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I am awful and I suck and I'm sorry. WTF self. Will be writing again soon. Life has been absolutely insane.

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WTF is Balthazar doing in my KDrama?!

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Lol at cooling an Angel Food Cake on a Family Business beer bottle.

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Just wanted to apologize for the lack of update to Centuries. Moving house has been absolutely draining and time consuming. Just about settled, but the wifi is still not up. I have the weekend off, so I should be able to get the next chapter out then or very soon after.

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Just wanted to let anyone reading "Centuries" know that I am still working on the next chapter, but I'm in the middle of packing for a move - and I have three kids at home, a more than full time work schedule, and I'm a single mom ... So. Time is not a thing I have a lot of. It will be out as soon as I can get the time to go over it again and patch some things.

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Atari 2600. Spent countless hours playing Burger Time and Donkey Kong on it at my aunt's house during Sunday get togethers. Original NES came shortly after.

This Wikipedia article has a more comprehensive list

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That I can write stuff like I just wrote and have it be in character with 14 when it just would not with 10 ... is so, so very cathartic. Yay character growth.

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If I had a nickel for every time David Tennant played a non human creature that is both non binary and pansexual, is in love with their vehicle and suffered more than Jesus because of their blonde love interest, I’d have two nickels

Which isn’t a lot, but man isn’t it amazing that it happened twice?

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brief recap of david tennant doctor who

welcome to doctor who thanks for coming to my ted talk

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i hope they keep david tennant and catherine tate on call just to have like, cutaway gags every so often. 15 will be running around trying to stop the daleks invading for the 27th time this week, fire everywhere, having the absolute worst day of his life, and it'll cut away to 14 just in the supermarket like 'Donnaaaaaaaaa do you want me to get the orange juice with bits in or without?'

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doctor who: a summary

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My writing would go so much faster if we'd just invented "brain-to-text" already. God knows I can't talk (to text) or type as fast as this mushy grey thing in my head can spin all these damn ideas.

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Chapters: 2/? Fandom: Doctor Who (2005) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: The Doctor (Doctor Who)/Rose Tyler, Fourteenth Doctor/Rose Tyler Characters: The Doctor (Doctor Who), Rose Tyler, Donna Noble Additional Tags: Reunions, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, The Doctor Loves Rose Tyler, Angst Summary:

Legends have a way of forgetting to be forgotten.

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All of this. Like, you can put the most aesthetically pleasing person in the room, and nothing. Crickets.

It took me so long to understand that women can physically react to seeing an attractive person. And that most do? I guess?

I don't.

Like I literally have to be batshit, over the moon, ridiculously in love with someone to even come close to entertaining a sexual relationship. To even get a tingle. And even then ... sex is so far down the list of priorities, it's basically non existent.

demisexuality can be so hard to explain because it’s misconstrued as you just wanting to trust the other person before you have sex with them. and I get why the misconception happens. But demisexuality differs in that there isn’t sexual attraction at all before that bond forms.

I think what people have difficulty with is the idea that there are people out there who aren’t experiencing sexual attraction at all until a certain point, if ever, because we’re taught that sex, libido, and sexual attraction are all the same, both in and out of queer spaces.

And when you’re learning about asexuality and demisexuality, you may learn that people have romantic and aesthetic attraction separately from sexual attraction, and that sexual and romantic attraction aren’t necessarily intertwined, and that may challenge your worldview on sex.

But “I trust you enough to have sex with you” isn’t the same as “I’m not sexually attracted to anyone but you, and the reason I’m sexually attracted to you now after we’ve established this close bond is literally because of the bond of trust we’ve been able to form”.

It’s easy to see how those can get conflated. On the surface, if you’re unfamiliar with asexuality, they may sound the same. But it’s important to acknowledge the difference between “no sex until I trust you” and “no sexual attraction unless I trust you and maybe not even then”.

Demisexuality is housed under the asexuality spectrum. It’s part of the gray area between being allosexual and asexual. It’s part of why the definition for asexuality includes “little to no sexual attraction”. It’s a mostly asexual experience with an asterisk.

While being demisexual may have impacts on a persons sexual activity, even demisexuals have a varied relationship to the act of participating in sex. Libido and sexual attraction are not always intertwined either, which can make telling the difference tricky.

I think of sexual attraction as libido that has a compass. Since I rarely ever experience sexual attraction, but do have libido, it’s noticeable for me when that libido actually has a direction to go, rather than being a floating, nebulous, independent thing.

Remember, not everyone is demisexual. There’s a difference between waiting to have sex and not having sexual attraction at all until a certain point. This also inherently ties demisexuality to romantic attraction and relationships, and not all demisexuals are alloromantic.

But if you read what demisexuality is and think “everyone is like that” or “that’s just being a woman”, you either 1) are demisexual 2) don’t understand what it is or 3) both. And it’s okay to not know. Just as long as you’re willing to try to learn.

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I THINK the chapter will be up tomorrow or early Monday. Sorry I'm so slow. I've so little time to write, but I'm trying. Hopefully that counts for something. lol

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I need to stop putting my spotify on shuffle when writing. Because it influences me. And then the cute little reunion fic becomes . . . more real.

In my defense, I did a fluffy one last time. Which isn't usually my thing.

So anyway, basically loose music spoiler - next chapter, the first real chapter, is heavily influenced by Linkin Park's "New Divide"

(And I feel like the chapter after will be influenced by Paramore's "Decode")

I'm sorry.

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Fun little UK slang I found while looking for UK slang for my writing:

Stoating

Stoat is a Scottish word for bounce. Stoating rain is so heavy that it bounces off the ground.

Can't use it for this particular fic, though I was SUPER tempted. Putting it here so I don't forget it.