spinal-dystrophy

[spinal-dystrophy]

I’m such a weak little bitch, one fucking thing happens and my brain is suddenly wanting to seriously od like wtf. The antidepressants were helping but sure fine, one tiny little conflict and now the world feels like it’s ending and I should fucking die.

[spinal-dystrophy]

i would commit, but death is scary

[spinal-dystrophy]

I JUST WANNA CVT MYSELF

I can't handle feeling these feelings I need to cvt

[spinal-dystrophy]

me after telling my therapist im not self harming and i have no urges too. (im lying):

[spinal-dystrophy]

i just feel like i should be way more than what i am rn. i’ve always been so far behind everyone else my age, i feel like a failure.

[spinal-dystrophy]

I MISS CVTTING!!!

[spinal-dystrophy]

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[spinal-dystrophy]

i am completely fine in an “i have been mentally unwell for years” kinda way

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[spinal-dystrophy]

Why do I get so mad at people. I don’t want to. It just happens and I get mean.

[spinal-dystrophy]

I can't interact with normal mentally well people because I feel like a liar and i don't deserve them

i can't interact with mentally unwell people here because they have actual issues and I'm just a fucking poser

might as well rot alone

[spinal-dystrophy]

sane people so dramatic im just cutting myself your fine

[spinal-dystrophy]

You still don't see my point, do you? It wasn't my fault. It wasn't. It wasn't. It wasn't. IT WASN'T. JUST STOP, GOD DAMMIT.

[spinal-dystrophy]

"What's wrong?" Everything. Everything is wrong.

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i was almost someone good.

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no one can hate me as much as myself

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