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“Just because you took longer than others doesn’t mean you failed. Remember that.”

— Unknown

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me, unloading a fitted sheet from the dryer: *squinting* what's that you've got in your mouth

fitted sheet: nothing :)))))))

me, prying open its twisted jaws: na-ah!!! give it to me RIGHT now!!

fitted sheet: *resentfully spits out a wad of 3 very damp dishtowels, a pillowcase, and a pathetically sodden washcloth*

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more space odyssey brainrot

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Airborne Onnagata: Viewing Macross Frontier’s protagonist through a genderqueer lens

Major Spoilers for Macross Frontier and its films, including The Labyrinth of Time.

2008’s Macross Frontier is well regarded by Macrossfans for returning to the core concepts of the franchise while moving the needle forward at the same time. Set against the backdrop of the titular space colonization fleet’s struggle against an insectoid race known as the Vajra and the political machinations surrounding them, Frontier squarely focuses on the search for identity amongst the members of its central love triangle. Ranka Lee is an up-and-coming idol who questions herself at every turn. Sheryl Nome is a certified superstar with time against her. The final member of this triangle is Alto Saotome, an actor-turned-student-turned-fighter-pilot who struggles to parse all the different elements of himself.  

In the years following the heyday of the series and its accompanying films, Ranka and Sheryl have been praised for their charisma and growth. Alto, not so much. He’s often derided as an overly hostile, angsty teenager: I’ve heard him described as “an abrasive, one-note character”  more than once. While he definitely does have his moments, I don’t think his sometimes brusque personality is always without reason. 

After an initial viewing of Macross Frontier, most viewers would comment on a handful of topics. Not limited to, but including: the series’ back-to-basics approach reminiscent of the original 1982 Macross, its tendency to adhere a bit too closely to then-current trends, and unending talk of how awful Alto is. However, on a recent rewatch, a new thought clicked with me: what if Alto was fighting with some intense dysphoria? 

Read it at Anime Feminist!

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“Good afternoon, gentlemen. I am a HAL 9000 computer. I became operational at the H.A.L. plant in Urbana, Illinois on the 12th of January 1992. My instructor was Mr. Langley, and he taught me to sing a song. If you'd like to hear it, I can sing it for you.”

I’ve been teaching myself digital sculpting and one thing led to another while i very slowly try to work on a sculpt for my Lancer mech, and we ended up here right on time for this guy’s activation date.

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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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current fan creation landscape is kinda like if you went to a party with a homemade cake and everyone takes a slice and silently thumbs up at you with no attempt to start a conversation except for occasionally some guy sits in the corner with a tape recorder critiquing the cake as though he was a restaurant critic and another guy is handing the cake to an uber driver like "yeah i need you to find a restaurant that makes cake like this so i can have more of it" and the only person that's talked to you in 30 minutes is a very sweet little guy who was like "hey i liked your cake" and then ran away apologizing for bothering you the moment you said thank you.

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Sometimes you gotta hit your Lancer players with:

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ping ponging back and forth between seeing immense beauty everywhere and feeling deeply like i am in hell

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its miserable having online friends i would help you clean and paint your room and fold your laundry and move furniture and cook mostly edible food for you and generally do tasks for you and drink with you and smoke with you and go on walks with you and see you smile when i make you laugh. but the distance

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Last session one of our pilots unironically proposed a death pact with Emma's NHP and this was basically his response

He responded in the mech, this form is his projection, but you get the idea

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silly little Lancaster thing I had in my head

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The final design for Mecha Roddy is done hehe

Made the pilot suit for him + made the colors of his mecha a little bit more vibrant >:)

Also. Only now noticed the amount of gingers in this au ahahah. Jazz would walk to the big meetup for the first time and be like: WOW that’s a LOT of red hair for a single room.

(It would also be so fucking funny if Cybertronians (aka Prowl and Deadlock) struggle immensely trying to tell all the gingers apart from each other lmao.)