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michael afton is fun as a character reason #2397437: I feel like so much of his mindset and his trauma and also the specific ways he's been abused all ultimately tie back to The Bite ('83), which was his fault, which makes it really hard for him (or anyone else) to detangle What's Up With Him, mainly on the basis of his mindset that he doesn't "deserve" to make that moment About Him.

Like, he was traumatized by witnessing the horrific death of his brother firsthand. And he knows on a certain level that that's affected him deeply. But does he deserve to acknowledge (even in his own brain) that him killing his brother negatively impacted him? It surely impacted his brother more. So that moment can't be about him, he would sound horrible if he told anybody that that moment hurt him.

And of course he's grieving his brother, except it's hard to grieve, because why on earth would he be allowed to think things like "I wish my brother were here" or "I miss my brother so much," when it's his fault that his brother is gone?

And his dad is always telling him about how he's a bad person, and rubbing salt in the wound by bringing up how he killed his brother, and on a certain level Mike understands that that's wrong. Like, he knows his dad shouldn't be doing that. But does he deserve to acknowledge that, when everything his dad is saying is true? Does he deserve to say "It really hurts me when my dad calls me a bad person and brings up how I killed my brother, and it's messing with my ability to process that event in a healthy way?" Wouldn't that be a selfish thing to say?

And so then we get all these issues of like, because Mike's perspective on what he deserves and what he's allowed to think or feel is so skewed, it's hard to get to know him and hard for people to understand him, because the way he presents situations is not the way they really are--like, he'd easily tell someone "Yeah, I'm a bad person, I'm really awful to people," and if they take him at face value... that's the end of that! And also internally, he has like a mental block against processing so many things that just keeps piling up, because he keeps having this mindset that he doesn't deserve to process those things or feel those feelings. So he doesn't have a super good understanding of himself or things that have happened to him, either.

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did i do this right

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yeah ok man

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cuteness aggression so bad i need him to die a THIRD time

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so true william afton

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finally finished drawing a lineup of a bunch of my interpretations of fnaf human characters!! been working on this for a while now. phew.

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wretched creature

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I saw this and COULDN’T resist—sucha goofy grin for a dead guy. I love you zombichael 💖

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uHhh.. it’d go like this I think

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i love mike’s drawings and the fact that he’s canonically really good at art because no shit he’s had no control over anything his entire life, he was born into his shitty father’s face, forced to be a babysitter, and had to clean up his father’s messes, drawing was the ONE time he could be in control of something and he used it as a “fuck you” to his father’s legacy

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you are michael afton. you've been parentified since birth. you lash out about it and suddenly you're the catalyst for the entire narrative. you're the final girl but you never signed up for it. you have your father's eyes. you carry your last name like a corpse. your organs were scooped and subsequently puked out. your bloodline is cursed. scott cawthon has forgotten you exist.

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stupid meme for discord

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more for my digital circus au!! dinner time

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Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.

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I've been working a little bit on a little illustration, which is kind of a reinterpretation of the movie Rodrick Rules. The one where they just go hang out at the gas station and play with fake vomit. And here I ask, who else here is part of the Rodrick fan club, because GOD he is so handsome !!!! My 26 year old self is still as in love with him as my 13 year old self.

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girl who develops a god complex and changes her pronouns from she/her to She/Her

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shakes my favorite character. tosses him around. woo wee woo