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[11] YOU’RE MINE ~ K. HJ

jealous!fwb!hongjoong x drunk!fwb!reader

plot: jealous after seeing another guy flirt with you, hongjoong, makes it his business to claim you as his... | wc: 2.4k | cw: minor angst, drunk sex, smut,

To describe your relationship with Hongjoong, plainly, the best description would be that you hate each other but you love fucking each other and outside of that there isn’t really anything else.

That might sound terrible, but that was the glue to your situationship that started after he experienced a rough break up.

Though, you had developed feelings for him, you buried them within the depths of your soul to keep from getting hurt. He never showed any interest in commitment and you wouldn’t dare make a fool of yourself by confessing your feelings for him like an idiot.

Either way, you always felt confused when he would show signs of possessiveness. Anytime you’d start talking about a guy you found attractive or when some stranger would hit on you, there he was, giving you a smug look.

He'd stir up a storm, changing the topic or ripping you away from the situation like a jealous boyfriend only to remind you later that, “This is all just for fun, y’know that, right?”

Hearing that hurt more than you dared to admit. In the beginning, it wasn’t so bad, but after almost 4 months of this emotional torture, you’d had enough. Tonight was his chance to prove to you if he was serious or not.

It was Friday night, the end of the week, and the perfect time to stay out all night clubbing. You made sure to wear the skimpiest, sexiest, black mini dress that was almost too high. You slipped into a pair of heels you planned on kicking off for the first guy to sweep you off your feet.

Even though you showed up alone, you knew that's not how you'd be leaving. Whether it was Hongjoong or a random stranger, after tonight, you would know for sure what it was that he wanted. No more confusion, no more questions.

You took an Uber to the club for two reasons. One, you didn't feel like driving, and two, you didn't want to leave your car outside at a club overnight. You walked inside, not surprised to see Hongjoong raving at the bar, taking shots from some random girl's tits.

You rolled your eyes as he didn't even notice you walking in. You walked to an empty table, scoping out the dance floor. It wasn't long before you ordered yourself a small glass of water, just something to sip on before you got ready to break a sweat.

"What's a beautiful girl like you doing sitting here all by yourself?" you looked up from your drink to see a handsome stranger. He was definitely taller than Hongjoong but looked around the same age.

You could smell the liquor on his lips as he hung over you. You smiled, tucking your hair behind your ear as you lazily stirred your drink with the opposite hand.

"You're more than welcome to sit down with me if you like," you smirked as he matched your expression. "I'd love the company."

"I'd rather see you out there on the dance floor," he leaned closer, whispering in your ear as the loud music surrounded the two of you. "Dancing right next to me."

"Hmm, I don't know," you hummed.

"What? Do you have a boyfriend or something?"

"Maybe I do," you raised an eyebrow. "Or maybe I don't," you tilted your head to the side. "I don't think you care either way," you smiled.

"Sooo, is that a yes?" he chuckled nervously.

"Yeah," you nodded. "Let's dance," you grabbed his hand as he led onto the dance floor. Strobe lights flickered around you. The smell of sweat, liquor, and ecstasy filled the air as he turned your body away from him.

You grinded against him as he held his hands on your hips. You swayed left and right as you felt his breath on your neck. You raised your arm to wrap around his head as his lips left soft kisses on ur shoulder.

Though you enjoyed the thrill of new people, you desperately craved Hongjoong’s heart. You wanted him to want you as bad as you wanted him.

“Hey! I’m gonna go get a drink,” you shouted over the thumping club music.

“Okay! I’ll come with you,” he hollered back, grabbing your hand as you weaved through the crowd of entranced intoxicated bodies.

“Hello~” the bartender hummed as he whipped in front of you. “What can I get for you two tonight?”

“I’ll have whatever she’s having,” the guy smiled.

“Alrighty,” the bartender nodded. “What’ll it be for you, Miss?”

“I’ll take an espresso martini with an extra shot of simple syrup,” you smiled. “I like it sweet.”

“Okie dokie, and is there anything else I can get for you tonight?”

“No, that’s all. I just need a little picker-upper,” you reached into your mini bag to pull out your phone.

“Oh no, I’ll pay,” the stranger smiled as he handed the bartender a $50. “Keep the change,” he nodded.

“You didn’t have to do that,” you smirked.

“I know, but I wanted to,” he sat next to you as the bartender worked on your drink behind the counter.

“Okay, well now I feel like I should get to know a little more about you. How about you tell me your name, that way I don’t come up with one for you.”

“Come up with one for me? What do you mean?”

“Like a nickname.”

“Hmm, what if I like the nickname you give me,” he smirked.

“You want me to call you Fifty?”

“Huh? Why hold you call me that?”

“Because who in the hell would drop fifty dollars on two cheap ass martinis?”

“Hey, these may be cheap, but they’re delicious. Especially when I make them,” the bartender smiled placing your drinks on the counter in front of you. “I even added some extra cold foam.”

You couldn’t help but laugh a bit at his remark. “Well I’ll have to see for myself,” you smiled, taking a sip of the cool caffeinated drink.

“How is it,” he asked, clenching his teeth into a nervous smile. You could tell he was anticipating your response so you decided to tease him a bit.

You paused for a moment, clicking your tongue before glancing down at your drink. You licked your lips where you felt the foam stop and looked up at the barista. “You’re right, it’s very good. Probably the best I've ever had," you smiled.

"Definitely, the best you've ever had," Fifty winked as you sipped from your drink again.

"I'm glad you like it," the barista tapped the bar before standing up straight. "As much as I'd love to stay over here with you guys, I'm the only guy staffed tonight and i have some rather unpleasant guests requesting my services," you looked over to see the rowdy bunch he was referring to before Fifty blocked your view.

"We should hang out more often. You seem like an amazing person. And you have great taste," he extended his glass in your direction, waiting for you to clink your glasses together.

"You're not too bad yourself," you smirked before tipping the glass to your lips.

You lowered the glass, fixating your gaze on your unexpected date after taking a sip, only to be met by Fifty’s thumb, gently swiping the top of your lip.

You felt your face warming up as he locked eyes with you. Not a moment passed before he pulled you in for a kiss. You hummed as you felt his tongue wrap around yours. The kiss was wild and sexy, you could feel the desire all over him as he held your face in one hand and explored your body with the other.

You were overwhelmed with feelings of ecstasy. Nothing could stop you from going all the way in this moment. Surprisingly, Fifty had managed to take your mind completely off Hongjoong, your whole reason for getting things started with him anyway. That was until, he rudely reminded you of his existence.

“Hey! What the hell is going on here?!” Hongjoong shouted, pushing Fifty off of you and pulling you behind him.

“Sorry, but who are you?” Fifty asked. You could tell he was irritated, but he didn’t want to make a scene.

“I’m her boyfriend, Asshole!”

“Look buddy, I thought she was single, I never would’ve made a move on her otherwise,” he walked forward and placed his hand on Hongjoong’s shoulder.

“Go fuck yourself,” Hongjoong spat, shrugging his hand away. As badly as you wanted to bring up the girl from earlier, you could tell that he was already pretty upset and you didn’t want to add to the fire.

This is what you wanted, isn’t it?

Hongjoong wrapped his arm around you as he guided you to the back of the club. You mouthed the words “sorry” to Fifty as you left him behind. Surprisingly, the look he gave you was more comforting than you expected. He shrugged slightly mouthing “it’s okay” as you trailed out of sight.

He brought you into a dimly lit single-stall bathroom and locked the door behind you. He pressed you up against the door immediately after he twisted the lock. He grabbed your wrists, pulling them together before lifting them above your head.

There was something about this position that made you feel completely vulnerable to him. When he held you this way, everything was exposed to him, and his tight grip reminded you just how much control he had in this moment.

"What were you trying to do out there, huh?" he asked, leaning close to your neck, clamping down on the soft flesh as you whined from the sensation of his teeth digging into your skin.

"Ah-I-" you struggled to form a coherent sentence as he sucked on your neck, gripping your tit in his free hand.

"Were you trying to make me jealous?" his question hung in the air for a bit. "Because it definitely worked," he smirked, pulling your dress up over your tits. He left marks all over your tits as he toyed with your wet core. You squirmed as he stimulated your clit, he was definitely enjoying marking up your entire upper body, but you could tell that he wanted more.

He released his grip on your wrists before dropping to his knees. He pulled one of your legs over his shoulder after ripping your panties off. You moaned as he closed his lips around your pussy. You felt his tongue inching its way into you as he rubbed his thumb against your clit.

He wasn't there for long, though. He gave you just enough to get you started. He stood to his feet again, unbuckling his pants as he kissed you. You kept yourself busy, inserting two fingers into yourself, humming as he pushed his tongue past your lips.

"I'm gonna make sure you don't forget who you belong to," he whispered before lifting one of your legs. You gasped as you felt his stretching you open. You looked down to see his length gliding into you before he covers your mouth.

You let out a muffled groan as he bit your neck, gripping your ass as he pumped into you. You'd had rough sex with him before, but this was unlike any other time. You panted as he moved his hand away from your mouth, readjusting his grip on your body as he fucked you.

You combed your fingers through his hair, pulling it back to see his face as he fucked your sloppy cunt. He caught your sleazy gaze, taking a slight breath before lifting you completely off your feet.

You gasped as you felt yourself inch slightly down the door. You wrapped your arms around his shoulders as he pressed your body against the door. Your body trembled as he fucked you faster in this position, and with your legs up like this, your pussy was tighter than usual.

You couldn't control the moans that escaped your lips as you felt your walls flexing around him. "That's it baby," he hummed as you were nearing your climax. "I wanna get you off right before I fill you up," he smirked.

"Wait, but," you choked on your words as he slammed into you. "You're not wearing a condom," you winced as he began to suck on your neck, clamping down hard enough to leave teeth marks.

"I know," he smiled, kissing the spot where his teeth were. "Don't worry. I'm just gonna make sure you're mine," he hummed, slipping one of his hands between your legs to stimulate your clit as you came all over him.

Your legs were still shaking as he filled you with his cum. Surprisingly, it was so much that it dripped out of you as you clung to him. He let you down slowly, one leg at a time, as you found your balance. He softly patted your head before kissing your cheek.

"I wish I could've came inside of your pretty mouth," he smirked, gliding his thumb across your bottom lip as he gently held your chin.

You were speechless. Not a word came to your mind, and not a word came out of your mouth. You blindly reached down to wipe the trail of cum from your thigh before looking back up at him.

He took your two fingers and put them into your mouth. "I guess that'll have to work," he chuckled.

As you were leaving the bar with Hongjoong you felt something graze your arm. You looked back to see Fifty handing you your handbag. "Wouldn't wanna forget this," he smiled warmly.

For a second it felt like time had stopped. You couldn’t believe that he was still here. Still waiting. For you…

You quickly nodded in his direction, careful not to draw too much attention to yourself. You didn’t want Hongjoong getting all riled up again.

Time started ticking again, and you became aware of the blaring music that surrounded you. His words replayed in your head. The way his voice was so gentle. He was so different from the rowdy, bad boy, douchebag you had come accustomed to.

“Would wanna forget this,” you heard again…

He was right...everything was in that little bag. Your phone, your lipgloss, your ID, your money, and one more thing that you didn't find until you made it home...

His phone number...

𝒦𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓉𝑜𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝑀𝒶𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉

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MERRY CHRISTMAS❤️💖 🥰🎄🎁

*for those of you who celebrate it*

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what happened to theres no a in cheer? ☹️

I am currently boycotting RIIZE bc of the whole Seunghan situation. I know some ppl r gonna think I’m stupid and say that it won’t change anything, but I personally cannot continue to support a wishy-washy band.

I have cancelled all of my RIIZE fics as of now and have decided not to write for them. However, whenever I choose to start writing for them again, everything will resume.

I know you’re an anon, but if you’d like to be notified when that particular series starts again or if I rewrite it with a different kpop idol, just send me a private message letting me know. I can assure u that ur identity will remain concealed and u will not appear on any taglist without your consent.

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[10] GOOD BOY ~ L.YB

needy!felix x horny!reader

plot: after waking up horny as fuck, you strike a deal with your best friend Felix that he can’t pass up… | wc: 1.4k | cw: smut, situationship, cuddling, tit sucking, pussy eating, kissing, pet name

Felix had called you over late last night, and even though you didn’t do anything, you ended up sleeping next to each other.

The two of you started a sexual relationship about 2 months ago after one too many drinks led his dick inside of you. You couldn’t say that you hated it, and that was the reason it kept going.

Even though you could agree that he was cute and sweet, a relationship was the last thing on your mind. All you wanted was sex. And you made that very clear. So you found it strange when he called you last night just to sleep with him.

You woke up to see him nuzzled into your chest with one hand reached under your shirt, cupping your tit.

Finding his plump pouty lips and peaceful countenance somewhat attractive, you turned your body in his direction, wrapping your arm around him to play with his shaggy blonde hair.

You watched as his eyes fluttered open from your touch. “G’morning,” he hummed.

“Morning,” you smiled gently as he pressed his nose against yours. You felt his hand give your tit a gentle squeeze before he retracted it.

“Sorry for calling you over so late last night…I just didn’t feel like being alone.”

“It’s okay,” you shrugged.

“Thanks for coming…I really appreciate that,” he smiled before pecking you on the lips. “I’m gonna go to the bathroom real quick and I’ll be back, okay,” he pulled the cover off of his body, climbing out of bed, before walking down the hall.

You couldn’t understand why looking at him seemed to turn you on so much but all you could think about right now was watching his pretty face get pussy drunk for you.

You reached your hand between your legs before circling your clit. You touched yourself while keeping that thought in mind, you pulled your fingers back, spitting on them before pushing them through your entrance.

A little part of you felt guilty that you were pleasuring yourself in his bed when he didn’t seem to have any sexual intentions, but the horny demon inside of you wanted him more.

“Hey, what’d you want for breakfast? I’m cooki—“ Felix paused in the doorframe as he saw you on his bed, laying there biting your lip with a lustful expression on your face. Soft, breathy moans escaping your lips.

“C’mere,” you hummed, directing him with your gaze.

“What’re you doing,” he asked, knowing damn well what was going on underneath that blanket.

“I hope you didn’t think I was gonna leave without getting off at least once,” you bit your lip, catching a moan in your chest. You watched as he pulled the covers back to see your fingers buried deep in your pussy.

“Can I…uhm?” He stuttered.

“Yes,” you shook your head, pulling your fingers out as his replaced the spot. You brought your fingers to his lips as he sucked your juices off, moaning just from the taste.

You looked over the edge of the bed seeing his dick hardening through his pants. The sight made you even more horny as you watched him lick his lips. But it also gave you an idea.

You watched as he pulled his fingers out, sucking them before pushing them back inside of you. Just as he loosened the string on his sweatpants you stopped him. “Ah ah, since you didn’t fuck me last night, you don’t get to fuck me now.”

“B-but I—“

“Nope. I want you to get me off and if you do a really good job and make me cum, THEN I’ll let you fuck me,” you smiled.

“Hmm…okay,” he hummed before going under the covers to lick between your legs.

“Mmm,” you moaned at the textured sensation of his tongue. He climbed over you, hovering over you as your legs raised. He leaned in to kiss your lips, pushing his tongue into your mouth as he dry humped you, moaning as he satisfied himself and you at the same time.

As good as it felt, you had to keep him in line. You grabbed his chin, stopping him in his tracks. “What do you think you’re doing, huh? You’re supposed to get me off first and then it’ll be your turn. Not before.”

“I-I know but I just—“

“You were trying to find a loophole,” you chuckled as he pouted before raising his hips up.

“Spit in my mouth,” he hummed.

“What?”

“Spit in my mouth, please,” he opened his mouth, eagerly waiting for your saliva. Fuck, whenever he said please like that you just wanted to ride that pretty boy until he cums all inside your pussy.

Just the thought of feeling his body shake beneath you was enough to tell him to just use his dick right now.

But those weren’t the rules…

You spit onto his tongue as he pulled it into his mouth, crawling back between your legs before spitting directly on your clit.

You were using him to play out the fantasy in your head and it was turning out better than you expected.

He sucked on your clit, pulling his fingers in and out as wetness dropped down to the sheets. “Mmm, you’re so fucking wet,” he hummed as you felt the vibrations from his voice.

He pulled his fingers out, using his thumb to stimulate your clit as he slipped his tongue in. You felt it worm up inside of you as you threw your head back, moaning with pleasure.

“Do you like that?” He asked, licking your entrance.

“Mhm,” you nodded as he lowered his head and moved his tongue faster. “Uhnn, fuck baby,” you moaned. He moved his lips, pushing his fingers back in before raising your shirt to suck on your tit.

“Ngh!” You raised your chest as you felt yourself about to cum.

You felt the warm wetness of his lips sucking on the flesh of your chest as he fucked you harder and faster. A high-pitched whine escaped your lips as the feeling intensified. “Fuck, you sound so pretty,” Felix cooed from between your tits as he moved up to your neck.

“Please cum baby so I can fill your pretty little cunt and watch it drip out,” the way he was talking to you right now made you want to cum immediately, but you wanted to enjoy the feeling for a bit longer.

He lowered down as he gripped onto the outsides of your thighs. He squeezed them as you gripped onto his hair. His nose grazing your clit as he moaned with every lick.

You pulled his head up to see your release all over his face as he stuck his tongue back out before going down on you again. He kept eye contact with you as you moaned, cumming hard as your body shook.

He held your lower half in place as he kept licking and sucking your pussy to help you ride out your orgasm. “Good boy,” you patted his head as you caught your breath.

“Now can I fuck you?”

“Yes,” you chuckled as he quickly pulled his pants down, slamming his dick into your pussy.

He grunted as he pumped into you quickly, gripping your hips and raising them to angle your hole with his dick. He lowered your body back onto the mattress as he pressed onto your lower abdomen. You felt his dick going in and out of you as he panted with broken moans escaping his lips.

You couldn’t help but moan with him as he used you like a sex doll. He leaned forward, pulling your legs back and fucking deeper into your throbbing cunt. He whined as he came inside you, pumping faster as he filled you up.

You pushed his cum out, causing it to drip down your ass as he pulled out. He plopped down next to you as the two of you laid next to each other.

“_____,” he called your name.

“What?”

“Can I tell you something…”

“Sure.”

“I hope it doesn’t make you feel weird or anything…”

“Just say it already.”

“I can’t cum without you,” he lowered his gaze as you looked at him.

“What…”

“I don’t know why…I just can’t do it unless you’re here with me…”

You knew what this meant, but you didn’t want it to be true.

“I think it’s because…I like you…”

𝒦𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓉𝑜𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝑀𝒶𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉

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[9] • WHY DO YOU HATE ME? - H. KAI

skater!bully!huening kai x loner!junkie!reader

plot: working alongside your ex-best friend, who's also a full-time asshole, turns hot after a heated conversation... | wc: 3.9k | cw: angst, mentions of death and suicide, drug and alcohol abuse, other sensitive topics, smut

From your point of view, life continued for three reasons;

1. For your family…the only friends you had.

2. Another episode of you current obsession, and

3. The next cigarette...or cancer stick as your next door neighbor liked to call it.

Sometime your third reason helped you the most. One puff relived the stress and every one after that made life a little easier. Oftentimes, smoking was like an escape for you. A way to cope with the shitty hand the universe had dealt you.

You lived in a cheap apartment. And all of the money you made was split between you and your parents. There was a shared belief in your family that the children should take care of their parents when they move out. Assisting in whatever way they could.

This belief is what compelled you to send money to your family. It wasn’t a burden. You knew that if you ever needed a place to stay that you were always welcome back home. The only problem being that you couldn’t shake your smoking habit. And that was the reason you had to go in the first place.

You seen all the stupid YouTube videos about what happens to your lungs when you smoke and how much money you could save if you weren’t buying packs of cigarettes weekly, but none of that mattered to you. After the death of your only friend near the end of senior year, life seemed almost impossible.

Meaningless and empty without Eve by your side.

You held onto those three reasons because everything in you wished for one more day with your friend. Just one more day to tell her how much you loved her. And at this point, the sweet taste of death was the only thing separating you from her.

You grew up as an only child for most of your life. By the time your mom had your little brother, you were already 14 years old. Around that time you met Eve.

You had just started high school and up until freshman year, you were known to be a loner.

You walked into your first class of the day, sitting in the chair furthest to the back of the classroom and that’s when you met her for the first time.

“I’m Eve,” she smiled, extending her hand to you. The two of you were like complete opposites. She was warm, cheery, and full of life. You on the other hand felt like the world had been against you since birth.

One more detail about Eve is that she was a huge chatterbox. Since the two of you rode the bus together, you never felt alone. The darkness that was your life felt a little brighter with her around. Even your mom noticed the positive change in your behavior.

“You sure look happy,” your mom raised her brow as you looked at your phone.

“Yeah, I met this really cool girl at school today. Her name is Eve,” you smiled.

“Well maybe you should invite her over sometime. Anyone that can make you smile like that must be really special.”

And she was…Eve was really special to you.

You could talk to her about anything. She wasn’t just an expert at talking, she was also a great listener. Sometimes her advice wasn’t the best, but you were both kids at the time.

You just wish that she would’ve talked to you the day before…she killed herself. You always blamed yourself for her death. There had to have been a sign that she was hurting, but maybe you were too selfish to see it.

You had both started senior year together and all you ever talked about were how the two of you would move out together and graduate from the same college. You saw a life with her…and all of that was over in one night.

You think about it every day. What makes it even worse is that your co-worker is the biggest asshole you’d ever known.

You were never brave enough to stand up to him. Maybe because you felt like the fight just wasn’t worth it. But he knew Eve too. The three of you were friends before her death. Your past friendship is probably another reason why you wouldn’t speak up.

When you really think about it…a lot changed after she died. You started smoking and Kai seemed to hate you for no reason.

You never knew why…

“You’re locking up tonight,” he said as he slammed the cash register.

“What?!”

“You heard me,” he spat, turning to you. “You’re locking up tonight because I’m heading out early.”

“Are you fucking kidding me? I have a life too y’know.”

“Do I look like I care?” You stared at him blankly before he continued, “Exactly, just do what the fuck I told you,” he swatted his hand before walking to the back to grab his things.

“You can’t expect me to do all of this by myself,” the gas station you worked at was extremely understaffed and you two were often the only ones at work.

“You can handle it,” he leaned down, picking up his skateboard before heading toward the front door.

“This is so fucked up,” you slammed you hand against the counter. “You’re such a fucking dick,” you mumbled, rolling your eyes.

“You know what’d be really fucked up?” He asked softly walking back over to the register. “If you had a little accident at work,” he tilted his head to the side. “It’d be pretty hard to come to work if you slipped and hurt yourself. Wouldn’t it?”

You lowered your gaze, afraid to say something stupid and not in the mood to hear anymore of his threats. You knew better than to push him…he’d done a number of things to torture you.

You thought back to the one time he took your phone and locked you in the storage closet over night because you wouldn’t stay after hours and wax the floors.

You watched as he walked out with his skateboard tucked under his arm. You sighed deeply, striking your lighter as you lit your cigarette.

You parted your lips, letting the clouds of grey smoke fill the air as you took out the trash before turning off all the lights and locking up for the night.

Without Eve your life felt like Groundhog Day. A continuous, endless, hell-like loop of waking up, clocking in, and clocking out to do it all over again. The most diversity you had in your life was a new assignment.

Oh and to make life even better, Kai went to the same school as you. A cheap community college where you could earn your associates before taking out student loans to get your bachelors.

Sometimes you wondered if life ever got any better from here…

A few days later, you were working the cash register with Kai when he decided to take his break in the middle of the 12 o’clock rush. “Perfect,” you sighed sarcastically. “Just fucking perfect,” you rolled your eyes as you prepared yourself to deal with the line of customers that had wrapped around one of the aisles.

“You should smile more often,” a man smiled. He looked to be about 40 or 50.

“Excuse me?” You asked, wondering why he would even say something like that.

“I’m just saying,” he shrugged pulling out a $20. “Life is beautiful. There’s a lot to smile about.”

“Right,” you scoffed.

“You should try it sometime,” he smiled as you handed him the receipt.

“M’kay,” you shook you head, wanting nothing more than for him to just take his shit and leave.

“Thank you so much sir for pointing that out,” Kai came out grinning ear to ear like the fucking Cheshire Cat.

“You’re welcome. I just know how much a smile can change the working environment for everyone.”

“Exactly,” Kai nodded. “____, I don’t wanna have to write you up for this because I know how much you need this job. But you’re gonna have to change your attitude.”

You sighed as you rubbed the spot between your eyebrows. Another detail that you hated to remember and often forgot was that Kai was your manager…and the reason you got this job in the first place.

Ironically you started working here during your last year of high school. You planned to earn some money for college to give you a bit of a head start, which only somewhat worked out in your favor.

To be honest, the pay here was pretty good and better than any other option. You assumed this had a lot to do with the low staff.

Anyways, you were hoping that Kai was only joking about writing you up until you were called into the office for a staff meeting on Friday.

“Look, ____. We’re already very low on staff as I’m sure you know. And it’s hard to keep customers coming back if you’re out there looking like you want a bullet in your head,” the owner said, folding his hands.

“That’s probably because I do,” you mumbled to yourself.

“All I’m saying is, try to look at least somewhat pleasant. You don’t have to go overboard, just be natural, okay?”

“Yeah, okay," you shook your head as Kai sat next to you.

"Thanks again, Kai. I really appreciate you for bringing this to my attention. I've been noticing a decline in customer reviews and now I know why."

"No problem," he smiled giving you a look that made you wanna knock his teeth out.

Kai closed the door to the main office as the two of you walked down the hallway.

“I can’t believe you actually fucking ratted me out,” you spat.

“I’m only doing what’s best for the—“

“Drop the fucking act,” you sneered. “We both know you don’t really give a damn. Because if you did I wouldn’t be locking up at night by myself. You’d be there helping me out and not somewhere just jerking off. Y’know what? Maybe I should go tell the boss about what you’re doing since we’re in the bitching business,” you turned around, but just as you tried walking away Kai grabbed your arm, pulling you back and throwing you to the ground.

“Don’t be such a stupid fucking bitch,” he spat.

“You did the same thing to me,” you brushed yourself off as you stood to your feet only to be pushed back down to the ground.

“If I were you I’d quit while I was ahead,” he knelt down.

“I’m tired of you treating me like shit, Kai. I don’t know what your fucking problem is, but I didn’t do anything to deserve this.”

“If you really believe that you’re even dumber than I thought you were.”

“Fuck you,” you spat, looking him dead in the eye. You don’t know what came over you, but you had never been brave enough to stand up for yourself.

“I’d watch my tongue if I were you,” he pressed his forearm against your neck. “Karma can be a real bitch y’know,” your eyes watered as he held you against the wall. You felt weak and powerless against him and you hated it, but there really was nothing you could do about it. Or at least that’s how you felt.

Your bottom lip quivered as he slowly let you go. You sucked in your breath, catching a tear with your sleeve before running off to the bathroom. You cried in there, more than you had in a really long time.

And that evening, after closing early, you smoked through a whole pack. You were on the last one as Kai was walking back to the store. You assumed he’d forgotten something inside as he unlocked the door.

Catching the sight of you, smoking behind the register, he walked up and slapped the cigarette out of your mouth, casting ashes across the floor. “What the fuck?” You spat, picking up the bud before sticking it back between your lips.

“You know that shit could kill you right?”

“I already feel dead,” you hummed, pulling out your lighter. “This is the only thing that makes me feel alive,” you continued, striking the lighter.

“Well you can die on your own time,” he snatched the cigarette out of your pursed lips. “I don’t wanna be the one cleaning up after your corpse when your lungs collapse.”

He looked in the small trash can underneath the register where he saw more than 15 burnt buds and an empty packet. “Did you smoke this whole pack?”

“Obviously,” you rolled your eyes.

“Are you trying to kill yourself?”

“You wouldn’t care anyway. You obviously hate me.”

“Don’t let me catch you smoking again,” he spat.

“You’re not my fucking dad. You can’t tell me what to do,” you reached to try and get your last cigarette back as he shoved you into the counter, putting the bud out on the countertop beside you.

“Next time it’ll be your hand,” he sneered. “Now, clean this shit up and get this disgusting fucking smell out of here,” you forcefully wiped the tear from your eye as he walked away. Grabbing whatever he needed before walking out again.

Sometimes you wondered if this was why Kai always messed with you, because he got a kick out of seeing you cry.

As sadistic as it sounded, it couldn’t be any closer to the truth which you learned later that week one night when Kai told you to close by yourself again. The only difference was that he was somewhat tipsy at this point.

He had been drinking a lot more after the altercation you had in the hallway. You wondered if it was because he felt guilty, finally seeing the error of his ways.

“Can you at least take out the fucking trash before you go?” You spat as he walked to the back putting his stuff away. “Please,” you threw your hand up.

“If I do it will you shut your big fucking mouth?”

“Yes,” you rolled your eyes. He was in an even pissier mood when he drank, but surprisingly he was more useful. He’d do almost anything you asked him to do as long as you bitched about it enough.

“Thank you,” you smiled as he mumbled to himself throwing two bags over his shoulder, and dragging another two out the back door with him.

You heard bottles clanking outside as you shut down the register. Another loud crashing sound shook you up as you called out Kai’s name. You were feeling a bit annoyed at this point. “I don’t even make that amount of noise when I take out the trash,” you sighed.

More noises and no reply from Kai led you to go outside and check on him yourself, leaving your phone in the counter. “What the hell are you doing out here?” You spat as you saw him throwing glass bottles against the wall with bloody hands.

“Kai! Stop it!” You shouted as he shielded his ear with his shoulder.

“Can you stop fucking yelling at me and just go back inside,” he rolled eyes, launching another bottle at the wall.

“No because after you’re done fucking around like a jackass I’m gonna have to come out here and clean this shit up.”

“No you’re not,” he hummed.

“Yes I am.”

“No you’re not,” his words slurred together at this point.

“Yes. I am.”

“No you’r—“ you ripped the bottle out of his bloody grasp.

“You’re way too fucking drunk right now. Just get the hell out of here and go home already.”

“Where are you going,” he asked sounding slightly frustrated.

You started to walk back inside, “I’m gonna go get a broom to clean this shit up,” you sighed. “Someone has too,” you reached your hand out to open the door only to jump, quickly turning around after hearing rapid footsteps approach you.

Kai had pinned you against the door, slamming it shut as he held another bottle in his hand. He broke it beside you head and held it to your neck. “If you scream I’ll cut your throat open right here,” he slurred.

“Get off of me you drunk bastard!” You yelled, squirming in an attempt to free yourself from his grasp. He slapped you in the face with his bloody hand before clenching your jaw.

Tears filled your eyes as you stamped your feet against the ground. You beat against his chest as your arms were stuck in one position. “Kai!” You cried. “Stop it! Please,”

“Why should I? You’re not my mom,” he pressed against you harder, crushing your hands beneath his weight.

“Why do you hate me?” You choked on tears as you couldn’t hold them back anymore.

“Shh!” He put a bloody finger against your lips.

“No, I want you to tell me why you hate me so much. It doesn’t make sense. We used to be friends before…before Eve killed herself,” it was silent for a moment as Kai lowered his head, he body started to tremble as a tear dropped from his face.

“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!” He shouted repeatedly slamming your body against the metal door, dropping the broken bottle.

“You’re hurting me, Kai! Stop it!” You yelled as you felt a pain tugging at your bones. “Please,” your voice shook.

He rested his hands on your shoulders before falling to your knees. “I’m sorry,” he whispered. “God, I’m so fucking sorry,” he cried.

You knelt down and lifted his teary face. “It’s okay, Kai. I miss her too,” you sniffled before wrapping your arms around him.

He pulled away gently, looking up at you with teary eyes. “I’m really sorry, _____,” he apologized. “I’ve been such a dick…”

“And I don’t even understand why…”

“D’you remember the day before Eve died?”

“Of course I do…I think about it almost everyday.”

“What if I told you it’s my fault she’s dead…”

“Wh-what do you mean?”

“She called me…”

“She did?! Why didn’t you ever tell me? What did she say?”

“I didn’t know how to tell you…but she told me to be happy…”

“I don’t understand. Why did she say that?”

“Did you ever notice how she was around you? Like the way she behaved. Did she ever seem like she liked you as more than just a friend?”

“I-uhh…I never paid attention to it.”

“Yeah well she really liked you, but when she found out I liked you too, she started to back off some. Things really took a turn for the worse when her parents heard us arguing one night—“

“What were you arguing about?”

“She had started hurting herself…”

“Like cutting?”

“Yeah…and I guess it didn’t get any better…I should’ve told someone,” he said softly as tears trickled down his cheeks.

“You can’t blame yourself for that.”

“But if I would’ve told someone she might still be here…”

“We don’t know that for sure.”

“It could’ve helped her…she also called me a few nights before she died and told me that her parents found out about her crush on you…I don’t really know how…but they did and she was really upset about that. Do you think her parents are the reason she killed herself?”

“We can’t know for sure…she didn’t really leave us any way of knowing why. But I think you should listen to her and be happy. Just look at the way we’ve separated…”

Kai looked down at his bloody hands, “____…”

“Yes?”

Kai cradled your face in his hands before kissing you on the lips. One kiss turned to three and the next thing you knew his lips were all over your neck as he groped your tit in his hand.

Not a single word was spoken as breathless moans took the place of speech. You grabbed his hair in your hand, untying the small bun he wore as you tousled his hair. He slipped his tongue into your mouth as he pulled you closer.

You pulled his head away as his lips fell to your chest. “What?”

“Don’t you think this is kinda fast?”

“We can think about that in the morning,” he hummed, kissing your neck again.

You held Kai’s hand as he took you inside. He picked you up, placing you on the metal cabinet as he kissed you, unbuttoning his pants.

“What about a condom?”

“Do I look like the type of guy to just have a condom in his wallet?”

“I…uh…”

“Exactly. Don’t worry…I’ll pull out,” he shrugged as you pulled your pants down. You watched as his dick sprang out of his boxers.

You climbed back onto the cabinet, spreading your legs as he stepped between them, lining his tip up with your entrance. “Ngh!” You moaned as he pushed through.

“Mmm,” he hummed feeling your walls contract around him. You wrapped your arms around his shoulders, holding onto him as he pumped into you. He nuzzled his face into yours, bringing your lips back to his as he pushed his tongue into your mouth.

You moaned as you felt yourself coming close to finishing. You threw your head back as he sucked onto your neck. You squeezed your thighs around him, pulling him closer as you climaxed.

"Fuck," he swore.

"What?"

"I'm gonna cum," he bit his lip as he started to pull back.

"I don't care," you pulled him closer, kissing him again.

"But I thought you--"

"We'll think about it in the morning," you whispered as he pumped every drop of his hot load into you.

Everything from here became a blur until the two of you woke up in the backroom. You were laying between his legs as he rested his back against the metal cabinet.

"Shit," you spat as your eyes shot open. "We have to be ready to open in like 30 minutes," you said, scrambling to your feet.

"No way," Kai rubbed his eyes, looking up to see the analog clock on the wall, confirming what you just said.

The two of you scrambled to open up. He wiped off the cabinet from the two of you last night and you worked together to restock the coffee station and check the slushee maker.

"I'll take care of the mess outside," he chuckled, ruffling his hair. You handed him the hair tie that was wrapped around your wrist. It was the same one you took off of him last night. "Thanks," he smiled before kissing you on the cheek.

"Hey, for the record," you hollered. "Whatever happened last night doesn't change anything between us. I still hate you," you smirked.

"I hate you too," he smiled before heading out the back door.

What happened from this day on is hard to explain. It was like the two of you went back to being friends, but something else tugged at your heart aside from the memory of your dead friend. You were starting to like Kai and you could tell that he liked you too, but dating each other just didn't feel right.

As far as sex was concerned, it hadn't happened again since the first time you did it, which was about 3 weeks ago. Even though you did have the occasional makeout session that never seemed to last long enough.

Maybe there were 4 reasons why life continued for you...and he was definitely one of them.

a.n.: I wanted to add more detail to this one, but I didn’t want it to be too long. Sorry if it feels rushed.

𝒦𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓉𝑜𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝑀𝒶𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉

❀ Thank you all so much for reading! Make sure to check out other works on my masterlist!

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I’ve run out of things to say concerning this…I saw the video too and…that’s just so fucking horrible…I just need to be quiet rn

i don’t care about anything other than seunghan’s mental health and wellbeing. this is why sk’s suicide rate is so high— the constant dehumanization and bullying of an individual.. our minds are so fragile and this could easily fuck someone up. i can’t express the despair and devastation that spent through me when watching that video of seunghan walking past those funeral wreaths.. the body language alone shows us all we need to know. it’s nefarious.

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I kinda wanna go on hiatus again…my creativity is shit right now bc I’m trying to process everything with Seunghan…like I’m pissed off

If I post anything it will be from the kinktober list in the order listed (for future reference)

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I’m so glad I’m not the only who has lost their spirit to WRITE because of this situation

I absolutely loved this fine ass man and when I heard he was coming back I damn near exploded with joy

I binged RIIZE videos with him in it, I watched the old music videos, I thought about how everything was about to change only to have him ripped away within 2 days…this broke my heart

I boycotted this group when they first kicked him out, but I slowly allowed myself to enjoy their content without him because I just knew he was coming back

I started hearing shit hit the fan from my friends but I wouldn’t believe it…I couldn’t believe it until I saw the cold hard truth and that pissed me off more than anything ever has in Kpop

SM failed Seunghan…they let a bunch of depressed and unfulfilled pickled potatoes determine his fate like they’re in charge…

Toxic “fans” need a fucking reality check…these ppl don’t live for you…they can have relationship, make mistakes, and live their life without the pressure of having to be perfect

#bringbackbubbles 😭💔

hey guys.. a little vent:

2 days ago i felt so happy with the news of seunghans return that I actually started writing again, today our happiness has been taken away from us again. i don’t usually take kpop seriously, but this is seriously difficult. more and more i am drifting away from this group, this company makes it impossible to enjoy the other 6 members activities. it doesn’t feel right, as someone who has known SH since 2022 sm rookies. if this happened to eunseok or sion or yushi i would react the same, this is pure injustice. to celebrate him quitting is to celebrate the awful person who leaked his private life in the first place. sm and kfans are siding with sasaengs.

i began writing again but now i have lost all spirit, again </3

i really feel no warmth with riize (the brand of ‘riize’, “rise and realize” etc., no hate to the remaining 6 members)

i still have so much love for the boys but these past couple months without SH have dimmed my passion for writing and enjoying the ot6 content

maybe one day i will complete all my riize drafts but the fact that we won’t see seunghan for a long time makes me very sad

at the same time, no other group members interest me as much as the riize members, so i don’t know what this account will happen

i hope everyone is doing well 🩵

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face reveals are always so exciting lol

I will be posting a face reveal for 2k followers, this is your official warning in advance! it will be up for approximately 1 whole entire day! Happy halloween!

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Y’all I am OFFICIALLY DONE with RIIZE…

all of my current RIIZE fics in progress will be changed to other members from other groups or canceled entirely…

I have had enough of the emotional turmoil.

This is absolutely ridiculous, unacceptable, and unprofessional.

And I might even change the name, either way this is the choice I’ve made concerning this crap.

Seunghan’s return didn’t even last a week…I’m done with this band

IT WILL ALWAYS BE SEUNGHAN AND THE GANG FOR ME SORRY NOT SORRY TOM…

for anyone who still likes them, that's totally fine, but i won't be hopping on that bandwagon with you

@chlorinecake @wonbinisbabygurl @nishiimuranights

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fr...this is so stupid...

seunghan officially leaving riize makes my heart hurt and i didn’t even know them like that :( i just cannot fathom that this is all happening because he had a normal dating life prior to becoming an idol

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amen sister

Y’all ot6 fans and k-nets really bullied an innocent man outta the group just for living a normal life fuck y’all and sm too….🫵🏾

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preach!!!!!

I will choke these fans who said riize is better as six since you are the reason seunghan made this choice 🤗

I hate Korean fans 😙

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UPDATE:

GUYSSS!!!! I know I fell behind recently with my kinktober fics and I’m really sorry…I did NOT plan on this happening, but midterms have got my mind going all over the place…PLUS next week I have TWO presentations 😭😭 I promise as soon as I catch up on my school work I’ll get back to writing

Please be patient with me 🩷

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It’s about damn time

GUYSS SEUNGHAN IS BACK BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY! BEST FUCKING GIFT EVER!!!

the translation:

— “Hello. This is Seunghan.

First of all, I would like to sincerely apologize to the members and fans.

When the pre-debut photos were released, I was so disappointed and regretful with myself. I can't imagine what it must have been like for the members and fans around me. I think they must have been angry, surprised, and disappointed.

I apologize to the fans who supported us from the beginning, which was a very important time, and to those who were hurt by my immature behavior, and I apologize to the members who should have been working hard together, and then I apologize to everyone who had to suddenly stop their activities and struggled to overcome the situation. I felt sorry for the situation and also felt a sense of finality that I couldn't be with them.

While I felt regret for the situation, I was thinking more realistically about whether I would be able to stand on stage again and whether I would be able to continue making music. But then the members reached out to me again. It must have been a really difficult decision, but i feel grateful they gave me a chance.

I know that I have a lot to prove to the members who held my hand once again, the fans who are worried that the achievements built up will be ruined, and the company who made the tough decision. I know that I have to work harder and do better to earn their trust.

I will try to be a good member with a sense of responsibility so that I don't overshadow the achievements of our members. I want to be an essential part of the team called RIIZE.

Once again, I would like to apologize to the members, company staff, and fans who may have been surprised by this difficult decision. I will work harder and be more responsible with my actions.”

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lol i'm glad it's not just me

Hi guys! Unfortunately, I will not be continuing my Spooktober Fics! I know some of you were looking forward to this series but I have ultimately decided to not move forward with the fics! I might come back to them in the future but having the deadlines have really stressed me out tbh! I hope y'all enjoyed the Frankenstein inspired Jaemin fic! Which you can read here! Sorry again guys!

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lol I already have to play catch up bc I came home soooo tired yesterday…also one thing I’ve noticed is that since I’ve started writing I don’t read as much…is that just me orrrrr

Hi guys! Unfortunately, I will not be continuing my Spooktober Fics! I know some of you were looking forward to this series but I have ultimately decided to not move forward with the fics! I might come back to them in the future but having the deadlines have really stressed me out tbh! I hope y'all enjoyed the Frankenstein inspired Jaemin fic! Which you can read here! Sorry again guys!