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If you’ve ever lost a parent, I wrote this for us.

Mood Tonight: Always Missing Mom

By J.A.S

Although I am not okay

And I know the pain will not go away

I pray to God each and every day

To help my love not to go astray.

To practice patience and keep my ❤️ warm.

To try not to get anxious when the thoughts swarm.

Understanding that many days are sunny and some come with a storm.

Knowing that still I’ll be able to ascend into my Highest form,

I practice gratitude to help ease my troubles.

I lean on my grand support system when I cannot bear the struggle.

Loss can be a maze, a puzzle.

I try to get the words out but I feel like I’m choking or wearing a muzzle.

Other times, it’s word vomit - so unsubtle.

I’ll continue to move forward and sometimes I’ll stop in my tracks.

Not letting the memories fade, so yes I will look back.

Supporting myself and my loved ones can become such a heavy stack.

But most importantly and until forever and eternity, I know spiritually Mom has my back ♾️

“Grief is just love with nowhere to go.”

🎂 Happy 65th Birthday to my Queen, my Angel, my best friend in Heaven. Forever celebrating you and the love you’ve always given. #428

*last year’s birthday pic ❤️‍🩹

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GO FOR THE LOVE THAT LOVES YOU BACK.

#lovergirl #tumblrbabe

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And to be vulnerable enough to reciprocate 💖🧨

“How amazing is it to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.”

— Nina LaCour