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Xie lian, to hua cheng: I love laying my head on your chest when you're sleeping so I can hear you breathe.

Mu qing, to Feng xin: I recorded you snoring so you can hear how loud you are and why I can't fucking sleep.

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feng xin and mu qing are making me feel insane. every time they are in a scene together it’s about them. the tension between them is more potent than any romance it is a character unto itself. they never even fell out directly. they have never talked about it. they are working side-by-side in the job they dreamed about while growing up together. losing the friendship is still so raw that they cannot have a civil conversation. it has been seven hundred years of peacetime and they still have to be placed on opposite ends of the room at every social event. the moment xie lian is back both of them show up at his sides and fall back into their old bickering dynamic. and don’t confront the other about it despite their shitty disguises. after 700 years of not speaking. can you begin to imagine how much love is there. how much grief. jesus fucking christ.

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dianxia you can't just say things like that

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Too far

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fengqing week day 1: first meetings 💖

when feng xin saw mu qing laughing like that for the first time, he lost the will to fight him for some reason...!!

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they brought out the fancy cups

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Some foreshadowing of FQ's precious friendship I missed before.

This means them working together looks exactly like them about to strangle each other.

It also means it's indistinguishable to Xie Lian, who both knows them best but also doesn't know them at all. Which is a reoccurring theme in the book, someone who is the most intimate with someone still not really knowing them.

Anyway, this literally means every time they've been seen arguing by third parties, they could have not been arguing at all. Can you fucking imagine. Seeing them at a table looking like they're hissing and barking and the end product is "...okay so we're getting the chicken and the eggplant." "And the salad." "Right, the salad, too."

Fucking maniacs.

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somewhere in time

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Protector

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joyride

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controversial trench coat man

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"i would die for you" this, "i'd walk through fire for you that"

what about "i'd live for you" romances? what about "i never thought i'd be worth the work it would take to piece myself together"?

what about "i don't believe i'm worth it, but for you i'll try"

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double black

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double black

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bsd beast lightnovel spoilers //

so,, i just finished reading beast and I am...damn that was so good, far better than I expected

there's so so much I want to say about it, and wish I had annotated it but instead I took a few pics of pages when I could remember to 😭

I don't think I'll ever be able to look at the scene in the anime where oda throws akutagawa over his shoulder the same ever again...the fact dazai actually did achieve death in this book,, the way dazai knew about the book and all the parallel worlds outside of the beast one...the scene where dazai said "for this is the only world where he's alive and writing" actually made me tear up. I think out of the whole novel that scene in particular really got to me, especially after the scene in the bar and dazais emotions are shown so clearly on his face when talking to oda, and just the whole explanation of the book and other worlds (including this particular world) when explaining to both aku and atsushi was just so well done

For me, I considered it rather that of a plotwist reading the whole book only to get to the end for that to be said. And asagiri's own notes at the end of the novel too...what if atsushi was a woman, what if the ada was on verge of bankruptcy, what if chuuya joined the ada alongside dazai when he first left after odas death? Like. Although this was an au, its events are still canon. They're canon because asagiri himself wrote it to show what if... and the fact he purposely has dazai mention the book and the other worlds...even when he starts clapping after shin soukokus fight saying "that's as good as, if not better, than the ship fight you two had"

LIKE?!?!? And the way asagiri literally confirmed that no matter how many au's there are...how oda is dead in every single one of them but beast...I'm crying. I could still go on and on and write actual essays about this book but yeah. I have so much more I wanted to say but my brain is so beautifully overwhelmed rn by the world and novel that is beast. All those thought aside, I would just like to also say how I absolutely love aku's character design in this 😭 his clothes were so well done...and his personality too 😭😭 I just loved this side of him

ANYWAYS after all that being said (I'm sure I have so much more I wanted to say too but I just can't comprehend rn,,)

I'm going to finally start stormbringer !! Time to cry from what I've seen so far 🫶🫶 I'm so excited to read it hehe, and I'm sure I will be even more gobsmacked after finishing that lightnovel than I was beast so 🤧 (I also posted this whole thread on twt lmao but I just needed somewhere to vent cause I have no moots to talk about this with let alone the lightnovels 🤧

here I go 🫡🫡 onto stormbringer

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Chuuya’s brief appearance in beast is so funny. He just kind of reads as “guy who is definitely sleeping with his boss. This is not plot relevant whatsoever.” to the point it’s like… why is he even here?