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Day 4: I’m scared that once i finally lose a ton of weight, it’ll hate the body i have underneath ig idk. Also I’m really worried about like losing too much weight and not being able to stop, and having my family catch on and sending me to treatment. I don’t want to miss out on my life bc of this but like idk i can’t stop ya know?

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Got high and binged last night 😐 I don’t even know how many calories I ate but it was a fucking lot

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Food Log 7.5.20

Breakfast - 1 egg w/ half a slice of cheese: 112cal

Lunch /

Dinner - microwave burrito lol: 390cal + salsa 10cal

Snack - Cheetos: 160cal

Total: 672

I might start doing this most days so I can hold myself a little more accountable idk we’ll see. It’s been over 90° everyday the past two weeks where I live and it’s unbearable so I haven’t been exercising much :/

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Here is your daily reminder that you can always develope an esting disorder, no matter how much you weigh.

I am a naturally skinny girl (I never weighed nore than 53,5kg/118lbs) and I still developed an ed when I was about 12. Obese and oberweighed people can also suffer from eating disorders. Weight loss is just a *symptome*, the real disease is in your head. It's the fear of (certain) food, the desire to control your intake, strictly counting calories, weighing yourself daily and exercising and purging and most importantly the fear of gaining weight. It's not all about being super fragile and skinny.

*Your ed is valid, no matter how high or low the number on the scale is* and it's never too early or too late to seek help. 💓

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facts

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Day 2: I’m like 5’3ish (prolly a little shorter) and I don’t hate my height but I’d love to be like 5’6 or something. No use dwelling on something I can’t change I guess

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There’s literally no in between for my why am I like this

me when i’m restricting: ok so running this many miles should burn about this many calories, and if i do that twice today that’ll be burning just about triple the calories i’m consuming and then-

me when i’m binging: the steps it takes to get to the living room will probably do something at least

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I need to lose 20 pounds, make $10,000, and sleep for 4 days all before tomorrow.

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I wanna get high but I don’t wanna get munchies and binge 😐

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List of food w it’s calorie

Got this from thefitnesschef_ on IG, go ahead to their account for more.

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Day 1: 5’3, my highest weight is 160lbs but I’m 155lbs rn and my gw is 100lbs.

I’ve had an ed for like 5 years now but the past 1.5 years I’ve been in a binge restrict cycle and I’ve just been gaining weight :/ especially since quarantine started I’ve been eating so fucking much but I’m trying to commit to losing weight now. I want to lose at least 15lbs before college starts in mid August :)