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I love being alone so much !!

I m so glad that I am at peace with myself to a point that I can have fun even if I m alone or lonely.

As a matter of fact I m so happy that I don't feel so lonely anymore.

I have done things in my life that I never imagined I would do.

I love this version of me.

The bold, fearless and confident version.

Does not hesitate, speaks her mind and enjoys her company.

I m so glad I do not let anyone else dictate my life or anything of that sorts.

I am just so proud of myself and my growth and the person I am.

I truly see my childhood self being proud of me when I imagine myself telling her my life stories and the crazy adventures I have been on alone.

I love my own company and my friends.

If it wasn't for the friends I met along the ride things would have been so horrific and bleak.

I love my friendships. They give me strength.

Which is why I keep saying that -

" There's nothing that I do not get from my friendships that a boy can offer me"

( so please stay away💀🫴 )

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This is definitely accurate xD

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I love my life the way it is but this depression is killing me.

I have everything I need in my life then why do I have a hollow heart?

A hole in my chest?

It's so tiring.

It took me 2 months to get out of it now.

I m scared.

What if it comes back?

I can't fuck my life more, I ve already done enough.

I need to get my shit together.

But I don't know.

Aaaaaaaa

I just wanna scream.

Disappear.

Something.

Maybe reconnect with people?

Maybe meet new people?

Sometimes I feel like I have changed so much.

I have evolved.

Matured.

Character development of sorts.

And some days I feel like I m just the same old me.

Broken in pieces.

And tired and suicidal all the time.

I have fought the urge till now.

I can fight it more right?

I am scared of intimacy.

Of commitment.

I like feeling wanted but I can't give myself to anyone.

No one feels worthy enough?

But ignoring them on their face feels so harsh.

But talking to them would feel weird.

I don't mind being friends.

I love meeting new people now.

I have met so many new people.

It's amazing to see them be themselves and be so open which is kind of inspiring too.

But why can't I be?

I am too but I always feel like there's a tiny part of me that's always hiding something

And I hate that.

I hate myself.

But I love myself too much

And I m glad that I love myself now.

I love the person I am.

The person I am to people.

The person people see me as.

And also how I look lol

I love everything about myself.

Except the broken part.

But maybe that's what makes me ME

And the day I fully learn to love that part of me too.

I will know I have excelled in life.

Until next time.

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I remember asking myself weeks before I even knew something like this was gonna happen.

After mustering up some courage I ask my friend,

"What is worse ? Losing someone or having this constant thought of knowing that you are going to lose them anytime now. "

I had no answer. Neither did they.

Until I held my mother's ice cold hand.

No warmth flowing inside her just my memories.

Somehow I got my answer-

And my soul filled with regret for not going home sooner.

But I truly believed that the longer I don't go back? The longer she' ll stay alive.

She cannot die without seeing me one last time right?

One last hug? One goodbye?

I have so many regrets.

Not meeting her was the gravest of them.

Nothing else matters in life anymore.

I' ll forever hold you close to my heart

And grieve forever.

Until we meet again.

Love,

Your daughter

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It's 8:30 in the morning.

I still struggle to fall asleep.

It's worse now.

Living is hard.

Surviving is hard.

I live with grief.

It doesn't let me sleep.

It follows me everywhere.

Creeping.

Haunting me.

I crave love.

I crave affection.

I crave your warm welcome hugs.

I miss and loved-

The way your eyes wrinkle and your nose scrunches up when you give me the fake pouty smile.

The way you everyday promptly at 5 pm called me to hear my voice.

How you'd ask me what my favourite dish is so that when I visit you can cook them for me

I miss sitting on the kitchen top talking to you for hours while you made them.

I miss how you pampered me.

Took care of me.

Tried to understand me.

I miss what we had.

I miss how we were.

I miss your voice.

I miss your touch.

Replaying your voice note over and over again ,

So that I don't forget your voice.

I'd give anything to have it back all over again.

I wish I could hold your hand one last time.

Now I m just a collection of your memories.

Pieces.

Broken.

Every time I look in the mirror I see a glimpse of you.

Shattered.

As long as the stars shine brightly in the night sky, you'll be there in my heart.

I love you.

And I miss you.

.

.

I wish you'd come back.

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The annual transhumance of the herd A set of risography I made last June for the Paris City Pop !

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Haylee Morice on Instagram

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JuliArtWorld on Instagram

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I often find myself asking this question -

" But why? Why do I love this person so much?"

And I have no answer.

My neurons are dancing in a mental flare with infinite number of reasons and I cannot pick one.

Why can't I stop??

I wish I could.

I am

Desperate

(-ly in love)

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Last Kiss, Taylor Swift

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losing a friend (for the one that got away) 1/3

part 2 , part 3

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I miss you so much....

It's insane how much I miss you. Lol

I know it looks like I m doing really well but I do miss you.

In my happiest moments I think of you.

When I m sad I think of you.

It's just how you said it,

I have tattooed your name in my mind and now everytime I think- I think of you.

I end up looking for your life updates...

I think there's some peace in knowing so?

I know you can't read this...but I m so so happy that you are doing the thing you love the most.

You have no idea how proud I am to see you pursue music.

I just know you'll do so well.

And I'll always be an invisible supporter.

I wish you all the good things in life and all the success.

God I miss you so much.

#open letter to an absent best friend from my life ig

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but i crumble completely when you cry... it seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye... i'm always just about to go and spoil a surprise, take my hands off of your eyes too soon...

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but i crumble completely when you cry... it seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye... i'm always just about to go and spoil a surprise, take my hands off of your eyes too soon...

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I was inspired by my friend (who isn't posting on social media--yet) who was doing a more painterly effect on a piece he was working on. I was fiddling with the colors and I really like how this one turned out.

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Clementine Von Radics, from In A Dream You Saw A Way To Survive; “The Fear”

[Text ID: “I am afraid / I will love you forever / and we will never be / in the same room / again.”]

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You deserve rest. You deserve a break. A day off. Hollidays. Weekends. An hour to yourself. Cozy evenings. Life is not about only being productive.