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They both reach for the light. Two sunflowers

Astaron reaches for a special, important light, the one inside his heart

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A sunflower always reaches for the sun. It is a flower of strength: it remains true to its source of warmth and light, even when it is far away. Its yearning for the light is repaid with a harvest and the strength of its roots. Like Spawn Astarion, he seeks not only the literal light, the way to walk under the sun, but something far more important: the light of happiness.

Reaching for the light is the journey of strength 🌻

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Quiet Happiness Headcanons

You and Astarion live tucked between forest and field, where the world feels slower, safer. A home built not for grandeur, but for healing

Home isn't grand, just a crooked little tucked into the edge of a forest, where the trees lean close like old friends

Astarion grows herbs in the window box. You teased him once "vampire gardener?" But he just smiled. It’s nice to make things grow.

On rainy days, he gets clingy. Latches onto you like a cat. "You’re warm" he mumbles, half-asleep against your shoulder.

Every night, Astarion lights a single candle before bed. For peace, for memory, maybe for hope.

He keeps trying to bake bread. He’s terrible at it. The kitchen ends up covered in flour, but you eats every lumpy loaf anyway.

Sometimes stray animals wander into their garden. Astarion pretends to be annoyed, but secretly feeds them under the table.

Astarion quietly shoulders the care of your clothes, stitching up worn threads in the soft hush of evening.

At night, the crickets sing, rain falls, or snow drifts down - and you and Astarion share this quiet happiness together.

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That hug scene in Act 2 means the world to me. It’s the first time Astarion allows himself to be vulnerable. He’s someone who barely knows how to trust, but here, he turns away, then slowly leans in. It’s not a game, not seduction, it’s real.

You’re there, not judging, not asking for anything. And you wrap him in your arms, and the warmth of your care speaks louder than words.

And he actually responds, not all at once, not completely, but little by little. Because there’s still a road ahead, a hard one, filled with fear and pain, but you have to keep going In that moment you realize: it’s the start of trust, something he’s never truly had. And this is the first true step - where the path, once hidden, unfolds beneath your feet like it was always waiting for you

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mwah

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His hand, despite everything, still warms me, just like his true heart

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Oh my god, I just found this, so heartwarming. I really need to find time for this.

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When Astarion sees the poor spawns behind the bars, you can tell something hits him hard. His face changes...

I haven’t been able to play his Origin yet, maybe I’ll find someone’s save file someday, but I watched on YouTube.

It’s like something breaks open inside him - not just sadness, but pain he tried to bury for so long. Yeah, it hurts. You can see it in his face. And something beneath the pain starts to wake up. - something real. He doesn’t hide behind jokes in that moment. He just feels it. And that’s the step toward something better.

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I have so many thoughts I want to share about Spawn Astarion. His story resonates deeply with my own trauma. I'm doing okay now (I'm trying), and I have a lot going on, but I'll do my best to keep sharing in my blog — my love, my pain, and my healing.

Trauma is always a long road. So I don’t know how long my energy will last for a blog. You keep overcoming it again and again. Walking different paths with slopes and climbs along the way.

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despite everything....

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does drow ever get like. cute aggression. for astarion or otherwise

Yes all the time

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It's time to start living again.

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just a nibble turning into a whole ass feast

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don’t talk to me till I’ve had my morning blood

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little lingerie shot, full and variations on P🩸treon

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go go little star