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I don't know how to start this, talking about the one who made me write about my feelings again. It's been so long, I don't even know how to do this anymore. The fact is that I'm writing here so I don't write for you.

I keep reliving all those moments. The good ones. When you held my hands under the table so no one would see. When you kissed me for the first time and you jus couldn't stop kissing me all the way home. How you picked me up at my house that night and just blushed when you saw me. Everytime you watched me talking about something and you were really paying attention to me. It felt so real. I wonder where did you learned how to be such a good actor. Because I truly believed all this shit for months. I fell for the way you seemed to care about me, and the way you used to look at me. And the way you used to call me sweet names. And just how careful you were with me all the time. How can you just do all of this and then suddenly start to act like I never even existed? It haunts me every night to think about how and where and when and why it all started to go wrong. At what point I started to mean nothing to you. Did you ever really cared about me? I don't know how someone can be so warm and so cold in the next day.

It all went from 2AM laughing to 4AM anxiety tears. Have you ever stopped to think about how I felt while you were acting this cold? I bet not, because you were probably too busy thinking about yourself. Because right in the deep, you were always selfish, all behind that nice words. And I fell for it anyways. So that's how it ends. Long texts and painful words. And after all, I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I want you to feel sorry for yourself. I showed you all of me, I was so honest, vulnerable, kind and caring. And all that you did was disappear for no reason. At least right now I can see I deserved so much better.

I just hope I can come back here someday with better feelings and better words.

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Diversas vezes tentei escrever sobre ele. Nunca saíram palavras boas o suficiente. E sabe o por quê? Porque ele não é você.

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A gente sabia que não ia dar certo e mesmo assim a gente continuava. Era isso que eu achava lindo: aquela nossa teimosia.

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A gente sabia que não ia dar certo e mesmo assim a gente continuava. Era isso que eu achava lindo: aquela nossa teimosia.

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O mundo está acabando e você só consegue pensar naquela pessoa, aquela que não vai salvar o mundo de nada, aquela que é só um pontinho no meio de um mundo desabando, e você não se importa, você só pensa nela, porque pra você ela é o mundo e o mundo é o pontinho, e é você que desaba. Quando você acha que alguém é tudo, o que sobra é pouco. E você sabe, e só consegue pensar naquela pessoa, o dia todo, o dia todinho. O mundo que desabe.

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Chris, Jon, Guy & Will

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I just wanna say i missed my blog and a lot of people unffolowed me in the past months (or even years). SO, thank you for the ones who stayed. And hi new followers <3

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Mas é só saudade agora Que um dia vai embora Assim como você foi.

M. B.

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all too well // taylor swift

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