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I'm in love with you You heard me? I guess I'm in love with you And I know that love is just a shout into the void And oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed And that one day all of our labors will be returned to dust And I know that the sun will swallow the only earth we will ever have And I'm in love with you, sorry 100% Alex to Ceres @so-letspretend #StringChaos

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@anderwelt

YES

YES THAT'S THEM

STILL IS

ALWAYS WILL BE

NEVER FORGET THAT ONE VIDEO WHERE A COUPLE PLAYS TAG AND THEY SOMEHOW END UP IN A HELICOPTER

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It was really hard to press the publish button, despite being in the artist scene for decades and putting personal works out there. To show something so intimate to the world is surely an experience. You place your heart out there and hope nobody will stomp on it.

But nothing that’s easy to get is worth having, right?

Sneak peek underneath the cut; the rest of the chapter is on AO3.

To you, who stole the stars,

Our sickle moon is nearly the only light left. By now, if you wanted, you could look up at the vast darkness you created and count every single star—knowing the exact number. People celebrate you as a hero, the one who saved the world from the chaos those twinkling lights caused. They granted wishes, distorted reality, changed people, and twisted our memories beyond recognition.

We lived in fear, yet none of us truly wanted it to stop. If any of us had genuinely wished for the stars to cease fulfilling our deepest desires, it wouldn’t have gone this far. There wouldn’t be remnants of wars with titans or strange new races roaming our world, ones not even mentioned in fairy tales. If just one soul had held a pure, untainted wish—something not dark and sinister, something not world-altering—you wouldn’t be our Savior.

We wouldn’t celebrate you; we wouldn’t bow to you. Your towering building in the middle of a city—so often rebuilt and renamed that it’s now just a place people avoid—wouldn’t be a symbol of hope.

In the darkness you’ve created, you will remain alone.

You can steal all the stars in the sky, touch each one of those little wonders, but you’ll find no wish left to fulfill for yourself. You can hoard the possibilities of a better world, keeping them all to yourself. But it isn’t enough that you have wealth, power, and everything the world wished for. It isn’t enough that you collected and preemptively caught every falling star before anyone else could.

Whatever you do, it will never be enough.

So, I write this letter to tell you that I’ve stolen one of your precious stars. Just one. The moment I touched it, my wish was fulfilled—I’m certain of it. It came true in a way I never imagined possible. But who am I to judge the ways of the stars?

My wish, despite my doubts and hesitation, didn’t end the world. And now, I sit here wondering, what have I done? I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. And yet, here I am, asking you for help.

I love this world. I loved you. Maybe I still do. Please, forgive me.

... continue on AO3

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YOUR HONOR I LOVE THEM - I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH

I'm in love with you You heard me? I guess I'm in love with you And I know that love is just a shout into the void And oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed And that one day all of our labors will be returned to dust And I know that the sun will swallow the only earth we will ever have And I'm in love with you, sorry 100% Alex to Ceres @so-letspretend #StringChaos

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Alex almost drank the lethal dosage of caffine once.

Alex likes to eat straight coffee beans. (NO WONDER HE ALMOST KILLED HIMSELF WITH THE LETHAL DOSAGE)

Alex desperately needs a hug but doesn't know it and refuses to ask for one.

Alex is oblivious to any and all romantic interest someone may show them.

Alex will remind others in the midst of chaos how good they're being.

Alex is a dog person. (he is a cat person but he himself is the dog)

Alex was forced to eat cement as a child (damn, that explains a lot)

Alex is smart but also very stupid (THIS)

Alex has fallen asleep at their desk while working in the middle of the night.

tagged by @astralrogue - NO FACTS YOU DIDN'T KNOW YET BUT HERE WE ARE

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"If there was a spell that undresses people on sight, I think Gale would cook right now naked." The Changeling looked to Alex, then back at Gale cooking. "...you mentioned you too were in the Blackstaff? Is it a childhood crush story or is it the beard?"

A crush? One did not have a crush on Gale of Waterdeep!

He was the epitome of magic. An exceptional talent not only endlessly skilled with magic, but articulate to the point it must have made writers green with envy. He was so intelligent, Alex wanted to listen to his theses for hours. He was supportive to the ones in need, never thinking twice about lending a helping hand. Despite them having only a campfire for their meals his dishes tasted like five star dining and he was rounding it all off with his extraordinary good looks.

Thinking about it, what was there this man didn't have?

What Alex felt had been no crush. Back then in black-staff he idolized him, striving to become a wizard close to his capabilities.

But what was it now, after their journey together and getting to know him, he wondered? Surely, it must have been admiration. Yes, admiration. All the admiration he deserved...and a bit of second thoughts of wanting to raise that wild tempest, admittedly.

"Mh..now that would be something I would very much approve to see", Alex grinned slightly as he looked at Ceres. There was no harm in admitting that he liked what he saw - heck, he could not deny it, even if he wanted to. Ironically the man his gazes were directed to was probably the only one that did not notice.

"...Well, yes, we were in black-staff at the same time but I don't think he is even aware. But I really admired him and took him as my role model", the elf admitted with a little sigh, "I never would have imagined to end up on a journey together, with unwelcomed guest in our heads. Life sure can be..unpredicatble sometimes. I just never would have thought..".

For a moment, the elf seemed to be in thoughts. It appeared as if there was a bit of uncertainty, even confusion, in those emerald green eyes.

This was admiration, wasn't it?

"..we shouldn't talk about Gale too much, or else I might end up inventing a spell that really gets him out of his clothes while cooking", he jested with a little chuckle.

They had been on this journey to Baldurs Gate for a while now. They were no strangers anymore. And now that black-staff was mentioned, maybe it was finally the right time to ask another question that burned on his tongue for a while now:

"You have been there too, haven't you? In black-staff?".

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Tae tapped his finger on his bottom lip, a sign that the Drow was once again not really listening to the others and was lost in his own little world, thinking aloud while standing next to Alex: "If a warforged gets rust, is it like aging or just a bad case of "metal acne?"

Spending the nighttime sitting close to the campfire, Alex quietly scrolled through one of the books he obtained today, when Taes mumble reached his pointy ears.

To the half-elf, those random mumbles had been as common as the crackling sound of the fire by now. It could happen during their breaks, while they were traveling on the road and sometimes even while they were discussing their next steps. From the most random, stupid things that would make him frown, up to profound questions keeping one awake at night - everything could be contained in his companions train of thoughts. And yet their contents never ceased to surprise him.

"If metal parts of a warforged would rust, there is a high chance it is the result of an untreated battle damage", as he flipped the page without looking up once, the half-elf answered calmly, "Concluding that the rust resulted in either a sloppy treatment or no treatment at all, plus taking into account that they are immune to magical aging effects, my final conclusion is..".

Then, finally, he looked up to Tae, as he declared with a very serious face: "…metal acne caused by bad metal care".

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what soft romance cliché are you?

Tagging (I love romance, sue me! >=<): @arcanecast @so-letspretend @galefcrce @sanguisarcana & @iron-hearts-ablaze

Ceres, Fey'Ri and Tae got:

because i love you!

passionate; you are the heated moment of an argument. when the person you care for has done something outrageously stupid or dangerous. all of your pent up emotions that you've kept inside of you come bursting out: "BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" how could they be so dense. how could YOU be so dense. you've loved each other this whole time. your love tends to be strong, and loud. sometimes it might be hard for you to express your feelings but you let people know that they are cared for. you're also hot. good for you.

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With every further word that was coming out of Taes mouth, the vein on Alex' forehead appeared to grow to a point where it threatened to burst.

Despite his anger - or maybe it was even worse because of his anger - Alex felt goosebumps spreading on his whole body as the drow dashed forward to let his battle cry echo into everyones ears. It was undeniable that watching him fight with instincts and planned precision was an impressing view of breathtaking spectacle. And yet, it also was undeniable that they ended up in more than just one preventable situation of danger caused by one of Taes spontanious irrational moods such as this.

"Wrong, they just didn't kill us yet", Alex retorted, "and in case they ever will..". After the radiating beam blinded the enemies, the elf interrupted his scolding for an 'invenium via!' warping himself behind the enemy as he encased his blade with green flames and stroke down one of the beasts that already had taken its fair share of injuries by the drows assault. When it fell and made Tae appear in Alex vision again, he grabbed him by his collar to pull him closer.

"..believe me I'll ensure to hunt down your sorry ass to wherever it will end. So no more jumping down into bottomless pits, you hear me?".

One little tug was given to pull him down slightly, as Alex stooped as well to avoid the incoming axe of a blinded minotaur, before he let go to let them both continue their attacks against their enemies.

Tae listened to Alex's raised voice, feeling the tension rise, though the drow on the other side seemed to be enjoying the last moments of the feather fall spell.

"Do you even realize where we could have ended up?!" the Half-Elf exclaimed, gesturing wildly, as if it weren't entirely obvious where they would land after jumping down from the cave into the chasm.

"Well… right next to the Matriarch's spider," Tae replied, his eyes glancing sideways at the spider's corpse beside them.

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For once, the quick-witted half-elf was rendered speechless. After his absolute wacky and pointless undertaking of jumping down a bottomless hole, Tae still was barefaced enough to pull on Alex patience.

And while he always thought his calmth was endless, it hung on nothing but a dangerously thin thread in this very moment.

"And if that spider ended up in a sea of lava or a nest of hooked horrors!? Use your head for once you goddamn idiot!", he barked.

Then, he took a deep breath, rubbing over the back of his nose as he exhaled, resisting the strong urge to grab his companion to lift and shake him in hopes it could bring back some sense into his lunatic head.

"I need a break".

However..

...a break wasn't forseen for the group, as they heard the sound of loud trampling, followed by the appereance of two minotaurs that only underlined how important it was for the group to proceed their journey with caution. Unfortunately for the beasts, they had the worst possible timing, as Alex spoke his next words with a threatening growl:

"...fine, let's break those then".

If rest was not what would soothe the half-elf of his anger, then a fight would have to do the trick.

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Only after Ceres leaned her little weight against him did he feel how cold the breeze around them was. How warm her small body felt, warmer even than the campfire in front of them. It was soothing, infusing him with a moment of tranquility. And at the same time, he quietly desired to embrace more of that gentle, little light.

Carefully, fearing to disturb her trance if he moved too much, he moved his arm around her. The taste of the godberry still lingered on his tongue as his nose noticed that she was covered in the sweet, berries scent entirely. A scent he very much liked, he thought - surprised about the fact that he never noticed just how much he seemed to be fond of these berries.

Maybe if he would tell her, they would exchange them more often in front of the campfire like this. The idea made him forget the frostiness of the shadowcursed land and caused the smile on his lips to remain continuously.

Maybe.

But for now, there were no words needed to be exchanged. Rather than a 'rest well', Alex hummed a quiet melody to drive away the ominous sounds in the distance.

꒰ Jacket ꒱  for Durge!Ceres - PROMPTS FOR ORDINARY THINGS THAT FEEL INTIMATE @alexoiscello

      The air clung to the remnants of rain with a stubborn chill, a reminder of the previous day's downpour that had thoroughly soaked the earth. Every surface bore a dampness that seeped into bones, enveloping the Shadowcursed land in a pervasive coldness. It was already difficult enough for Ceres to resist seeking out Karlach's warmth to avoid freezing; the mere thought of admitting her fear of sleeping with only one blanket and pillow for the rest of the adventure, or until she could pilfer some ruins or thieve's goods, filled her with dread for the future.

Leading was tough, playing tough was tougher, and it was especially challenging when one's talents were constantly questioned at the slightest display of softness or weakness. But in a world where everything seemed to conspire against them, even their own minds, who wouldn't struggle?

So she lingered by the campfire, feigning a need to keep watch over their encampment rather than face the cold solitude of her tent.

That is, until the unexpected scent of coffee, almond, and sandalwood enveloped her in a warm embrace. Alex draped his heavy fur coat over her shoulders, a smile gracing his face as he settled beside her. No words were exchanged—it was simply the two of them, sharing the warmth of the fire and each others presence.

Ceres reached for her little pouch, moving closer to Alex under the guise of offering him a godberry in return.

As the flames danced and dwindled, her eyelids grew heavy, and she found solace in leaning against Alex's shoulder, drifting into a much-needed trance.

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I MEAN LOOK AT THAT BASTARD

NEW MUSE DROPPED

And when you come in quick to steal a kiss my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear And I know that you mean so well but I am not a vessel for your good intent. I will only break your pretty things I will only wring you dry of everything But if you're fine with that You can be mine like that

JUST KIDDING; today is Sinday so let me show you a Bastard Devil I love so very much. His name is Sae (Yes, I know, Sae and Tae, their shipping name is 'Stay')

You may remember on my Carrd that they can become a Warlock in a Bad End? Yeah. May I introduce their Ex-Boyfriend. A devil from Mammon.

He has his own Redemption Ark but not on Tumblr. But God damnit I love my asshole.

Sae is available/trigger able with every version of my Muse, except Durge!Tae. Durge!Tae would slaughter him in the hells next to Enver and this Bastard knows it.

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IT IS THEM OVER 9000 I AM CRYING

I CAN'T

I want no ordinary lover. I want a fucking storm. I want sleepless nights and endless conversation at 4am. I want passion. I want madness. I want someone who's able to make my whole body shiver from a distance and also pull me close to make sense of all my bones.

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He maybe shouldn't, but it is the truth which makes it quite tragic.

That boy isn't signing a contract with a devil for no good reason - I mean that Sae is a hot sassy cocky smart bastard is a plus BUT ALEX IS VERY DAMAGED AND DESPERATE IN BG3 ACTUALLY, JUST LET HIM FINALLY BE HIMSELF AND IF ONLY A DEVIL CAN ACCEPT HIM THE WAY HE IS THEN SO BE IT.

"I was never able to be more myself than I am since I met you." - What Alex says about his Patron but really shouldn't. Alex @so-letspretend

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BECAUSE EVEN IF THEY ARE NOT AWARE OF IT, THEY WOULD SCOOP A PERFECT SCORE ON ALEX BINGO

COLLECTING THOSE CHECKMARKS LIKE TRADING CARDS OR POKEMON

THAT'S HOW

CALL ME CRAZY BUT I WOULD SAY YES, YES ALEX IS THEIR TYPE

AND THATS WHY ALEX GETS THE FACE OF DISBELIEF WHEN HE SMOOCHES THE BABY

HOW CAN SOMEONE SO PERFECT LIKE THEM???

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How it all began? If truth be told, I had a master plan. Now I rule the world, I took 'em by surprise and I became invincible. No one can stop me, for only I am in control.In my crown, I am king, I love their endless worshiping. I've made your misery my goal and if you want survival: kneel on my arrival, for this is how I rule the world!

"In another life, things would be different." With Alex @so-letspretend

Bonus: That's the face of watching your baby-darling being a conqueror

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I wanna run in wide spaces Fly like the wind in high places Rush like water on my face With your hand in my hand I wanna dance into the morning Kiss you like you've never been kissed before me I would go anywhere you wanna go With your hand in my hand

Ceres @windwithinmyveins & my big boy Alexois @so-letspretend

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THAT'S SO TRUE

THAT'S SO THEM

AHHHHHHHH

I LOVE THOSE IDIOTS

tfw the Alex & Ceres one would be the moment where Alex looses his patience to go all in for a confession, he'd literally scream through the whole camp that he loves Ceres

HE WOULD BLOW INTO THE HORN OF THE EMRALD GROVE TO GET EVERYONES ATTENTION, EVEN THE GOBLIN ONES, TO SCREAM THAT HE LOVES CERES

Also the Alex & Tae one also works the other way around AND THEY BOTH KNOW THEY REALLY WANT THE OTHER ONE TO WATCH BECAUSE THEY ARE AS ANOYED OF EACH OTHER AS THEY ARE HORNY FOR EACH OTHER

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Alex & Ceres

Alex: I’ve been dropping them the most insanely obvious hints for like a year now. No response. Ceres: Wow. They sound stupid. Alex: But they’re not. They’re really smart actually. Just dense. Ceres: Maybe you need to be more obvious? Like, I don’t know… “Hey! I love you!” Alex: I guess you’re right. Hey Ceres, I love you. Ceres: See! Just say that! Alex: Holy fucking shit. Ceres: If that flies over their head then, sorry Alex, but they're too dumb for you. Alex: Ceres.

Alex & Tae

Alex: Go fuck yourself. Tae, smugly: Sure, but only if you watch

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