soberientist

[soberientist]

Moving on....

let's just keep moving forward, sticking to our past is draining our energy to move onto our future. Let's just focus our energy manifesting/creating the future that we want...hell!... no one makes out of this alive right? let's just do everything that we want without stepping/hurting anybody(which is inevitable) but we can minimize the hurt that we put on somebody for our gain,,,thats all (we) humnas can do.

to all people/human being that i touched,,, i hope that i have given myself/my all to help you reach your goal/full potential.. this is my last time reincarnating.. my last time to help you, new souls to see the truth about life... i hope i did well.. i hope that i serve as a reminder that if you ever become an old souls like me.. i hope that you do the same... :)

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Sis.....

hi love...

pasabe n lng kay ate mo na, sa next relationship nya.. makinig nmn sya somehow sa partner nya... oo, independent kayo... ganyan kayo pnalaki ni tita julie... pero that doesnt mean na hindi nyo na need pakinggan o intindihin yung nararamdaman ng partner nyo.. pano hahaba yung relationship nyo kung yung isang side lng yung masaya at nasusunod? ok lng sana kung robot kame e... kaso tao din kame... tama?

so, walang bitterness... ang gusto ko lng tlga e maging ok sya sa susunod na relationship nya... kasi mahirap mag isa ... no one can never make it alone, need nila ng katuwang sa buhay... adam and eve.... tama? also, take care of your ate... ang alam ko kasi kayo yung close, so alam ko nmn hindi mo sya pababayaan...

i did what i could and what i must sa isang relationship..but hanggang dito nlng kasi yung papel ko sa buhay nya... so pasensya kana kung pati ikaw na istorbo ko pa...i know that you have your plate full.. kaya ko lng nmn na open sayo to e, gusto ko sana kausapin mo c ate mo about sa relationship nmin para maging maayos... wala nmn akong hinihiling na sobra2, below minimum n nga lng e.. kaso kasi hindi tlga ako yung priority nya... ayun ...

but for replying to me, sobrang salamat.. :)

if ever you need anyone to talk to, message ka lng :) im all ears :P

bye... and take care of antonyoooo :D

[soberientist]

Grounding...

Salamat..... Thank you... sa binigay mong buhay ko dito sa mundo nato... siguro sa nakaraang buhay ko e magulo msyado kaya etong last na reincarnation ko dito sa mundong ito ay naging mabait ka saakin :)

wala naman na talaga akong hihilingin pa .. unless meron pa akong kaya maabot dito sa buhay na to... why not? i will still go for it :)

pero kung wala naman na.. im PERFECTLY fine with what i have..

i'am very VERY bless on what i have... and maraming maraming 0 salamat sayo dahil pinagkaloob mo saakin ito...

and for that... i rest my case...... :)

will be kind to those who have less,will be patient to those who need it.. and will still be a giver to those unfortunate :)

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as i have said to my last journal... i will keep doing what a boyfriend would do to you,.. but im so out of this relationship...forgive me but if ever na avail yung pera mo.. kukupit tlga ko for my own benefit.... sorry,, kasi gamitan e .. kung hindi nmn umabot sa ganto, hindi ko naman gagawin yung ganito eh,,,,

so.. i need to keep my composure sa bahay nyo.. kasi overwhelming ang energy dyan e,.... i need to keep my cool to get through that 1 week... or maybe short kasi one of those days mapagsuapan ntin yung status ng relationship ntin... well... tingnan ntin...

salamat tumblr.. kasi dahil sayo nasasabi ko yung mga sal oobin ko na kelangan ko ilabas sa mga taong dapat makarinig o malaman... salamat Alvin Uy... kasi sayo ko nasabe yung mga kelangan ko sabhin .. at least real person :) thank you sooo damn much.... ;)

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juliee....

so here's what i will do... i will try to keep my mouth shut... my feelings down..still go on with what we have... but believe me.. im soo out of it... nilatag mo na lahat ng red flag e... so wala nko mahihiling pa... yes, must be better with other man... maybe tama si arvin.."bakit mo pinatulan?" .. aba,.... malay ko ba... haha... i know deep in my gut na hindi ito yung 3rd love e... kasi kung ito yun hindi ako babalik sa default mode ko... tama tam?

edi sana dapat.. go go go ako.. sa kahit anung mga bagay? hindi ako basta sususko? yes, hindi nmn ako sumusuko.. kaso kasi wala nmn ako nakkuha na?.... so pano? kahit nlng nga yung mga bare minimum hindi natin/hindi mo maabot na gawin.. e andito pa din ako... db? ang hirap kaya nun.. sobra...

masyado ka nakafocus sa career mo.. sa nanay mo... kaya pano mo mapapansin yung relationship mo? yeah.. i get it.. gusto mo ng relationship.. pero gusto mo sa tabi lng sila? hindi nmn pwde yun...

so sana ako na yung makapangaral sayo about sa relationship at wala ng iba.. ng sa gayun,yung next na magging ka relasyon mo e alam na yung gagawin.. at alam mo na din yung kelangan gwin para mag work yung relationship na yun .... :)

i will play it nice.... sex you... lambing you... care for you... take care of you... i will do all boyrfriend things to you... pero.. im out... okay? deal? kasi hanggang duon lng nmn yung pnapakita mo e....so.. break even? :) im so... sooo.... so.... sorry........

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so....moving on... lets try to figure out what to do next...im just taking my time/looking for the right time to exit your life...from now on i will set aside people... ako nmn... let my desire be first...i know that the universe will allow what ever we want so long as its will harm no one...

lez go.. be greatful... keep moving forward towards better things... AD meliora :D

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hello... to whom it may concern,,,

please be kind to me...hindi ko nmn gusto ng perefect relationship... gusto ko lng ng taong makakaintindi saakin... sa lahat..... ayun lng naman... alam ko naman na walang perfect... sa lang yun or siya na yung huli.. cause i dont want to leave this world without knowing how to truly love someone..... ayun lng po :)

till next time....

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maybe..no i think you are btter off without me... tama si aimee,,,, o tama c arvin.. wala kang future saakin.. kasi yung future mo hindi nmn saakin... dumaan k lng nmn sa buhay ko .. or ako yung dumaan sa buhay mo... well at least na expreince ko yung mahalin ng childhood crush nya :) my wish for you is... wag ng ulitin yung mga nagyare saatin... bigyan mo ng time yung next partner mo.. wag puro work... enjoyin mo yung time with him... please.... c mama mo? oo importante yan... may mga kapatid ka nmn na pwde mag bigay dyan kung sakali nag kulang ka ng responsibilidad... pa minsan minsan... sila nmn yung problemahin mo.. please? LIVE your life... kasi kung ganto ka pa din sa sunod na makakaralasyon mo e, same outcome.. unless... yan yung gusto mo?... na palipas oras lng... well, nkkita ko nmn na ok lng sayo na mging solo for life... ang akin lng e.. mas masaya yung meron kang kasama o companion pag tanda mo....... :) ayun lng.... bye..... ;)

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energy never lies....

6 months... lets make it worth while....

rides,dreams,house,car,,family...

let's go :) i will and i can :)

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YVLY :D

psst...

kumusta?... hope okay ka.. kahit alam ko na you have "too many on your plate"... the reason lang naman na nag message ako sayo e.. kasi alam ko ikaw yung makakakintindi saakin..kasi kwento ng sister mo, pag mga seryosong bagay e kayo lang nag kakaintindihan sa inyong magkakapatid at gusto ko lang din ng kausap... kung hindi ka mag rereply sa message ko.. its perfectly fine with me... but kung mag rereply ka at makikipagusap din saakin, it will be much better(ofcourse for me)... i just want to tell you na, with all of what happen between your sister and me, e okay nmn kame... kaya lang may ibang bagay talaga na kahit anung explain ko e hindi kame nag tatagpo sa gitna(hope you know what i mean).... i dont want to be rude sa family nyo, kaya ko to sinasabe sayo, at least you know kung bakit ko pinasok tong relationship na to with your sister....

i just want to explain myself... hindi ko din nmn intention na mag clear ng name... kasi you know that "it takes two to tango"... right? ang saakin lang... ginawa ko lahat...kaya lang talaga hindi nag work e... im really sorry.. gustuhin ko man na maging tulad ng first relationship ko yan... hindi talaga e.. kaya ayun..

Right now. i still fighthing the odds... kaya sana kung okay lang,.. we should talk, ng sa gayon e, malilinawan ako on what to do next.... :)

nough said..... :P

thank you for reading....

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To Whom it may concern,

alam nyo po ba kung bakit ko tinuloy yung gusto ng anak nyo?? hindi naman po ako nag push dyan.. nung una po kame nag kita at nag usap,pag uwi nya,sinimulan na nya akong i-contact. alam nyo po kung bkit? kasi nag hahanap po sya ng lusot niya sa BF nya... dahil ikakasal na sya e... e yung anak nyo, ayaw naman niyang mag patali sa BF nya. hindi po katulad nung iba nyo pong anak...dahil po iniisip nya po yung kalagayan nyo, above anything else,yung kalagayan nyo po yung inuuna nya higit pa sa pangarap at sarili nya.... so ayan po yung buong story nyan.. kaya kung pwde lang po sana,wag sana po yung sasama yung tingin nyo saakin, kasi sinusunod ko lang po yung mga sinasabe nya saakin simula po na naging kame... d nyo po ako kalaban...hindi po ako sumasagabal sa mga kelangan nyo at sa mga kelangan nyo pa,hindi po ako nakikipagkompetensya sa attention ng anak nyo,andito lang po ako sa buhay nya para mag bigay ng leksyon sa mga aral na hindi pa nya nararanas at nang sa gayon ay, sa mga sumusunod na mga ka relasyon nya ay hindi na sya msyado mahirapan at madali nya malalagpasan ang mga pagsubok kahit gaano pa kahirap ito.. masaya ako kung asan siya ngayon...pasensya na po kung hindi ko ito nasabi nung una palang :)

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carry on.......

so... nasabi mo na yung mga gusto mong sabihin sa kanya.. pero nakahiling kana kay universe kung anung gusto mong mangyare... babawiin mo pa din ba yung hiniling mo?.....

siguro hindi na.... tingnan na lang natin kung anu yung mangyayare,,.,basta sana maging okay siya katulad nung mga nakareslyon mo..nung iniwan ko sila e naging maganda yung buhay nila...

siguro nga panakip butas lng tlga ang role ko pag dating sa pag ibig...

ill be happy whether maging kame(kung sino man ang nasa present ko ngayon) hanggang dulo...

pero from now on... yung kapakanan na lng nya yung iintindihin ko... or kung sino man yung next na magging partner ko... yun ay kung meron pa... hahaha...

no demands,no request,no authority..

i will be firm kung anung gusto ko sa magging relationship...

i will let everything fall into place...

no more negativity...

simula ngayon.what matters to me is the well being of my partner..

we'll... she maybe my last or not... but still ganyang mindset na tlga simula ngyn... REMEMBER!!!

UNIVERSE... kung anu man yung hiniling ko.. at kung anu man yung naramdaman ko nun.. d ko ipag kakaila na totoo yun.. at yung yung gusto ko mangayare... pero, sabe mo nga... binibigay mo yung mga bagay kung sino ako... at hindi yung kung anu yung gusto ko.. hindi ko na babawiin yung kung anu yung hiniling ko.. pero i trust you that you will give me that best out of this life....

so,from now on... lets keep moving forward... focus on yourself and on what you want to do... lets make this life count... okay?....

ibang linya nmn tam.... travel...sinehan/gameroom sa bahay...family..2 kids? honda hatchback...cash flow.... :) rock on.... G? \m/^_^

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note to self.............

dont let anyone know whats your next step... even your love one... whenever you are drunk.... keep your mouth shut... listen first then if they ask for you opinion on whatever discussion you have then say it.. but if not just listen... you know that its never too late... lets start now.... what do you want to achieve... whats your goal? fix yourself first before anything else..... please stop drunk texting anyone... all you need to talk to is yourself....

we start when we start.... after all this is MY LIFE... we adapt.... whatever comes we will handle it... because we know that the universe will stand with us.... always be positive... THIS IS YOUR LIFE.....

dont give advices to ppl that dont ask for it... remember,when your drunk.... just smile... stay still and relax... before you open your mouth.... hold it as long as you can,.... ondt speak unless spoken to...... your exprience.. your own,..... youre VERY LUCKY if someone UNDERSTANDS that exprience.... :)

choose your time..... dont make yourself available always....

reserve that best of yourself to the best of themselves...

only talk to your people.....

pagpinasok mo...... labasan mo..... as tito allan would say...

hindi nila alam kung papano gmitin yung power ng universe... kasi nsa matrix pa sila... so, mag iingat ksa mga bawat salita mo kasi ma ooffend sila dahil hindi nila alam yun.. ngyn ikaw na alam mo na... tahimik ka lng okay? hindi pa sila "wake"....

walang tutulong sayo... sarili mo lng .... swerte kana kung may nag aalalay sayo.. pero sa dulo.. sarili mo lng yung aasahan mo... tandaan mo yan.......

lets start small... on what idea you have,,, and then go from there... keep pushing... dont give up... positive thingking.. and always keep psuhing FORWARD.....

HOLD your BEER always..... relax........... stay still... dont talk.....

only talk to YOUR PPL... even when in your circle of so called "friends".......

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still confuse on what to do... but somethings are clear.. nothing will come out of this until i do smomething about it.. let's move on, move forward... see what happens next.. whatever it is, im sure it will better for both of us.. i will be sticking to what i wrote last time... that is final.. im really sorry... guess we both need to be patient :) still i wont let go and still seeing this through so no need to worry... i wont leave you hanging :) upon spying from years ago.... e madami nmn plang boto sa inyo e.... e baka nakyo nga tlga.. he seems to be a good man and can provide you the finance that i cant... db? inaasahan moko na matulungan ka kahit na alam mo nmn na wala ako? hahaha...how ironic... :) anyways..... les gow! let go :)

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bakit naman kasi hindi ka sumagot sa tnong ko?... anduon nmn yun sa sentence e.... pag nag vvideo yung ate mo lage ka tumitingin .. ngyng ikaw na yung nimmsg ko wala kang imik... :)

so pano? pano kita masasabihan ng probelma sa ate mo kung hindi mo nmn napapansin yung mga words ko :D TY nlng? sabagay.. ntayin nlng ntin kung sino makakabasa ng post nato... basta ang alam ko .... gustto kita.. "kasi" you remind me of "HER" :D bye..... :P

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here we go again ... so si unverse lng yung nakikinig.. well, ok nmn ako duon.. kasi sya nmn nag bbigay ng lahat... tara na gwin na natin.. wala nmng concept ng oras e... lets just do it and see what happens... :)

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lets see what your wrinting next, thats where ill plan my next move...  in the back of my mind, your future still stands,let us both compromise, if you dont take this well, then she should explain my side whenever,whatever :)   less gow \m/^_^