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twenty hours in procreate and she looks just like… herself ig +

UMM TAGGING @kogane-twst @writingattemptsxx because I want attention *fluttering my eyelashes* I also want to tag Milq but idk if I’m allowed to </3

I’m gonna work on more expressions + an actual pose but I wanted to get this done first ! ^^. I also have a closed eye ver. but I prefer drawing her eyes open(canonically incorrect </3) because eyes are so fun!!! And I get to put stars in them which is all that matters actually.

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hihi! still looking to have a bit more spending money, so i'm throwing our commissions around again! thanks in advance!

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someone whos better with words then me could probably write an essay about the plural rep in slay the princess and someone probably has but i do just wanna mention it less formally becuase my GOD ive never related more to a main character in my LIFE THATS EXACTLY WHAT OUR SYSTEM IS LIKE

especially the one without a name who is always present and "always makes the decisions"??? THATS EXACTLY ME!! IVE BEEN IN THIS SYSTEM SINCE THE BEGINNING AND IVE ONLY HAD A NAME FOR A COUPLE MONTHS!! IM IN FRONT NEARLY EVERY DAY!! AND BY EXTENSION MAKE THE REAL-WORLD DECISIONS MOST OF THE TIME!!

not to mention how often i kept comparing the narrator to nightcrawler becuase theyre SO WEIRDLY SIMILAR (except the narrator makes more silly jokes)

other plural rep no matter how good or bad is never really something we can relate to much outside of the general concept of having multiple consciousnesses in one body so i am blown away by this game

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via ❥ komoricostume

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Why don’t we let the guy whose every plan could be reasonably construed as an abstract suicide attempt take a crack it

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hi so I made a thing…

IT TOOK ME LIKE A WEEK AND A HALf(<- was sick)(I STILL KINDA AM LET ME OUT!!)

WARNING: yap below

SO IVE THOUGHT AND LEARNED SOME THINGS

A. Omfg it’s so easier to draw on a tablet with a pencil IM NEVER GOING BACK GO USING MY FINGER OR PAPER I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD—

B. I made some minor changes to Luna here, mostly because 1. I can never stick to one thing 2. she’s allowed to change 3. idk I felt like it +

C. THIS THIS REFERANCE IMAGE BUT

C1. I don’t play Genshin impact I just found this and I liked the pose

C2. IM KIND OF WORRIED ITS AI BECAUSE AT FIRST I THOUGHT HER ARMS WERE LIKE A CHARACTER THING BUT LOOKING AR OTHER WORKS IT DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT???

D. THIS IS OBVIOUSLY NOT SPONSORED BUT I USED A DRAWING COURSE FROM 21Draw FOR THIS. Specifically “Digital Drawing in Procreate for Beginners”! It said to tag if you posted it on Instagram but I don’t use Instagram so I’ll just tag it here… IDK I WANT TO GIVE CREDIT WHERE CREDIT IS DUE

E. I’ve learned a lot of things!!

E1. The canvas is WAY too big, there’s too much empty space and that’s a no no.

E2. I NEED TO TAKE AN ANATOMY COURSE NEXT CLEARLY BECAUSE WHY HER SHOULDER LIKE THAT.

E3. GOD I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO SHADE HAIR.

E4. DUCK I JUST RWALIZED I FORGOT THE FRECKLES ON HER ARM IM KMS.

Ty for listening to me yap…

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I just spent 2 hours on this what the fuck

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I don’t know who needs to hear this but there is always a way to turn your fav character into a more disgusting immoral predatory version of themselves <3 never give up

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Whenever an ugly feeling arises in me, maybe resent, greed, insecurity, etc. I just have to laugh and think to myself, this is what being alive is and I don’t deny my capacity for ugliness, in fact I store my faith in it because that same awareness of my own ugliness is the place I go to when I am aware of my own beauty. I have all the time in the world to sort it out, that’s the thing with self trust. I don’t hide from others and I don’t hide from myself, where there is ugliness I observe it and I don’t turn away.

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weird rules, social expectations and Being A Woman

you know, something that really pisses me off about Society (tm) is how normativity is just so mindlessly, happily rewarded, even by the most tolerant of people. specifically (but not exclusively) regarding to gender expression.

i am a woman. i was born a woman, i live as a woman, i am perceived as a woman, and i even identify as a woman. ill admit i also have some gender fuckery going on in here, but my internal identity is, frankly, nobodys business; im happy to be assumed a woman, because i honestly dont care how others perceive me in this regard. but. this doesnt mean that i am happy to do the whole nonsense routine that is required to be considered a Real Woman by almost everyone in this god darn planet. i dont do makeup, i dont like to style my hair, i mostly stopped shaving, and you couldnt pay me to care about clothes.

my mother is always telling me about how pretty i am. growing up, i heard it all the time. you have such beautiful curls, if i had hair like yours i would let it grow a lot longer (thanks, i like it shorter tho). im so jealous of your eyes, they are so blue! (haha yeah, i was born with them). i bet this dress would look so pretty on you, why do you never wear skirts? (they just make me uncomfortable, i like my own clothes anyways). if you wore makeup more often you would look so much more beautiful (i like how my face looks, thanks). you should shave your legs, they look bad like that (you never tell [brother] to shave his legs).

it is infuriating. i hate it so, so much. i am a woman, not a doll to play dress up with. and if i have to pretend to be a human, the least that society could do is to just let me exist in peace! it drives me crazy that all this is even expected. worst part, it is fucking Everywhere.

this christmas one of my cousins got me a new pencil case. it is pink and green, and has some cats and snakes and bugs and moons drawn on it. it is beautiful, and although i wasnt too thrilled about the color, i figured it was cool so i began using it. one of my friends saw me take it out during class, said oooo [name], thats so pretty! and gave me a Look. i dont know how to explain it without sounding crazy, but i swear it was like she was saying, so now you like Woman Stuff! you know what Look im talking about, right? when you finally cave in and do the feminine thing, and its like everyone is so happy that youre finally filling your expected role in life. it is weird as hell. i dont like it.

but like, this is my friend, who supports me being aroace and autistic and IS BISEXUAL HERSELF! something something, leftism leaving peoples bodies when a gender non-conforming person does something that is stereotypically associated with their gender. idk, its a bit like dog training when you think about it for a second. in animal training (and i mean proper animal training, not beating your dog until it stops barking), good behavior should be rewarded, while bad behavior is supposed to be ignored so the animal learns to only do the good behavior. you do the feminine thing, and you get smiles and compliments; you stop doing it, then suddenly gender presentation doesnt matter. and this... training behavior is, of course, mostly unconscious, with its perpetrators unaware that theyre even doing it. if i asked my friend what she meant by that, she would say that she didnt mean anything, she just liked the case. if i asked my mother why do i have to shave while my brother doesnt, she would say that its just how things are.

its just how things are. its how it always has been. its how it always will be. so just shut up, smile, and pretend it isnt happening. pretend youre not being trained like a dog to salivate at the sound of a bell. it doesnt matter, it isnt happening, so why bother thinking about it? dont think about it. stop thinking about it.

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alternate kenorose/rosenkein flag for lil ol me :3

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posting this here since our poor main can't post in tags! commissions are open for the time being!!

lines / color / shade / full render:

icon: $15 / $20 / $25 / $30

halfbody: $20 / $25 / $30 / $35

fullbody: $30 / $35 / $40 / $45

+$10 per extra person color w/ rendering would be the same price as shaded

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i can also create custom character fusions from up to 9 chosen characters :3

can be ocs or canon characters; for ocs i will need a basic bio with a backstory/personality

let me know if you want me to also develop a backstory/personality or just focus on their appearance

icon (flatcolor): $20

halfbody (flatcolor:) $30

fullbody ref (flatcolor): $35

shading/rendering +$5 for any

will do OCs, canon, flat-faced furries, some fetish/nsfw (ask)

mecha can be attempted

no hateful content, no ferals

payment thru paypal or cashapp

contact via:

vesiamor (tumblr)

namelessblossom (bsky)

athenianrhapsody (discord)

rhapsodyxvi@gmail.com

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"You don't know me. I'm not the same person anymore."

"That's okay. I'll get to know you again."

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it's a beautiful evening to microwave silverware

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Think systems with a high number of fictional introjects are a new phenomena? Kluft's paper on polyfragmented/extremely complex DID from 1988 includes a patient with LOTR introjects, and another based off of Shakespear's Tempest. Fictional introjects have been a thing for a very long time!

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↦ withrosemojic -

an emojigender related to the withered rose (🥀) emoji. this gender may also be related to death/decay, flowers, nature, or roses in general.

requested by: nobody.

coined by: quinn/polonium <3

this is a recoin of one of the first genders i ever made!! the original flags are super crusty lmao. i’ve got a few emojigenders queued, so stay tuned :))