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reblog if ur rotting right now!!!!

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fuck

ugh back on my bullshit

currently weigh abt 138 pounds and my goal is 120 to start ,,,,, just want to get somewhere quickly and then pause so i don't get forced into recovery again

not officially counting calories but i'm pretty good at estimating prob somewhere from 1000-1400 every day idk i don't want my heart to fail this time around

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trying recovery. scary and terrifying and my body feels ok for once and i know that this is what i need to do for myself and i hope that some of you out there can try it too

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like half my personality is just symptoms

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ok i decided not to be so emotional and overreacting

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THIS IS ME IM SCREAMING

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U can do it 2 baby’s

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Lost 3 lbs overnight!!! One lb away from my 2nd GW!!! TOMORROW. I WILL HAVE HIT TWO GOAL WEIGHTS.

I wanna spread the wealth so reblog The Plastics to lose 3 lbs overnight too

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if yall still be eatin meat, milk, eggs and honey then unfollow me pls thank u<3

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not me at sixteen comparing myself to my literal prepubescent body please not this shit again

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I much prefer the feeling of starving over the feeling you get after you’ve eaten too much

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me to my therapist: yeah idk I’m pretty good!

me to my tumblr followers: I was born with glass bones and paper skin. every morning I break my legs, and every afternoon I break my arms. at night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep.

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Body check 💕

I weighted 100 lbs today!!!!

Since I’m extremely close to my ugw, I decided to make some gifs and body checks.

The last 2 gifs are just me goofing off around the house haha

Stay safe everyone💕

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am I the only one that doesn’t like sharing food? like, I know that if I share it I’ll eat less but I already calculated the calories I was gonna have or it is my safe food so don’t fucking ask for it

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Why is triggering yourself a main activity of the ED club? Like watching supersize vs. Superskinny is a cult ritual or something?

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of all the mental illnesses, anorexia has the highest mortality rate with %10.

there are 1.4k ed accounts following me, and counting.

meaning approximately 140 of us will die from this disease.

could be me. could be you.

i'm not trying to scare you into recovery, i know it won't work. but as someone who've been in and out of hospital her entire life because of her ed, i feel obligated to remind you, skinny is not worth dying.

you don't care for staying alive? you don't see a point to live? well then, let me tell you what's gonna happen. you're gonna be hospitalized when it gets worse and they're gonna put you on iv, put you on meds you'll have to take for the rest of your life and make you eat hospital food if you're lucky enough to not be tube-fed. when that happens you're gonna beg those doctors to just let you die but they won't.

i know you've seen people who achieved their goal weights but just because they look good doesn't mean their bodies aren't in a fucked up condition.

you see thigh gaps, right? what you don't see is memory loss, heart problems, loss of hair, organ failure and many more.

because there's no happy endings to eating disorders.

recover while you can.