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10 things I am thankful for

1. Finally being able to officially start toward my teaching certificate. 2. New beginnings in new places. 3. A man that loves me dearly and shows it daily. 4. Freedom in Christ. 5. Co-workers who are also friends and make work a joy. 6. Provision for all of my needs.  7. Growing pains. 8. Realizing I have grown so much in the past few years, and feeling satisfied with where I have come. 9. Great books. 10. Yoga.

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The best candy shop a child can be left alone in, is the library.

Maya Angelou (via bookporn)

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+Perpendicular

I saw you today. It made me feel like the world was spinning on the right axis again. I know we're perpendicular lines: our paths crossed once (it was glorious), but they can't again. I am learning to be okay with that.

I saw you today. You saw me, too. I felt bad, because I knew we would see each other and I thought you did too, but I don't think you knew. I'm sorry if I threw you for a loop - I didn't mean to. But thank you for smiling and looking at me like someone you could be friends with. Someday.

I saw you today. You were more handsome than even I remember. I looked at you more than I should have. It's just...I've felt like I'm forgetting what you look like, and that feels so wrong. I needed to remember. But I made sure not to stare...not like I used to.

I saw you today. You were so nice and polite and kind like you are. But you were quieter than you were. You seemed troubled, lost, crushed beneath some invisible weight. I wanted to lift it and lift your head and look you in the eye and tell you all the things I never got to say. I know so many things have decided to rest on your shoulders, in your head...I guess I'm up there somewhere, too. I can't be the one to save you, but I want to. I desperately do.

Do you know it takes all my strength to stay away from you? To deny it when everyone tells me maybe one day you'll come to your senses, you'll change your mind, you will suddenly love me? Don't they know that "we" died that night in your car? Don't they know how hard they make this? Don't they understand we're perpendicular lines?

On this long road of mine, you were my favorite intersection.

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"Then the time came when the risk it took to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." (Anais Nain)

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Sometimes what we think we really want, we don't. Sometimes what we think we want, we really don't. Sometimes what we think we love, we don't. And I am blind I cannot find the heart I gave to you

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Sometimes what we think we really want, we don’t. Sometimes what we think we want, we really don’t. Sometimes what we think we love, we don’t.

Ingrid Michaelson (via saccharine-musings)

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DUDE I HAVE BEEN THERE! IT'S THE BOMB!

Baños, Ecuador by Diego Jamman Cordova

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This song right now. </3

Nobody said it was easy It’s such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be this hard Oh take me back to the start

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I'm doing much better, but tonight I just really miss him a lot.

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How odd, I can have all this inside me and to you it’s just words.

David Foster Wallace, The Pale King (via audreydejarnette)

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The Jeopardy of Contentment - What Made Milwaukee Famous

So there you left me standing to fend for myself however But I'm holding up I'm pulling through I'm not sure what else you expect me to do But I won't deny that I'm taking it hard I'm taking whatever's available to me You see, that's just the way I deal with grief

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Black & Blue & Me & You

The Last Day was the first time

I saw your heart bare as you broke mine

You’d called it such ugly words

I didn’t understand

It was beautiful

All purple and black and blue and

Red, like crimson

The color of a bright life

A brightness that I thought I saw in your eyes

I saw in your eyes what you couldn’t see

When you looked back into me

The tear that finally rolled down your cheek

Will shine on the broken piece of me that I keep

Like a trinket, in my black and blue heart

A souvenir of the abstract art of

The everyday gore of living and learning to love

  You are beautiful

  I cannot say it aloud to you anymore

So remember what I said before the trap door

Swallowed up my words and my eyes and my heart:

  You are beautiful

You are bright

You are loved

You are art

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Scare Away the Dark - Passenger

We wish our weekdays away Spend our weekends in bed Drink ourselves stupid And work ourselves dead And all just because that's what mom and dad said we should do

We should run through the forest We should swim through the streams We should laugh, we should cry We should love, we should dream We should stare at the stars and not just the screens You should hear what I'm saying and know what it means

To sing, sing at the top of your voice Love without fear in your heart Feel, feel like you still have a choice If we all light up we can scare away the dark

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I will never regret or apologize for loving people with my whole heart.

I know that loving broken people will break my heart over and over. Days like I've had this past week, I may think I can't do it anymore...that I don't want to...but this is what You created me for. This is who I am...who You are in me. And You are the reason I can keep going, keep breaking, keep standing back up, keep breathing, keep loving unashamedly. 

I've felt like an empty shell this whole week. Hollow. Spent. Dark. But You are already pouring back into me.

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Most emotional soundtrack moment on Grey's Anatomy. And also a great song on a sad, rainy day.

Ingrid Michaelson - Keep Breathing

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want

Grass Leaf Pens by Zeup now in the Colossal Shop. 

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