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absolutely hate it when the pleasurable activity procrastination hits. i’m going to do something fun that brings me joy but not yet. yeah, not yet. not yet. maybe i shouldn’t do it at all, it’s not that fun

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I'd love to but I have no idea if I can, I don't know London at all and would have to navigate on my own and figure out which trains and buses to take and it's probably gonna be super expensive. :(

Hi squad! There was a suggestion of a Thunderbirds fan meet up, and the London Museum of Brands (sorry Northeners) is putting on a Tbirds and Space 1999 Exhibition! We'll be there:

27th Sept (2025) from 12

If you fancy joining us! I'll bring prints if you have any requests <333 - Len

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Follow this blog.

For uplifting. For consoling. For reigniting hope. And bc you really so deserve all the good things. Your mental health is not your fault. But it is your responsibility.

hopepunk-humanity.tumblr.com

I appreciate your suggestion and I understand you're trying to help but saying things like "Your mental illness isn't your fault but it is your responsibility" while true, isn't helpful to say to someone in crisis and can make things worse.

I'm in the right mindset to be able to tell you today, luckily, but bpd is a very complicated illness stemming from childhood trauma. A big symptom of it is feeling severe guilt, shame, feeling like you're inherently evil and also breaking down over perceived rejection (RSD).

To someone with a brain like mine: "It's not your fault but it is your responsibility" will probably be taken as: "Control yourself, you're hurting people around you by being mentally ill, you need to shut up about your feelings because they're too much for anyone to handle, you need to hide yourself away, internalise it." Which yeah is going to make it worse.

So yeah, appreciate the suggestions (already following borderlinereminders, they're great) but please just keep in mind how this illness works while giving pointers and advice. :)

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i know u hate me bc i made it up in my head & believe it

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would rather get stabbed 100 times than be ignored

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i feel like im never going to win this battle im having w my mental health

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I want to disappear for a while. Maybe forever.

If this is life, if this is all there is - I don’t want it.

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I wish I could stop being so fucking annoying to everyone around me all the time.

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I didn't get a chance to thank you.

Thanks sm for attacking, it looks awesome. I'll have to get you back next year!!💛

Pony attack round!!

Two revenges for @brabaxie (x)

1st attack: Milky Quartz and Serpentine 2nd: Cereal Drop (left) and Zap Apple (right), with my OC Ambrosia (middle)

Left attack for @squiddokiddo's (x) character Seafoam

Right revenge for @priinnce's (x) character Magma (right), with my OC Cowfyne (left)

Left revenge for @liifr's (x) character Shooting Star

Right attack for Greenhouse_ghosts' character FoxGlove

And the final revenge (and also final attack) I did this year: CallMePenpai's character Nova

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My secret is that I’m actually hateful and unlovable

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I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

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i just want to stop feeling like a bad person for literally everything

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sometimes i really just wish that people could crawl inside of my head so that way they could understand how and why i feel things so deeply, and how just how big small things feel to me.

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I want to say welcome back but you didn't go anywhere and this is just a new sideblog so I'm gonna say happy new sideblog?? (;^^)

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Hi! My name is Franklynn(for now) and I’m a huge Thunderbirds fan! I discovered Thunderbirds around 4 years ago and it has not left my mind since

This account is for my Thunderbirds obsession and I will be posting my au stuff here!

I’m 19, genderfluid, panromantic, and aegosexual. Any nsfw leaning posts will be tagged with trigger warnings and hidden below the cut.

I have a self-insert oc named Pacicadia Icomb who joins international rescue. They’re basically me except pansexual. Everyone calls them either “Paz” or “Ico”, except for the Hood(who they tame hehe) who calls them “Ici”

I’ll be posting my Thunderbirds ideas, art, and au lore on here!

I also have a silly style I use for most of my Thunderbirds art because I used it to get me out of art block and now I’m addicted to it…

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@spectre-0ne look it’s your pookie

It’s finally finished

After 19 tracked hours, it’s FINALLY finished

I don’t try doing stuff like this that much, and it’s not exactly what I hoped for, but I think I gave it a good go

I’m VERY happy to be done with it, now I can draw other stuff without guilt

+bonus version and stats ^^

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A few years ago, I made some redesigns for the main six which are now extremely out of date compared to how my art style has changed so I decided to re-redesign them again lol. Here's our favourite nerd horse!!📚✨

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Throwback to when I de-coded this random storyboard shot.

Thundernerds! I was watching a behind the scenes video and we have a breif shot of a story board for series two! I have no idea what any of this is, but I thought it’s worth a look at.