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Don't sabotage your future peace because familiar chaos is comfortable.

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I saw those old pictures, i think i miss you, the sunset, the beach, the way your hair fall from the breeze, your little hand wrapped in mine, the fireworks sparkles that evening sky... I swear to God, I miss your head on my shoulders. Wish I was brave enough to admit how intense my feelings are for you.

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Would things be better if I believe in myself a little more?

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Between the glimpse of light and darkness, now you're standing in the middle, and the question spinning around your head asks you, 'Where would you throw yourself to?'

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The gray color crossed my path, blue and brown as few times sent me drown, humid breeze and the sound of waves that unravel every shade of my being, maybe just maybe, should be grateful for every raw emotion...

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How to Be The ✨Main Character✨ of Your Life 👑

Being the main character of your life means taking charge of your own narrative, making intentional choices, and living authentically. This doesn't mean life will be perfect. It means you're actively participating in your journey, making choices that align with your values, and striving to live a fulfilling life.

Understand yourself. Your desires, strengths, weaknesses, and emotions. What you like and do not like. Reflect on your actions and decisions regularly.

Figure out, decide and commit to the life you want.Both short term and long term. Break these goals down into small steps.

Take action. Don't wait for things to happen; make them happen.

Every main character faces obstacles. They build you. They show you, and others, how bad you want it. Instead of avoiding challenges, face them head-on. They're opportunities for growth.

Physical, emotional, and mental well-being are crucial. Regular exercise, a balanced diet, meditation, and adequate sleep can make a huge difference. How you treat yourself is how much you do or do not love yourself.

Surround yourself with positive influences and people who uplift you. Limit exposure to negative media or toxic individuals.

The world is full of knowledge. Always be curious. Read books and take courses. Always learn.

Connect deeply with others. Genuine relationships add richness to life.

Be true to yourself. Don't live to meet others' expectations. Celebrate your uniqueness.

Regularly acknowledge and appreciate the good in your life. There is always something to be grateful for. It shifts your focus from what's lacking to what's abundant. How you look at life is what you will attract.

Find balance in work, relationships, and personal time. Create a life that is fulfilling. You are not just one aspect of your life.

Imagine yourself succeeding and achieving your goals. This positive visualization can be a powerful motivator. Live your life as if it is already done.

Life will have its ups and downs. Resilience is the ability to bounce back from setbacks and keep moving forward.

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Between the glimpse of light and darkness, now you're standing in the middle, and the question spinning around your head asks you, 'Where would you throw yourself to?'

Between the certainty  of light and darkness  there’s a play of shadows,  a question. Between self and other  there’s an encounter  called distance.

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I just want to disappear into this universe. Be the sun and the sand,  the wind and the water  moving aimlessly. I want to be the dance  between the earth, the sky and the waves. Be the energy that holds  everything in its place. And then I just want to appear as a tiny human being and open my eyes and open my heart to see myself.

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Rocks make the spark  that gives birth to a fire.  A miracle. Light extruded  from solid darkness.  I searched for so long  just to realize that  I am not the rocks.   I am the fire.

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The thing is, I have this huge compassion for others but not myself until it overflows and realizes I have nothing to fill my own cup with

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I’m constantly on this search  for the essence of who I am.  Sometimes, it finds me  and I can feel its presence.  But if I try to grasp it,  it slips away.  If I try to separate it  from the rest, it escapes.  So elusive.  Like the birth of a soul  with no one to receive it,  no shape to define it.  Spilling everywhere,  touching everything.  Free.

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Maybe home is not a physical place. It's a state of mind wherever you feel at peace and safe.

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If no one walks the path, I'll just walk on my own. Figuring out each step and directions with my intuition.

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I feel too deeply because of holding on to the idea that everything happens for a reason. Mind full of what-if, and heart full of longing.

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Whether it is in relationship or friendship, if I don't see any mutual respect and peace, I'd walk away.

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In another universe, me and my high school friends are still having our own concert together

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As i went through, 4 years just enough to unravel several shades of me. I'm not your pious daughter anymore. The path got me crossed some lines that I know I shouldn't. Reading back to his text was completely slapped me right on my face as it resonated the most to this version of me. 2023. Now, he doesn't even know how to text.

He is still here in the same dimension as I live in. How could I miss the person that still exists? I just feel part of him is dying slowly. I miss the time that you held my hand and uplifted me up in the air. Or just let me sit on your shoulder. I REALLY MISS YOU, DAD. It terrifies me to see you dying slowly. I just felt like life already took some version of you. You were just losing your memory. It slowly went back, but that spirit isn't there anymore. I'M TIRED TO COMPETE WITH THAT SISTER WHO WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR FIRST DAUGHTER, YOUR I'M TIRED OF ALWAYS FEELING NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I'm tired of searching for the shades of you in every man I met.

2022: You turned 53, and you are still expecting that daughter to give you a present. Meanwhile, I'm here already do as much as I can to be present in my absence. I'm tired of you comparing me with her. I might not be as smart as her. But I know I'm resilient. I am also worthy of love and attention. I'm tired of fighting for your attention.