up pretty well-off in an upper middle class family in some other state (tba) like kind of classic american family - mom, dad, two younger siblings that she adored but also bossed around since she was the oldest

anyway, she was always rlly smart and an honor student and all that, and got into a rlly good local college that she was attending and wanted to pursue a career in law

she was super close to her dad who was a pretty successful business owner of some kind and sloane was like the golden child and always being doted on by him

while it looked like he was doting on her, but rlly he was really hard on her and put a lot of pressure on her and like had her whole life mapped out even tho she didn’t rlly know if that was what she wanted

still, she didn’t know any different and would’ve said they had a rlly good relationship even tho it was kind of questionable

anyway, it came as a rlly big shock when her dad got caught committing embezzlement or fraud or something like that and went to jail and then her, her mom, and her siblings were just left bad financially and having to try to pick up the pieces

her mom took it super hard, mostly because of how embarrassing it was, and started drinking and then sloane had to come home from college and was kind of expected to drop everything to help with her younger siblings

at first she agreed, because she was kind of just in shock like my whole life is a lie? and i’ve lost probably the most important person in my life? and i have to give up my life and dreams?

she was just…struggling like what do i even want now? do i want to go back to school? do i want to stay here or do i just feel like i need to because my mom expects me to?

so yeah, she was just becoming more and more depressed n angry n resentful n confused and was like i need a change of pace

and she tried to tell her mom her plans to leave, but she was not happy and they haven’t rlly spoken since

but she left! and she’s free! and that’s all that matters to her right now, even though it’s been a year and she’s now kind of feeling the pressure to like figure out a more long term plan

personality wise, she’s very outspoken and driven, but is often times gets super frazzled because she’s working so much and always running around and doing something

she’s not afraid to call people out and almost thrives on it, but at the same time has had enough life experience to give out good advice and will be there for you if she likes you

she’s a little jaded just with everything that’s happened to her and kind of having life as she knew it taken away

definitely steers clear of love and relationships! super afraid of being abandoned and disappointed! and just kind of has a wall up when you first meet her, but it will come down once she gets to know someone

WANTED PLOTS: friends, enemies, hookups, fwb, exes, unrequited crush (either way), someone she works with, someone who she thinks has it really easy and is envious, opposites attract….i will add more to this!