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Thinking about how Gansey really had a gun to his head in the first book and instead of freaking out, he just is like “Welp. Guess I am dying now.” that should have been my indicator that he knew the whole time. :( :( :( he tricked me

When it comes to Gansey and that gun, it's very telling that we don't sit in his head in the long-term aftermath. Because in the moment, he freezes and rationalizes and does what he can to talk Whelk down. All we really get (beyond him freezing and sitting in the aftermath, absolutely terrified, probably just having had a panic attack) to clue in how he feels is this:

"Could someone cut this hospital bracelet off?" he asked. There was something gallant and hectic about the deliberately offhand way he asked it. pg 338, The Raven Boys

This is so interesting, because he does freak out. It's just very very restrained. I always think Gansey values his decorum and outer image, and has this responsibility in his mind to be the one with his "shit together" if you will. As a character, he represses and masks and hides and often deals with his internal distress through helping the people around him. It's one of my favourite character flaws of Gansey, really. We see him shift into problem-solving mode in this moment, and the fact Blue is the one who hones in on how he tries for casual is so interesting to me. Because Gansey cannot fix the hole inside him, but he can fix the problems of everyone around him.

I do register this moment as one that is severely traumatic for Gansey (and his conversation with Adam about the gun Adam took is given extra weight considering they now both have a complicated relationship with guns), but the kind he'd not pay much attention to. He'll disclose this terrifically traumatic experience much like one would recount what they had for supper the night before. Much like his death with the wasps, Gansey will try for casual, because to some degree his mannerisms and his image are a shield.

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Haven't drawn these guys since I was 12...

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Where are you from

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my favourite vb frog 🫶

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I’m gonna do it! I’m gonna do the dishes!

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nature is healing

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Girl did you just quicksave

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absolutely amazing things happening right now. I had to triple check that these were real

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it’s so cool how the search function on every website, a technology that was essentially perfected over a decade ago, is borderline unusable now

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“At night, he’d sit on the end of Ronan’s childhood bed and meet Ronan in dreamspace-Ronan, asleep, in a dream, Adam, awake, in a trance.”

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ppl who celebrate fictional character birthdays are annoying pass it on

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Would you rather have a Phineas and Ferb summer or a Gravity Falls summer?

would you rather have endless fun forever or have satan attack you every day

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go on more walks. walk for no reason. walk to solve a problem. walk to blow off steam. walk to get outside. walk to listen, read, and learn. walk to escape distractions. walk to improve your health. walk to think. a simple walking habit can change absolutely everything.

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“it’s circus work.” not to me. not if it’s my monkeys.

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kagehina smooch

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steven is a really funny character actually. he never went to school. one of his powers is astral projection for no real reason. hes a musical prodigy. he was so traumatized by the end of the show they had to make an entire epilogue series about it. he spent seven years looking like a 3rd grader. he was even bisexual

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sin is actually really cool and good for you