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characters who are self-sacrificing because they don't value their own life enough, who don't fear death as much as they fear living without their loved ones is a fun trope, lots of potential there, but- you know what else is really fun?

self-sacrificing characters who are absolutely terrified of dying. characters who desperately want to live, who have to fight every single screaming instinct in their body as they throw themselves into danger. they don't want to do this, don't want to be here. they're dragging themselves along behind their loved ones, frantically trying to get the fear to subside long enough to be useful in these situations.

but- well. if your hands are shaking too badly to hold a weapon, you're no help. if your mind is racing too rapidly to think of a good plan, you're no help.

you know what doesn't need a steady hand? throwing yourself directly into the line of fire. you know what doesn't need a sharp thought process? using yourself as the bait.

and. well. they have to help the others somehow, right? and - this? reckless self-endangerment, taking the hits and distracting the threats and taking every single risk that the others don't need to take because they all have other ways of contributing? this is all they can do. they're convinced that is is all they can do for their loved ones, so- they may be on the verge of a breakdown every single time, they may be sick with anxiety at the thought of not making it back this time-

but. if this is the one thing they can do, the one way they can help? they're going to do it. of course they are.

so they just. keep. doing it.

bonus points if they can't quite shake the worry that they're being selfish by wanting to be safe, wanting to stop doing this, wanting to live.

bonus bonus points if their friends/teammates would literally fall to pieces without them, but not for any practical reason, just- that's a person who's absolutely inextricable from the lives of everyone around them. losing them would be one of the most devastating things imaginable for these people. no one here wants them pulling self-sacrificial stunts, no one here wants them taking those risks.

something about characters who've always wanted to live; their arc is realizing that they're allowed to. the gradual process by which the truth finally sinks in: they don't need to do this. their worth does not hinge on what they offer. accept the hand extended to you. step down from the sacrificial altar. your unsteady return to the ground was never going to be met with a condemnation. you have always had a place here.

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my fave tiktok diet fad videos are the ones like "you could eat 100 calories of a cake or get much more on your plate with 100 calories of raw pumpkin puree". woooooah man that's such a hard choice, i'm always craving cold slop from a can

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why do you always post about getting stuck in your room?

the door knob is so slippery and wet its hard to turn i dont know… i dont know. i dont know. i dont know

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the genius of megamind (beyond the obvious genius ofc) is that it's superman parody actually presents a genuinely unsettling depiction of the "hero" that I like wayyy better than "what if superman was evil" or "what if superman was wrong"... it's "what if superman didn't care"

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Could yall stop shooting each other outside my window im trying to masturbate

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Speef is real to me. I'm sorry for that.

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Dream Journal:

I was working on a series based on another series a guy made where it was about Batman and Superman and it was kinda like Tamers12345. there was a part where Giorno fused with another guy in order to become immortal and survived past the heat death of the universe. Giorno was there for when the universe was reborn, Krillin, Goku and Vegeta were there. Queen Chrysalis took something from us, I made a series based on Mario and Luigi? Giorno? became a giant golden dragon and had to fight another dragon who was even bigger. We were all in a mansion that was sinking into the void of water. Jupiter slammed into earth and started to consume it's sky.

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(context, kind of)

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still thinking about that r/hypotheticalsituation post where someone was like "what if a potato chip spawned somewhere randomly in the world. and every hour the number of potato chips at that location would double. and the only way to get rid of them for good would be to eat all of the potato chips before they doubled again." and someone calculated that it would only take like, 48 hours of people ignoring a weird pile of potato chips before an absolutely irreconcilable number of potato chips was blanketing a city.

and then people were like "no wait if it spawns randomly in the world, it's highly likely it would be in an ocean" and then people were debating whether there were enough small fish swimming at the surface in the open ocean that would be able to eat a potato chip and thus save humanity from the potato chip apocalypse.

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Okay you guys.

IF YOU PRIMARILY DO NOT SPEAK ENGLISH reply with what you mentally call it, if you have a nickname for it or something

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It’s still pride month.

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Woah mama hating on fat people is a shitty thing to do by the way

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what are we even saying anymore

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what I think will happen if I message my mutuals

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