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it's april, we're starving, we're losing weight, we look skinny af, good grades, life is good

manifesting this you guys we got this !!!

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Its hard to believe ur not here , i like to act like u never left .

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It never stops

After losing so much weight , after the constant restricting and workouts and diets and skipping meals , after getting that thigh gap and those hip bones and rib cage and collar bones that stick out through all my clothes , after having ppl wrap their pinky and thumb half way up my arm , I still hate what I see , I still want to change it , I truly thought losing the weight would make me happy , and sometimes it does , sometimes I wake up and I look in the mirror and I freely open my blinds not worried about someone seeing my fragile , dainty body , cause I know the bones that stick out r something to be proud of . But almost always , I’m thinking about food , about gaining it back , about how much more I could lose , about how light I feel when I’m hungry . I have no strength , I’m so weak , my spine hits the chair and sitting for 6 hours a day leaves my back bruised , I went shopping for new clothes and everything I wanted , nothing fit , I spend money on buying new things to continue to drop weight without meaning to , it just falls off now , I’m decaying , my teacher said to me once a while ago ‘ ur withering away to nothing , r u sure ur healthy ? ‘ I’d rather die than hear what he’d say about me now , my cheek bones stick out so far and the bags under my eyes cannot be covered with make up . I have learnt through my time , losing weight did not make me happy , it did not solve my problems , it did not make me more desirable , it did not improve how I felt about myself , losing weight took over every part of me , a normal dinner is a 4 course meal and I’m still going to hate the way my stomach looks when I sit down .

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i just want to be dainty

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Tennis skirts 🌸

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⭐️🌹💫Couples Thinspo💫🌹⭐️

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Maybe if you weren’t fat you wouldn’t be miserable everyday of your life.

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ART PRINTS BY KIJIERMONO

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