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Also just in case anyone wants to know

My inbox is always and 100% open to any kind of questions or thoughts or just a ramble you have to share, especially about Genji but honestly any characters (or ships) from overwatch really!!

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Hey, fellow Genji fan. Want an angsty thought? Here it is: I was thinking about how young Genji was the partier and troublemaker. I thought about how he must have always felt like an inconvenience and a disappointment to both his father and his brother. And I wonder if that's why he insults his 'misspent youth' so much and feels ashamed of it

HELLO anon who is speaking right to my heart!! I adore angsty thoughts about my faves so much you don't even know ahhh! Honestly, thinking about Genji and his youth especially is one of my favorite past times, partially because I know what it feels like to be the younger sibling in a dynamic similar to his and Hanzo's.

And I wonder, how much of that misspent youth was a direct reaction to how he grew up? Because you could pose the lack of expectations put on Genji as a kind of freedom he had that Hanzo couldn't as the first born heir, but I think that sometimes ignores how frustrating it is, to realize no one expects anything of you. Sure, there's a freedom in not being bound that way (and that can be wonderful), but when so much is put on an older sibling and they rise to those expectations, excel in what they do, it's hard when you're doing the same things but can't reach that level. Or even when you can and do, but it doesn't really matter because they're the important one and you're just… there. Almost like an afterthought or an extra, it can feel like, even when you know your parents and sibling love you.

So, maybe all that frivolity, all the getting into trouble and his playboy-ish ways, was it a way of acting out? A way to gain attention, stand out from behind Hanzo? Or maybe that was how it started, but being a disappointment isn't all that much better than where he already was, you know, even if it's different. So maybe then, being young and having those feelings of being the family disappointment, of not being good enough, probably feeling like if not his father than surely Hanzo was ashamed of his behavior —of him,— maybe finding that scene, partying and playing around, felt like an escape from all that. Like finding a place with people that wanted him around, and either not realizing or just ignoring that it was likely far from genuine. Because at least it felt better.

And being In a scene like that, young and wild, it's hard to know what all he might have gotten up to, and maybe some of it are things he wishes he hadn't done. Now that he's older, now that he's grown and learned so much more. Things Genji thinks he should have done differently, that he should have spent his time on instead, things he had then that he only realizes now he should have valued more, maybe. (Like his relationship with Hanzo, whatever it may have been back then, was probably better than it is now. Than it may ever be again.) He may have made peace with his past and who he was, but he says himself he's not proud of that past.

(Regardless of anything, he is baby boy in my heart who did nothing wrong T^T I love every state of Genji, he is always so good and precious)

Genji is just, such a fascinating character with so much to think about (and break your heart over, while doing so).

Sorry if I kinda rambled a bit too much (or fell off the initial topic, I kinda used your ask as a springboard dsahjkhdsa), and thank you so much for this ask!! I love getting to talk about this boy, especially with someone else that's fond of him. It was a really nice surprise in my inbox!

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Some sketches of the junk boy <3

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Instead of brain there is...

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If I make another move, there'd be no more turning back

Because everything would change and all will fade to black

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⚠you scared grandpa⚠

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with the power of Spotify premium

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moira moira moira

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tbh blizzard peaked at ana’s design

(and I yet again drew the patch on the wrong side, of well lol too late now)

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The new junker queen skin 👀

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Lovey Dovey Ranyattra <3

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got a hanzo funko pop recently and now he has a little pedestal with my others

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Oops, my hand slipped ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

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May we seek each other for eternity

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you know what sucks

is wanting to post my silly shipping dynamic charts with some of my headcanons and stuff

but being too nervy to do it