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how i sleep at night

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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so one of the high school buses flipped over and this was the picture they used in the newspaper

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A few seconds of peace.

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the tier art for my patreon — moon phase themed!

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GAVIN CREEL as CORNELIUS HACKL Hello, Dolly! on Broadway (2017-2018)

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it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

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sow without reaping tutorial

can i sow without reaping

why am i reaping what i sow reddit

is it normal to reap what you sow

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every moment of every day i am thinking about this tiktok

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narnia has actually way too many completely devastating concepts in it that are not explored At All

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Types of brain fog:

Brain is primordial sludge & you are drowning in it

U are a ghost and nothing is real

Mental equivalent of attempting to stream some high-res video game when all you have is dial-up

The thing you want to articulate is *right there* but you're just scrabbling at it like a cat continually failing to catch the bird on the other side of the window

The Void

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oh yeah? well [puffs out my feathers to make myself look huge and scary]

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the biggest questions detective pikachu answered

no one but professional trainers has a full team of 6 in the pokemon universe because it would be a fucking gigantic hassle to deal with 6 animals, let alone different types that need different things

some people don’t evolve their pokemon because imagine having a fucking cat and then you can choose to make the cat five times as big and strong. would you do this if you weren’t battling.

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if you've spontaneously become disabled be gentle with yourself. it takes time to adjust to your new normal and that's okay. it's not a race to refigure out your life, you have time. it's okay to grieve and it's okay to mourn, it is a loss. your life is not over and you can get through this. it's hard and it's unfair but you will learn to live again.

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watercolor beanie babies, spring 2024

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hamlet, bouncing onstage for his fifth unwanted soliloquy of the day:

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i feel like microwaves should prompt you, perhaps more than once, for confirmation if you try to full-power microwave something for longer than 10 minutes. as a safety feature