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[spilttearss]

can i request kurt cobain x gn reader sa comfort? if that's not too hard a topic

Sorry, I’m not doing requests yet. Maybe in the future after I finish my Kurt book I’ll do an imagines book and take requests but currently I’m more focused on building an audience over on Wattpad and completing my story.

Thank you for the ask though🩷 and it’s your choice but my Kurt story will have drama and much more if you’re interested. You can find it at; Starberrykiss.

[spilttearss]

All Apologies

Blue skies, birds and a sunny but cool day. Looking out into the unreal sky making it almost hypnotizing to see.

It feels like home.

The grass played a magnificent role too. Nicely cut and no bugs crawling around, littered with yellow daisies here and there.

I was sat on a red flowered picnic blanket, a familiar one that holds plenty of memories, waiting for someone. Soon, in the distance I saw that someone I was waiting for. There he walked all in his glory, his long blonde hair blowing in the wind. Of course in his standard attire wearing a shirt with a flannel and blue jeans (and of course his trademark Chuck Taylors High Tops), he had a guitar in tow and I knew that it was going to be something special.

"Hi..". He spoke shyly as he sat the guitar down and prepared to take his shoes off.

"Kurt..what took you so long?". I questioned with fake strictness in my voice. He watched as I eyed the guitar suspiciously.

He didn't answer me, but he smiled lazily.

"Told you, have a surprise". Kurt sat down right beside me picking his guitar back up. "Don't have high expectations, it's still a rough draft".

I rolled my eyes leaning over kissing his cheek, making him blush slightly. Of course knowing Kurt, he couldn't be the only one flustered so he repeated it back to me.

After messing around and trying to find the right tune. Kurts slender fingers started to strum.

As if in a dream, I felt as if I was being swept away, the way he played made me feel at home. When he started singing- was a different type of feeling.

Of course with the gruffness still in voice he opted for a toned down approach.

"Living in the sea, all apologies.

What else can I do? I'm in love with you

What else can I say? all my words are gray. What else can I be, all apologies".

Heaven sent, I felt as if my soul had been ripped away from my body as he finished singing.

When he finished, I felt stuck in the beauty of the day and in the beauty of him. Looking at him healed every wrong that went on in my life.

I gave him a mini clap with a big smile. He looked down also with a slight smile and started fiddling with his hands

"You can't keep doing this to me...". He suddenly spoke. Looking at him confused, I waited for him to continue. "It hurts to see you, you know...intoxicating your mind loving me. You gotta stop, you need to let go".

I rolled my eyes again, smiling at his incredulous words. I looked up once again, as the clouds slowly covered the sun...

I've never been the sharpest tool in the shed so I replayed his words in my head until-

"Kurt... what did you say-". Once my eyes landed on him, he held a somber and distant look. "W-what do you mean..let go?".

As if my words triggered the situation, the clouds that slowly covered the sun now fully covered them as the steel blue sky now held a dreary gray. The warm day turned to a harsh chill as the wind whipped around us.

"K-kurt?". I stuttered out as I looked at him. His face. Where it once held warmth, full of love and healthiness, now seemed to be a sickly pale. His eyes looked even more unfocused as he attempted to stare at me. He reached his hand out to me and without a second thought I grabbed on to his hand. As if he were to vanish if I didn't.

Because at this point, I knew he was.

"Nat, you gotta let me go..". Kurt's voice rasped out as if he lost all the air in lungs.

Though our hands remained steady and firm in each others grip, little by little some unknown force was trying to unclasp us.

"Nat...". Horse tears started to fall down my eyes as I violently shook my head.

I can't let go of him. I don't want to.

"Why do you always leave me Kurt?". I whined, like a bratty child. Kurt stared at me, lips seemingly disappearing in to a thin line as he held his words back. I know that look, he wants to say more. "If you have to tell me something, tell me!". I said with urgency as the wind got more violent.

Kurt tried to pull away, a gesture I didn't allow him to do, I knew what would happen if I did so, "This place is so beautiful... and so are you..". He cracked that same beautiful smile I've come to adore, his cheeks puffing up and drawing attention to his eyes. Eyes that held tears.

As if on cue, I woke up.

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Hello there! I have a new book out on Wattpad, it is called 'All Apologies' It is a Black fem OC x Kurt story. I am a nirvana fan and a lover of fanfics and so a year ago I decided to create this story.

This story is going to present very heavy themes (sex, drugs and more) if you are uncomfortable by all means please read at your own risk, my OC is a black woman so if you're uncomfortable with that then you don't have to read it and if you're uncomfortable with fanfics then idk how you've gotten this far. This is in no way meant to disrespect anyone involved!! I hope you all take a chance to enjoy and read my story it's a work in progress so I am still planning and releasing but I don't have a set schedule so unless announced there's no specific days for releasing.

Anyways, I think that's all I appreciate you for reading and I hope you'll stayed tuned my book.

P.S. I am not currently posting All Apologies on here, it's currently only on Wattpad (Though in the future I may post it on here but I just wanted to get my book out to more people:)