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someone stab me and/or punch me please and thanks

Guy who is touch starved but emotionally repressed goading you into punching him for completely normal reasons

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i love this sm

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123movies & putlocker provide more for the people of this country than the army has ever

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okay it was actually a pretty okay episode i kinda regret waiting so long to watch it

forcing myself to watch star trek season 2 episode 26</3 please i hate time travel so much it stresses me out so bad why is star trek always about time travel stop time traveling please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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i took like a 3 month long star trek break literally because of this episode i hate time travel so much guys when does the time travel stop 

forcing myself to watch star trek season 2 episode 26</3 please i hate time travel so much it stresses me out so bad why is star trek always about time travel stop time traveling please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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forcing myself to watch star trek season 2 episode 26</3 please i hate time travel so much it stresses me out so bad why is star trek always about time travel stop time traveling please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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In the car waiting for my mom. I feel like a dog someone please come break the window and let me out. I am going to start panting

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just finished breaking dawn part 1. honestly...these movies are kinda good. hated the second half of the movie tho. why the fuck did we name her renessmee why did we do that. also did edward fucking eat his way through bella's c section????? ig that's what they meant by "i dive in her cervix"

watching twlight for the first time wish me luck

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when a character has a shirtless scene and they have washboard abs and no sign of any belly fat not even a little bit

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okay why is this kinda good

watching twlight for the first time wish me luck

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watching twlight for the first time wish me luck

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i need to be shot but not in like a suicidal way i just think it would be fun. like the pressure from my head releasing UGH shoot me

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how dare you (i love this i love this i love this i love this i love this)

i think a lot about obsessive insecure hannibal constantly worrying about being good enough for will.

after the fall, still healing from their injuries, they're intimate for the first time. it was bound to happen, hannibal felt the tension building, knew it was a matter of time until they were both well enough. it had been so long, years of oscillation, revolving around each other, violently close but never enough to touch. he wanted it, and he wanted to make it good for will. will had never asked, never pushed, never touched him more than he wanted. still, the pressure to perform was enormous.

in their sweet touches, their heated breaths, all hannibal can think about is what if this is it. what if im not enough. what if this is the moment he realizes im not what he wants. that everything, this swirling intensity, their mutual destruction, their rebirth. what if the hunt was what excited him? and hannibal is prey that wasn't worth the chase. he must've touched molly like this, countless other women. maybe even other men. hannibal knew how to satisfy a lover, he felt no shame in that. but will wouldn't want that. he wouldn't want doctor lecter, in all his practiced perfection, his measured pleasure, his feeble satisfaction. he would know. he wants hannibal, in all his scars in weakness, here in this cabin at the end of the world, nothing but the two of them. no one left to entertain. he's not sure if he can.

the last person he was honest with, he was forced to swallow her whole, and any person beneath him who dared disturb his isolated world followed suit. everyone except will. undone by his weakness, forced to his knees in his acceptance, he is terrified of what might happen to his soft heart if we were to lay it in wills hands. terrified that rather than kiss it tenderly or crush it in his palms, will may not want it at all. disgusted by the gesture, bored by his desperation, he would set it down and leave it to the bitter cold. will was not a stranger to changing his mind, after all. it wouldn't be the first time.

hannibal wouldn't say this, he won't. he'll find ways to suck it between his teeth, make these first few times nothing but beautiful and good. he'll wait until he can control it, a whispered confession, with dry eyes. the overwhelming tenderness of their bodies, burning each other in the heat, the whispered praises under his breath. hannibal can't focus on it, his cock barely half hard from anxiety. he won't, he won't, he won't. he knows will's hands are stilling, knows he's gently asking if he's okay. he can't fuck this up, can't destroy this like hes done to them over and over and over. hannibal is ruining, soiling what they could be with his disgusted vulnerability, the pathetic juttering of his weak heart.

hannibal, with his endless cruelty, the ways he's picked and prodded and pulled at will. the way he's broken him, ripped everything from him and watched him twitch and convulse with nothing left. after all the wrong he has done, it can't be in this moment, that the childish desperation, that his weak, pulsating parts are when will has had enough. hannibal's humanity can't be thing that will rejects.

it bursts open, and he sobs, weak in a way will hadn't see him since will had been under him, bleeding out from his stomach, hannibal soaked in the rain. rather than being changed by will, maybe he was just broken. broken by his desire, his hunger so strong he ate himself from the inside out. he crashed against the current of the ocean, and shattered into the sea. would will still want him if it meant having to put him back together?

and will stops, hands hovering over hannibal as he winces in anticipation, certain that will must not want to touch him for what he is now. for the weakness that has rested in his heart, unseen and now grossly on display. hannibal screws his eyes tight, feels the hot tears dampening his cheeks, the shuddering in his shoulders. it feels like the absolute worst moment to be seen like this, regret twisting his stomach and burning holes into the image of their intimacy.

will's touches return, gentle and caring. consoling, kind. hannibal meets his eyes and they are watery with love. tears beading in his eyelashes, honored at the privilege to see hannibal in moments no one else has. not in a very, very long time. forever bestowed the role of his undoing. god, in awe of his creation as it lives under his guiding hand.

they lay with each other that night. quiet and soft, will's warm, course palm rubbing circles into his back, kissing away warm tears when they come. they don't say anything. will doesn't ask, doesn't push, doesn't touch him in any way he shys away from. will wants him all the same. wants nothing more than hannibal, hannibal, hannibal. in every form he comes in, in every outline he takes, in his strength, bloodied and wild, in his weakness, wilting and meek. so long as it's them, together, in every shape, fitting together, skin against skin, made whole.

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finished hannibal today. what the fuck. first off, I've been super super spoiled on the ending of hannibal, what was that??? like i knew they jumped off a cliff but i thought it was for sure they died and like everyone was being silly with all the "nooooo they lived, trust!!" but like the after credit scene with bedalia obviously implies they lived?? anyway i love this show and it's my favorite thing ever. I've gone back to skim through most of the episodes today (to find and re-watch my favorite scenes) so far my ranking is 1: will coming to hannibal's office after losing time in episode 9 season 1. specifically the line read of "no no I'm not abused" 2: hannibal and will's tag time murder of the red dragon the last like 10 minutes of that episode is written perfectly. i also love when hannibal says "so happy you chose life. suicide is the enemy." 3: after garret jacobs hobbs is shot in episode 1, when will is desperately trying to save abigail and hannibal walks in and puts his hand on her neck and lifts her head. in general i love all the scenes that remind us hannibal is a doctor but this is one of my favorites. 4: in episode 10 of season 2 (i think) when hannibal and will are eating "freddie" and hannibal goes "this isn't pork" and will replies "it's long pig" and they just kinda stare lovingly at each other. don't know why but i thought this was hilarious when i watched it. 5: when will kills randall tier in episode 10 season 2 (i think) and for some reason decides to take his dead body all the way to hannibals house to declare that him and hannibal are "even steven" and hannibal starts tenderly cleaning his wounds for some reason?? i love this show so much omg someone help me. i will be obsessed with this for the next month

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don't do this to me

Just thinking about Will, in this exact moment, hearing and feeling Hannibal's heart pounding and finally knowing the answer to his question, "Is he in love with me?"—that raw certainty hitting him firsthand. Like damn.

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wait why have a i never considered this

you know what. I am tired of pretending. spock has the mental profile of someone who would be into authority/paternalistic figures sexually